this should have been my happiest month...my wedding :( {Journal to Recovery}

[doratheexplorer]

just take your time in accepting the things. mahirap talaga iadjust esp if you build your world with him yet in the end ikaw lang pala ang bumubuo ng mundo na gusto mo para sa inyo... but the good side of it is that you were able to establish and see that you can do things on your own.it is an accomplishment for you.

[xxxloixxx]

sis xxxloixxx , ayoko nang i-feel ang pain kasi mahihirapan na naman ako. ayoko nang bumalik sa dati sis. What I'm doing now is as much as possible di ko na dapat ma-feel ang pain kaya i'm doubling my efforts na to busy myself. pero bakit ganun sis? the harder I suppressed the pain, the more hurtful it is pag alone na ako? I came to the point na that I already ask God what did I do to deserve this? hindi naman ako masamang tao ah!

That's why you have to feel it but don't let it consume you. Pag sinuppress mo kasi, mas mahihirapan ka kasi pinapatagal mo lang... eventually you will have to go through it. Pain is inevitable. Iiyak mo lang lahat, forgive him and forgive yourself. After that, you'll start to accept na. Stop hoping na magiging kayo pa ulit. It's called break-up because it's broken.

And you know what, after all this makikita mo blessings mo isa-isa darating. Consider your break-up a blessing kasi a much better guy will come along. Don't feel angry, instead thank God. Live your best life NOW. Show him and the world na panghihinayangan ka nya kasi nawala ka sa buhay nya and not the other way around. Success is the greatest revenge. The more kasi that you pity yourself, the more na makikita nya na you're worthless. Sis, you know your worth. You gotta show it. Cheer up!

[holli_may]

hello! kumusta na kayong lahat mga sisses? belated happy new year pala. now lang uli ako nakabalik dito sa GT. God bless sa lahat

[ysa.belle]

hi sis holly_may! musta ka na? how was your new year? i hope you are doing great... how the new place?

[xxxloixxx]

hi holli_may! how are you these days?

[roxykarlo]

  hi sis holli_may! i just read ur story. ay ganun din ako. sis, hayaan mo na. masakit talaga but that is the reality. hindi ka siguro love ng guy, kasi pag love ka ng guy, he will stay. ako nga, akala ko kami na magkakatuluyan ng ex ko, we went steady for 4years, hindi pala. para akong maloka nun. sa work, tulala ako. and now, im happily married sa hubby ko na same company that i work.. see? everything happens for a reason pala. kaya naghiwalay kami ng ex ko, kasi may much better na ibibigay si God sakin. all hurtings and pain come to an end. even when it seems sobra na taaga and halos ikamatay mo na. hindi ka bibigyan ng problem ni God na di mo kaya. Just pray. it works! happy new year and happy valentines!hehe

[SweetCandy]

Hi ms hollimay... I wonder how you're doing now? You're story was really sad...But i really hope slowly but surely you'll be okay na. I feel for you. Always remember, after every storm is a rainbow. Di pa siguro anytime soon, but one day you can be really happy again. The pain will be gone and you can enjoy life again. But until that happens, try to heal yourself by being more prayerful. I've been there, i've experienced that kind of a massive heartache before...and what got me through was really my prayers. It kept me sane. It kept me alive. Sis, I sincerely hope you'll be okay...

[fds4eva]

he is surely unworthy of you.

[laniegege]

hi sis holli_may! kamusta ka na? hope your doin ok na

[alec_18]

hi hollimay..now ko lang nabasa story mo..what a massive heartbreak....hayy..know how it feels....kung pwede lang mgka amnesia na lang tayo noh pero sya lang un makakalimutan mo ;p..learn to accept that some good things never last tlaga..just keep on praying..
hope ur doing fine now..

Let me share this with you..
"There are moments when troubles enter our lives and we can do nothing to avoid them.
But they are there for a reason. Only when we have overcome them will we understand why they were there."
— Paulo Coelho (The Fifth Mountain)

[holli_may]

@ sis ysa_belle === hi sis! miss chatting with you again. okay na ang place ko, bahay na talaga siya kahit papano belated happy new year and belated happy valentine's day sis.

@ sis xxxloixxx === ok lang sis kahit papano. i'm keeping myself busy talaga as much as possible.


@ sis roxykarlo and sis SweetCandy and sis alec_18  === sana sis, roxykarlo, i would have the same happy ending like you thank you din sis SweetCandy, there's nothing else I holdd on talaga kundi prayers. Sis alec_18, thanks din sa quote. Yung mga encouraging quotes na binigay nyo sa akin, I copy them in my diary para mababasa ko everytime I write my journal entry. Salamat for undestanding my pain and never ending words of encouragement and prayers

@ sis fds4eva === i'm still teaching myself to accept everything that have happened sis so I can move on completely na.

[holli_may]

i miss you all mga sisses! these past few months that i was away from GT, I spend it with my so called "self retreat". I made a prayer brigade on my own. I went to this certain church where I had my nine-day novena. i also occupy myself more with hanging out with my friends para pampalipas ng oras and that every pag-uwi ko ng bahay pagod na pagod na ako. i even planned on enrolling in a dance school para me activity lang pero I dropped the idea na kasi feeling ko di ko na makakayanan...both gastos and time between that and my work. Sometimes nga I went out with some of my officemates kahit na di ko naman talaga sila gaano ka-close...basta lang me mapagkaabalahan. But all those things only made me become more stressed out mga sis kasi parang added work and effort, and that is ang makikisama sa isang company na you feel you don't want to be part with naman.

So what I did was, i limited my going outs with my real close friends lang talaga kasi enjoyment nga ang hanap ko eh and not yung pipilitin ko ang sarili ko na makisama pa and I continued my prayer brigade pa rin. Right now, I am part na sa org ng church namin. I get to meet new friends na rin and me mga new activities na rin ako. And this time I feel it's more valuable kasi church activities siya so it include bible sharing, charities, and yung mga outreach. I feel happier this time lalo na pag kasama ko ang mga churchmates ko. What I would like to maintain lang is to keep the happy mood and peaceful heart kahit sa pag-uwi ko ng bahay. kasi when I'm not with my churchmates, parang I feel lost na naman eh I could not tell them naman what happened or I preferred not to let them know kasi I wanted na kahit sa church man lang, ayoko na me presence pa ng painful past dun. to be with my churchmates is my new solace now. Mga sis it's almost a year na and I hope maging totally okay na ako please continue to include me in your prayers mga sis. I love you all so much!

[ysa.belle]

so proud of you sis holli-may...

[ruthieteezle]

Hi sis holli_may! Great na active ka na rin sa church. I think in due time makakapag-share ka rin sa churchmates mo. Kasi ganyan din ako when I became active sa church, hindi nila alam yung past ko sa ex ko pero later on nung naging kaclose ko na rin sila, nakwento ko rin and masarap din yung feeling kasi parang nabawasan ulit yung nasa loob. Ienjoy mo lang din ang activities mo and when you get home, wag ka na mag-isip masyado, rest na lang and manood ka ng mga series or read books and the Bible.  So happy for you!!

[jpsv72]

holli_may- congrats sis, i just read your story at touched talaga ako, akala ko dikana makaka recover. good for you. and continue mo lang ang ginagawwa mo para maka recover kana completely.
God created us to be happy kaya enjoy ka lang sa life mo ngayon.
God bless.

[gurlzat03]

hello sis holli_may! glad to hear updates from you. good to know na you're getting to the road of happiness. godspeed!

[holli_may]

just dropping by to say my hello to you all, mga sis hope everyone's doing just fine. sobra kong namiss ang sharings dito.  now lang uli ako naka-visit dito sa GT...
ano na mga balita sa inyo mga sis? ako eto, so far doing just fine naman still busy with my church commitments and syempre sa work. hope to visit the thread more often para balik connected na naman tayo lahat miss you mga courageous sisses ko!!!

[_AiaH_]

^ sis it's really nice to hear from you again. I'm glad na you're busy and i'm sure, somehow nagiging okay na. little by little

[faith]

hi sis holli_may, am glad you're ok. keep on moving lang and someday, you'll be totally over him.

been there too. the heartbreak was really a break for me to know myself better. yup, minsan may time talaga na you can't help crying. pero kayanin mo lang. focus yourself on getting over him or the relationship. be optimistic that a day will come, na tatawanan mo lang to.

i waited for 2 years before entertaining a suitor. siniguro ko lang talaga na OK na ako. got married early this year.  a month before the wedding, i saw my ex. masaya ako kasi i was able to overcome a trial na ako lang pwedeng mgsolve and natawa naman kasi nakita ko yong guy na iniyakan ko before.

[SweetieNela]

sis,holli_may, i just read your story buti at nakakarecover kana!. good for you.! hope na maging ayos na ang lahat sayo! just be positive and stand firm. enjoy ka lang sa life mo ngayon.