Hi, I am new here. Actually, matagal na kong lurker dito sa GT. I just feel like sharing my experience and to have some clarifications.
you see sis,
there are many reasons why it is important to find a living master.
why? because the living master updates and adapts the ancient wisdom (teachings) to the present world.
classical meditation generally involves being silent --being in a state of prolonged awareness WITH prolonged concentration.
the problem is, right now the material aspect of life is at a greater scale.
noon if you're a yogi, you can just sit down in some area, and the people from the nearest village will feed you, bring you gifts etc.
ngayon iba na. we all need to work. even those in the monastery or in the seminary are working.
so modern masters try to adapt and the old teachings at the same time maintain or even enhance the left brain. --via guided meditation. it is already quite common. in higher stages of meditation training, the left and right brain should be balanced first before the meditation proper.
nako, maraming meditators from classical schools na laging hindi grounded. kasi naka focus lang
sila sa abstract side of things.
now the dweller in the threshold is YOU - he represents your soul. the goal of every person is to achieve oneness with the Divine Self, but you have to achieve it first via union with your soul - dadaan ka muna sa 'Ama'. (the trinity of the Personality, Soul and the Spark....the I Am that I am)
so converse with your soul. tingnan mo kung ano gustong sabihin. but always pray for divine guidance and protection muna.
to achieve oneness with the soul is no easy task. the virtues na pinipreach ng bawat religion, ay qualities of the Soul. the more virtuous you are, the more you are at-one with the Soul. ( balancing and applying the virtues properly is another topic.)
if you want to achieve oneness with your soul, imho, you should start using a complete yoga system. hindi necessary na galing India. it can be any, as long as it is a complete one.
hindi naiiba sa formal education yan. lahat tayo nag schooling. a person can't consider himself well educated kung pabasa basa ng kung ano anong librong makita at matipuhan niya.
another good thing with having a master, is that he is able to distill the teachings and is able to give you the TRUE MEANING of the teachings. kadalasan napaka simple lang. one word, phrase or sentence. matatawa ka na lang why so many write books and stuff over such simple things. westerners are so focused on the mental plane of existence. sometimes Indians call what these westerners write as "Book Yoga".
and malalaman mo kung tunay yung word, phrase or teachings, kasi maliliwanagan ka, lalaki ang charkas and auras - your consciousness will expand. pero karamihan sa mga books and internet articles, trivial lang. you won't feel any expansion of consciousness...
so talk to you Soul. and as much as possible keep your inner experiences private. maraming selosa diyan. kahit mga pinagkakatiwalaan mo friends or psychic readers....tao lang din sila. naiinggit din sila. I've been there.
good luck. God speed.