this should have been my happiest month...my wedding :( {Journal to Recovery}

[gurlzat03]

I'm in.. glad to hear from you again sis holli_may... copy ko 'yung mga nilagay mo sa post, part of encouragement while I'm nearing the acceptance stage..

any organizer for get together event? sali ako, pede din ako mag-organize.. let me know of your availability lang para its a chance din to meet new friends..

[ladyisabella]

i miss you all mga sis, how are you all na?
sisses ladyisabella and vanillamist === now ko narealize nahihiya ako sa sarili ko. Kasi when I posted my story sa thread na 'to before, I really felt I had the saddest story anyone could ever experience. And now knowing your stories, para akong sinampal na ke liit lang pala ng pinagdaanan ko sa napagdaanan nyo and yet I felt pa na I would die na before. And with your stories din, i so admire you both kasi yung pain na napagdaanan ko is more than twice pa pala sa napagdaanan nyo and yet you stood on your ground and made it to recovery. you inspired me mga, sisses and I thank you for sharing your stories. We may have different circumstances but same story and I believe it's for the same purpose and outcome kay God. Maybe we have same common strength na tinetest ni God but at the end of the day, same yung reward...everlasting happiness with our "THE ONE". Though, I'm feeling much better now than last year but I'm not totally healed...yet. But at least I know in myself that I am healing and I believe that  I or we should reward ourselves for our strength. And we should continue to glorify God because He is our constant source of strength. I'm so excited to see you both (and the rest of our sisses who share the same experience) at the end of this trial...that is finding our Prince sent by God!

^ yah sis, napakahirap ng napagdaanan ko.. kase wala ako magawa, kahit gusto ko lumaban non, wala naman sa kanya, lalo pa nya ko pinahihirapan, so sabi ko nalang sa sarili ko "Let it Be".

Alam mo sis, masaya na ko ngayon, sa 9 months ko single noon, madami ako natutunan, di ako naghanap pero bigla nalang me dumating sakin. Im happy with my new bf now. LAhat ng pain ko before sobra sobrang saya naman ngayon. Now i believe, meron at meron pareng matino at taong mamahalin ka higit pa sa love mo sa kanya. Thankful ako kase kung di nya ko iniwan at sinaktan ng bongga di ko makikilala ang bf ko ngayon. Kanya na yung kasal sana namen.. basta ako di ko pagpapalit happiness ko ngayon. Maloka sya ngayon sa pag sisisi.

[gurlzat03]

^ good for you sis.. lam mo, talagang marunong si God.. hindi nya talaga tayo pinapabayaan.. super true talaga 'yung saying na may darating na mas better na para sa 'tin.. kaya 'wag tayong mainip.. ako nga 1 year ng "single but happy", pero hindi ko napapansin kasi I learned a lot din from my past relationship.. goodluck to all of us!

[momentum]

kamusta na kayong lahat mga sisies?  especially sis holli_may? i year has passed..i admire your strength..up natin itong thread! 

san na ang get-together?

[ladyisabella]

kinasal na si ex last week, actually wala naman ako balak alamin eh, kaso yung fam nya keeps on updating me. Dapat daw kasal namin yun blah blah blah.. Natawa nalang ako kase it seems na parang gusto nila ako gumawa ng way para di matuloy. hahahaha. ayoko nga!!!, love ko bf ko now, pinili ni ex yun so panindigan nya. hahahaha

[momentum]

^ wow sis, good riddance! hahaha   

[ysa.belle]

merry christmas sis holly_may!

[kisses bratt]

hi sis holli... dont think na your journey ahs already ended in that way... oo nabawasan [textspeak!] pagkatao mo kasi half of it sya na [textspeak!] pumuno pero hindi un ang purpose mo sa buhay bakit ka andyan madami pang opportunity na ibibigay sayo si LORD. nangyari [textspeak!] bagay na yon ng hindi natin lubos maisip o maintindihan but Im proud of you kasi nakayanan mo. Nadapa ka and yet ito ka din BUHAY at mas madami pang nagmamahal sayo. Asan man ang ex hubby mo, nasugatan man nya ang puso, kinitil man nya ang buhay pero sandali lang un kasi MAS MADAMING BLESSINGS ang binigay at ibibigay sayo ni LORD andyan ang pamilya mo, kaibigan mo at mga FN family mo....

Remind yourself and be proud of yourself kasi that YOUR BRABVE enough to face all this trials in life.

Id like to share this thoughts of you which is my one of my fave: LIFE IS NOT ALWAYS FAIR BUT GOD IS ALWAYS FAITHFUL...

ALways TRUST THE LORD with all your heart for HE ALONE KNOWS THE BEST FOR YOU.

GOD bless you!

[kisses bratt]

hi mga sissess,

kung sa gala at travel at outing may alam ko nyan..
actually plan na ito before na hindi ako nakasama sa grupo ko kasi [textspeak!] time ng gala dapat namin ay syan ding kinuka ni LORD ang amang ko (Lolo) kaya hindi ako nakasama pero mura poh sya kasi [textspeak!] 10 pax na good for 4 days ang 3 nights ang fee mo lang ay 3500 kasama na lahat un [textspeak!] sa gala at hotel at pagkain at pasalubong pero di pa kasama [textspeak!] fare sa plane.
[textspeak!] lugar na sinasabi ko mga sisses ay si BOHOL...

sana matyambahan natin na may promo ang fare na mura...

update lang mga sissess...

[holli_may]

kamusta...kamusta...kamusta na kayong lahat? hehe nice to be back! andami kong kwento antagal ko rin kasing di na nakavisit dito. kumusta na mga sisses? ay belated Merry Christmas and belated Happy New Year pala

Hope lahat ng mga nagshare ng mga experience nila sa thread na 'to ay mga okay na ngayon as for me, okay na ako I could say na I'm back on my feet na and I am a better me na rin. Eto, I busy myself na with out of town travels, climbs, church activities, and even trying out new interests. Nga pala singit ko lang saglit si ex...binalitaan lang ako ng common friend namin na kinasal na pala siya last year. hay sa wakas he finally found someone na he can see himself getting old with. Eto alang halong showbiz eto, I'm happy na he's finally settled down. Kasi anng ibig sabihin lang nun is ginrant ang prayers ko for him to be happy and that only means malapit na rin ang balik nun sa akin. Kasi nga diba sabi bless those who done you wrong so you will be blessed in threefolds.

During my "healing" journey kasi I also taught myself to learn to let go and give my blessing for ex  to be finally happy. and eto nga I learned na he got married na. Hindi ko lang ginawa ang pagpapatawad and pagpray for ex's happiness dahil lang sa gusto ko ng grasya in return but because it's what God wants. I did it to make God happy than to expect my "reward". Just like kung me nakaaway tayo...kaibigan man natin, pamilya, or katrabaho. Ayaw man nating makipagbati (lalo na pag tayo yung ginawan ng masama) pero since gusto ni God na tayo ang magparaya, since tayo ang mas nakakaunawa ng Words and teachings nya, dapat sundin natin ang nais nya. And I can attest to that, blessings do come in threefolds!   It was my self-surrender to follow God's words

Anyway, I wish to keep in touch with everyone here again and I'll make it a point na rin na madalas na akong magvi-visit dito sa GT...kaya magbalitaan tayo uli, mga sisses ha miss you all alot! Bye bye na muna ako for now...for now lang naman. hehe God Bless averyone!

[momentum]

^ welcome back sis 
I'm happy for you coz you're happy na and found peace within.
sana maachieve ko narin ito soon 

[holli_may]

Oh you will, sis Lay it all down to the good Lord:)

[spitfire]

Pasali ako mga sis..

Grabeh sis holli_may binasa ko ang journal mo mula simula and I am truly inspired sayo at sa lahat ng mga sisses natin dito na nakapag share. I really felt what you have been through and feel na feel ko rin ngayon ang happiness and inner peace mo.

My situation is not as heartbreaking as this but I can relate with the pain... I hope one day I can truly say that "I am happy for my ex" as of the moment puro pain pa but I know soemday I will get there..

Thank you and stay happy everyone!

[FoxyPhoenix]

I think I will be in this situation, wala pang formal break up pero parang going there narin. I'm happy for you holly_may. You're over it and now moving on. I'll bookmark this page, somehow it helps reading support/opinions from other sisses.

[holli_may]

share ko lang to mga sis:

Psalm 94:18-19
When I said, "My foot is slipping", your love, O Lord, supported me. When anxiety was great within me, your consolation brought joy to my soul

Hope, this would make you feel better, mga sis

[momentum]

^ thanks for sharing sis 

malapit na yung Valentines   

[holli_may]

Malapit na ang Valentine's Day and I'm excited on reading sa mga upcoming posts nyo on how you’re gonna celebrate your heart's day. let's share kilig moments naman para di lang puro heartaches dito hehe sa mga heartbroken naman, let's make this as a way for us to look on love on a positive perspective again 'coz to love is the best feeling in the world, ika nga diba I know we might still be hurting but let's try to forget muna the pain and let's try to believe in love again. And for us naman na nakapagmove on na, share nyo kung ano mangyayari sa valentine's day nyo ha. malay natin baka me mga surprises na naghihintay sa atin on that day. let's help our sisses dito to believe that miracles do happen pa rin and that never maging katapusan ng world ang heartache. We've been there and done that kumbaga diba?

Okay, because of this I'll be the first one to share nalang. I guess God is composing a new story for me.  A highschool classmate of  mine whom I haven't seen since we graduated from HS came into my life. We were not even classmates pala during HS, we were schoolmates. Our communication started lang on FB when he added me and our communication started na. I feel that gaan ng loob whenever we chat and most especially when we are together. Nga pala he works abroad and he just got home recently for his vacation and he really exerted efforts na magkita kami. I thought at first nga na it will be an awkward meeting kasi nga di naman kami close during HS. Kumbaga nakikita ko lang siya sa campus, that’s all. But when we finally met up, it was so funny! para talaga kaming close friends! Our conversation was so light and comfortable and we really had fun reminiscing our HS years. Non-stop kwentuhan talaga 

I'm not being assumera here okay pero we can sense naman diba if a guy is attracted to  us and I think that he is...or more honestly nalang, I guess we are So although we are still in that “knowing-each-other-again” stage, it's kinda amusing lang that the kilig feeling is back. Ang saya makilig uli and much more pala, he has a strong relationship with God din since his family are born Christians. He  already attended in our church service together and he even volunteered to join me in one of of my charitable orgs. Kaya sana lang mga sis this will lead to a more beautiful and mas Christ-centered love story na. I continue to pray  for a happy ending so sana in the upcoming days I could make an update on this

Have a great and blessed day sa lahat!

[yndy]

hello sis holli_may.. stalker ako ng thread mo from the time you started. hindi lang din naman ako nagcocomment but ngayon magcocomment na ako...

I am so happy for you sis... hugs to you

[ladyisabella]

i admire you sis...kayang kaya mo ang lahat...nakaplan na ba talaga sana ang wedding mo?
pero im sure, you will find the perfect guy for you na hindi ka na papaiyakin or sasaktan....

tama ka sis.. at eto may new bf ako, and alam mo yung feeling na feel na feel ko yung love nya sakin? kung baga napalitan ng happiness at love yung pain and sorrow ko. Akala ko di na ko makakahanap pa ng ganto. I thank God for giving me my bf now. Napapangiti ako everyday!

sa ex ko, wala na ko balita, naka block lahat ng connection ko sa kanya, chaka wala narin ako gana makibalita, kasal na sya at masaya na din sya (?? that, I dont know) although his family keeps on texting me, nag rereply nalang ako ng "I'm Ok. Thanks". hehe

basta one thing for sure.. Im so happy now!!

[dumpee.o13]

Ang galing naman! I'm happy for you, sis! Hopefully, ganyan din mangyare saken. Everything happens for a reason talaga. Congrats!