I felt this before I decided to become a WAHM. I was in a job that really pays the bills (and more), but I was no longer happy with it. There was room for growth yes, but at that time, I feel in my heart that that place of work was not where I wanted to 'grow'. I dragged myself to work every single day, and it's not just because I missed my daughter who I had to leave at home with the yaya - it was because I didn't see anything to look forward to where I was going. I had to go to work because, well, I just had to go to work. Parang nasusuka pa ko pag nakikita ko yung office. Parang naiiwan ko yung kaluluwa ko sa elevator bago ko pumasok sa loob ng floor. That was really how I felt.
The decision to resign was both difficult and easy at the same time. It was easy to say "AYOKO NAAAAA!!!!" but it was hard to finally decide to completely let go. True, I already had an online job then na puedeng source of income, pero I won't even earn half of what I was earning sa current job ko noon. And I'd lose all the other benefits, medical, bonuses, social life, etc. etc. What really helped me go through making the difficult decision was yung support ni hubby. Ang daming nagsabi sa kin na bakit daw ako nagresign, sayang daw yung ganito yung ganyan. Naisip ko na lang, sayang din yung oras at enerhiya ko sa isang bagay na hindi ko na talaga gustong gawin.
Now, three years after resigning, I'm doing what I love to do. And although hindi pa din madali ang trabaho, I really really enjoy what I'm doing to the point na namimiss ko pa pag wala akong ginagawa.
And yeah, we don't get to travel, we don't have a lot of cash, we don't get to buy the latest gadgets, we don't get to go the best restaurants, we can't afford all the other 'extras' in life we could have had if I was still in that job I left. But, we were able to make small investments for the family, isa-isa nga lang. Pero meron. We learned to value the simple and more important things in life. I got to be with my daughter from 8 months old onward (mag-four na sya this year). I think I gained more 'life essentials' when I resigned.
QLC is difficult, pero sa tingin ko kailangan syang pagdaanan para magkaroon ng realizations. Kumbaga, once ma-acknowledge mo yung lack of direction, that would motivate you to actually strive to have bigger goals. Hindi magiging madali, sacrifices may have to be made. Pero the sacrifices will definitely be worth it. Times like these, super importante din ng may support system, na hopefully you can get from your families.
And like sis Superjoie said, pray pray pray. Pray as in talk to God, talk to Him like humihingi ka ng advice sa friend mo. He's always ready to give you an answer, tayo lang naman ang hinihintay Nya na lumapit sa Kanya.
