Hayzz, I belong here, I think it's what I'm soo sure of.
I'm 30 years old, been with several multinational companies and now, 2 years ng work from home. Ever since naman I really don't know what I want to do. Nasa call center na ako agad napadpad because of salary, I didn't learn to love it but I believe naging forte ko sya and wala na akong kawala. For more than a year, parang call center work din ako dito sa work from home gig ko, difference lang is no more night shift, though minsan sagad sa OT kumuha pa ako ng second job para medyo makaipon pa.
Pero sadly, di parin ako masaya. Wala din akong special talent, may boses but walang guts to sing infront of madlang people, I knew how to dance when I was a kid, but sadly I'm too big to do that.
I wanted to do a lot of things sana, gusto maging physically fit, try to jog, try badminton again parang nung dalaga pa ako, go back to the gym to lose weight pero I'm stuck dito sa house working, I think my ass is getting bigger each day.
Gusto ko rin mag work abroad, gusto ko mag try magwork sa singapore, dubai or sa UK. I wanted to try different things, lagi lang kasi akong confined sa idea na kung san maraming pera go ako, pero hindi sa talagang gusto kong gawin.
Gusto kong mag aral ulit, gusto kong mag masters, second course or kahit na ano pa. Kaso mababawasan ang oras ko sa work.
Siguro sa sobrang dami kong ginagawa kaya lalong na stress ko sa sarili ko that I'm not happy, not happy at all of who I become after years of trying to find what I would want to be.
Sobrang daming dillema and di ko lang alam kung ako magsisimula, I'm afraid din mawalan ng work kasi wala naman akong aasahang iba.