My dad has always been accused of cheating. When i was younger, i met the girl, but didnt fully understand who she was. That ended, it wasnt a smooth ending. I remember my mom meeting with the kumares who has gotten hold of pictures of the girl. Her name is joy. I dont wish her well.
Almost twenty years later, it has not changed. The stories re his cheating still exists. But who are the sources, the drivers and the alalays from home and work.
He and my brothers used to work under the same 'company'. My elder brothers are always saying na may babae nga daw si dAddy, nakabahay pa. Kesyo may condo sa ganyan ganyan. My mom brushes this off. Pero minsan pag inaaway sya ni daddy for other things, ihihirit to ng nanay ko and gagamiting pambara sa dad ko. Come to think of it, my dad never denied. Hahah, ngayon ko lang narealize. He's a lawyer, btw.
Ive never caught him sa celphone. Yung friends nya, nahuhuli ko pag tinetext sya na ginagawa syang dahilan.
Three nights ago, around midnight he was texting me, i replied, then he replied again na nagbubura sya ng messages nabura yung message ko, so ingat na lang daw ako. Okay. Pero nagbubura ng message? Baket.
Every night, almost, he's out, sugal ang excuse nya. Im twenty five, my mom is sixty one, dad is sixty five. Wala na kami pakealam sa pagsugal nya.
Then there's this new 'development' sa bahay namin. The yaya of my nephew is naglalandi sa boy namin, and they seem to be doing it everywhere. Di ko nahuhuli in the act pero, the kids are talking and i dont like that. Yung boy namin, pinapaaral namin yun. Bente anyos. Versus the yaya who is late thirties. Friend ko si yaya. Funny sya pero minsan i cant help notice na malandi sya, at minsan pati dad ko parang sineseduce nya. My hands, mabilis kumilos, pero pinipigilan ko. So dinadaan ko sa bunganga at sinisigawan ko kapag feeling nya kinakaya kaya nya dad ko, dinadaan kasi sa patawa.
My kuya, nagsumbong kay daddy kasi anak nya yung nakakakita ng landiang nagagaganap. All my dad said was, obserbahan pa nya. That was two nights ago. Tonight, the boy was sent away, we assumed sa kanilang bahay namin. My kuya called up another kuya sa kabila, sabi wala daw dun. Dumaan lang.
My kuya thinks na dun sa kabit dinala yung boy helper namin. Hayy. Hoshieeeet.. Hmph. Sabi ng kuya ko, di daw mapalayas yung boy at yaya kasi alam yung mga katarantaduhan ng tatay ko.
So, i want to get to the bottom of things. I dont know how to approach my dad ng di sya nababastusan sakin. Im not the best daughter, ive raised my voice at my dad since time immemorial. I was a spoiled brat. But now, i think im just a tad rebellious, but not bad. I just go stray from what he wants but hindi naman bad. He's lost control over me, kaya medyo di na ako gusto ng dad ko. Love nya ako pero di na ako favorite nya, dahil kahit pano, independent na ako. Our family is weird like that.
So i want to approach him, maybe nicely. But i dont know how to ask, what to say... He's old, and ive watched far too many telenovelas to know na the cheating father always leaves (upon death) a mess pag may kabit...
I dont know if maniniwala na ako sa mga sinasabi ng kapatid ko. Pero hindi kasi okay sakin na may kahati, in life, even more so in death.
My lolo has an illegitimate son, R1, that never got acknowledged socially, but was legally. And nakahati sya sa mga mana namin ngayon. But he declined.
My dad, the executor, decided to give a part to R2, the illegitimate son of his illegitimate brother, na di rin natanggap nor na acknowledge. Pinsan ko sya. He's not in our lives really, pero pag may events minsan andyan sya, bastos din kasi itong si R2, binastos din lolo ko when he was still alive.
Dont get me wrong, this is not just about mana mana, pero sa dami kasi ng gulo na pinagdaanan ng family, ayoko ng madagdagan pa. Peace of mind lang ang gusto ko. Yesterday, i didnt bother myself kung may kabit man ang tatay ko, pero now, i just want to know the truth so i know how to deal!!
Help!
Sorry mahaba, im so sorry...
Update: yaya is sad. As in sad, gumuho ang mundo, mugtong mata sad na pinauwe na si boy.
Yan ang press release ng tatay ko, pero nobody believes na pinauwe na si boy. May celphone, so idk if they talk. Kuya hinks nilipat ng bahay, kung saan i really dont know, i dont care about the boy. I care about saan sya napunta, kung kanino sya napunta.
My kuya has been poisoning my head. He just said, "binata pa lang ako, dami na sikreto ni daddy satin. May anak na ako ngayon, ganun pa din..." I believe in karma. While our family is not the worst, napakadaming baho na pwedeng lumbas. My dad, muntik na magpolitiko, kumontra ako dahil politics is dirty and ayoko magkaroon ng dahilan for people na ungkatin ang baho namin as a family.
Sakit ulo.
I apologize for this loooong post.
