you know when i first started out. i was really envious (in a good way) of other people with their "gifts." that time i saw psychism as the way, not knowing that the psychism i held in high regard was LOWER psychism.
constant aim and effort sa spiritual practice lang ang kailangan and you'll be able to travel distances sa inyong spiritual journey. i practiced hard. ngayon nga i don't care that much about all these "gifts." a lot of times i'd wish i didn't have them. but ganun talaga. as we evolve, we develop these gifts.
if you have a good foundation, then you'll be able to understand the derivatives and higher teachings better. it's no different from basic education. better education, better choices, lesser mistakes.
so the trick here is finding a good school, a good teacher to give you a good foundation.
when i started out, just like you, the more i try to explain things to myself, the more i get confused. what did i do? I let go. i continued to practice. i continued to read, research, join schools...
you see when one practices, one evolves. and when one evolves spiritually, he becomes more receptive to higher stimuli. think of this as a cup. the whole world is an ocean. a cup will not be able to take in the ocean. spiritual practice will make your cup bigger
(the bigger your cup, the more you'll be able to take in, the more you'll be able to understand)
when i started out, i started with the ascended masters teachings. dati hindi pa nga ako nakikinig sa mga friends ko, i was in my teens noon. my friends were in their mid 40s to 60s. all of them had at least 20 years of "spirituality" under their belt. advice nila sa akin was to find a physical teacher. i didn't listen. when i finally got to have my physical teacher. boom. naintindihan ko na bakit.
you see, these inner plane masters. they're the big wigs. you must be of very high importance for them to "appear" to you, guide you and train you. quite often, student ka nila in a past life. and usually active ka dapat sa divine plan. if you're not actively serving in a big scale, then there's no reason. surprise surprise! mas malaki pa possibility na mag appear sila to a celebrity like princess diana. why, cuz when she was alive, she was actively helping people. sometimes they don't need to appear. they just inspire. look at bill gates, he was able to bring the countries closer to each other.
yes may mga invocations, meditations etc. but nothing like what a physical master can give. unang una ang physical master, may compassion na nanggagaling sa buhay na tao. alam niya ang hardships ng incarnation. physical master will test you frequently. nako sis. dito pa lang, dami ko na nakikitang lumalagpak. mga mahahangin na aspirtants tumitiklop. talagang ibababa ang ego mo. moi included.
through hardship/friction nabrebreak ang mga crystallized karma. hindi ka ba nagtataka bakit common denominator sa buhay ng saints ang hardship? yun yon. part yun ng accelerated spiritual path. kasi unlike the normal path, where people would deal with the present karma and the immdiate past, the initiate will have to deal with ancient karma...maraming lifetimes yun ha.
I tell you, i kid you not, it is very very challenging.
the physical teacher will also "update" the teachings and "adapt" them to modern times.
think of it this way: you're an athlete, with a personal coach, doctor, trainer, nutritionist, therapist etc etc. ganun yun.
now sa experience namin, sa mga channelers. nako. 90% of the time yung mga master masteran na iyan, eh mga elementals. minsan demonyo pa. mas nakakatakot pa yung mga "latest" information. kasi hindi pa verified. some masters take 15-20 years to verify their teachings, kahit galing pa sa akashic record nila yun.
(again, the big wigs handle important stuff. that's just the way how things are even in our world.)
so the trick here is to find a good school, good teacher. then practice their teachings. they will mostly be the basics. then sooner or later, opportunity will come. normal lang to switch teachers. nangyayari yun as a student grows. more teachings will be then revealed. and also bigger responsibilities ang katapat niyan. hindi yung pa dala dala lang ng bulaklak sa church or pagtratraffic sa kalsada or singing sa choir. bigger chakras carry bigger responsibilities.
Full Enlightenment, yung tinatawag nilang, Kaligtasan, kaligtasan mula sa cycle ng death and rebirth, takes thousands of years if not millions. ika nga ng isang teacher ko, ang student na nagmamadali, immature yun. hehe. again, one of the benefits of a physical teacher. babanatan ka niyan pag malaki ego mo. kadalasan kasi na roromanticized ang teacher-student relationship.
let go and practice diligently.