hi, sis mela. *hugs*
okay, first things first. hingang malalim, watch funny shows/movies, mag-shopping (na i doubt kung magagawa mo pa coz you're giving birth next week) but basically what i just want to say is free up yourself from stress para paglabas ni baby wala siyang masagap na stress. that feeling na kapag pagod na pagod ka na, ayaw mo na lang mag-isip. upo ka na lang, nood tv, kain popcorn, ganyan tapos kebs na sa nangyayari sa paligid, yun.
then kapag ready ka nang maistress uli, talk to yourself. list down your options.
1. do i confront him (yes, confront kasi he's been hiding something from you -- a thing that you have the right to know) about his gender/sexual preference?
2. when i confront him and he denies it, how would i react?
3. when he admits he's bi and says sorry, would i forgive him (for being both bi and for keeping it from me)?
4. if he says he'll stop his skype sessions with men, would i believe him? and if i said i would, would i mean it? or will i be forever doubtful of him?
5. can i live with this, him being bi, without being hurt every single day?
and so on and so on, sis.
sis, ganito kasi yan eh, pag bi ka yun nga pwede ka sa lalaki or babae. pero (most of the time) may preference ka pa rin. so sa case mo, babae ang preference niya siguro that's why he settled down with you. pero yung landi niya sa katawan hindi nawa(wa)la eh. kaya siguro andun pa rin yung attraction niya sa men. and if you're the type of girl na hindi open sa ganitong klaseng mundo, the fluidity of sexuality, better make up your mind. magtitiis ka na lang ba at pahihirapan ang sarili mo o magmu-move on ka para sa ikatatahimik ng buhay niyo pareho, most expecially ng mga bata?
yung thinking na magtiis na lang para mabuo ang pamilya, imho hindi na uso. sooner or later mas mahihirapan sila and also ikaw, so it's better to start with a clean slate. new age na ngayon, daming mga fatherless children jan who are happy naman with their separated parents. but im not saying hiwalayan mo na kagad ha. pag-isipan mo lang muna mabuti.
and also keep in mind na hindi lang yung pagiging bi niya ang issue dito (and his keeping it from you). kinakaliwa ka rin niya, yes. hindi naman kayo mag-bf lang, mag-asawa kayo. so in my book, once you signed that goddamn marriage contract, you can't play with anyone else anymore. pwede lang siguro basta hindi mo alam. pero alam mo kasi nakita mo ang ebidensiya so para sakin he shouldn't get easily away from that.
think think think, sis. kaya mo iyan. but for now, focus muna kay baby, please. good luck!
