Hi. How have you been? Yes, I know it's a very odd question since we see each other very often. But come to think of it, when was the last I asked you that? When was the last time we actually had a serious talk? It's been so long I can't even remember when.
We've been friends for quite a while now. Friendship which I think would last a lifetime. But behind this friendship is a heart slowly being crushed.
It's very unusual for a girl and guy to be friends, to be just friends, they say. And we proved them wrong, didn't we? We've been friends for as long as we can think of and we're still trying to keep that friendship. But sometimes, I ask myself, why are we just friends? Can't we be more than that? Which I would answer myself, "No, you cannot. You should not. You must not."
Whenever I hear your longing to meet that right person for you, I quietly wish and hope that you'll notice me. But then I guess, never will it happen. Because for you, I am just a friend.
You see, this friendship is really crushing me. I am protecting my heart, don't worry. Never did I assume anything, never did I assume that everything you did to and for me was beyond being friends. Never will I assume that you like me, too. Never. Even if you did, still, never.
I hope we can take a break from being friends. Not to be more than friends but back to being strangers. Back to when seeing you won't make my heart skip a beat. Back to when everything between us is black and white and nothing's in rainbow colors. Back to when I would just smile and nod at you and you'd do the same. Back to when the feeling's not there yet.
Hey. I think this year's going to be the last year I am considering myself as your "close friend." I don't think I can still continue to be one. I have to protect myself more. And protect you, too. For when your right one comes along, she must not get confused as to who I am in your life.
And hey again–thank you.
I know I haven't said this, but yes, thank you. Thanks for the friendship, that wonderful friendship. This friendship I will keep forever in my heart. You have no idea how grateful I am to the Lord for sending you to me–for giving me this friendship that we have.
You will forever be that man in my life–that one man whom I loved then and I love now.
*Minor edits have been made by the Femalenetwork.com editors.
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