have you ever secretly LOVED someone?

[babyoreos]

Yes. I am secretly in love with one of our Doctors. haha. Actually, hindi na sya secret kasi I told him a day before my birthday kasi it's so hard to keep my feelings for him kahit months palang. At ang sakit ng reply nya, " I hope I feel the same way". OUCH . We are close friends, nagtataka na nga yung iba sa closeness namin especially yung mga friends nyang Doctors din. He is a Muslim while I am a Catholic, ang saklap.  I never thought that I would fall for him. He is such a nice guy, yung tipong he is perfect na for me.

In 2 months time resigned na sya from our hospital. I need to prepare myself for a major heartbreak very soon.

[gabriel kate]

yeah.i have experience loving someone secretly.and its so hard to pretend.huhuhu.and you know that he dont like you!ouchy 

[inday101]

Yes I've been in love with the same guy for almost 5 years. I met him in school at first i kept telling my friends na "ang panget naman nung guy na iyon etc" as in paulit ulit. pero hindi naman siya pangit half-chinese siya e bet na bet ko maputi hahaha nahuli ako ng friend ko na crush ko raw kaya mega lait ako. naging classmate ko siya tapos nakilala ko siya super bait, gentleman and super funny. mataba ako at bihira ako makaranas ng guy na super mabait sakin. Maraming girls ang may crush sa kanya, ilang beses ko na gusto umamin pero pinipigilan ako ng friend ko, gusto ko pa nga magpadala ng food sa dorm niya secretly eh pero may nauna na sakin =) okay lang. love ko pa rin siya. magkaiba nga kami ng religion eh pero kung maging kami as in, lilipat ako ng religion. obsessed ata ako. i greeted him on his birthday he texted back pero hindi na ko nagreply baka "I love you" pa maisagot ko.

[Priceless]

Yes I did. And at that time that I realized that I loved him, he was already my boyfriend. But you see, we had that kind of relationship where, saying "I Love You" was/is a big thing, and since we both came from relationships where that phrase lost its meaning, sa amin, bihira naming sabihin sa isa't isa yung I love you. So there I was, in love with my boyfriend and scared to tell him because he might run away (I was afraid he'd run for the hills, have commitment issues, think that love = marriage) so I tried my best to hide it nga. What I did was pray pray pray pray and pray some more. I lifted it up to God and asked God na if we were really meant to be, to let everything fall in place. But I also asked God to make him (the bf) love me and want to be with me, haha. Pero kung hindi talaga kami, then just show me what the plan is.

He is now my husband. And not a day goes by that we tell each other that we love each other.

[j.adore]

Er, I can't wrap my head around the idea na itatago mo sa boyfriend mo na mahal mo siya Sure you don't say it but being in a relationship, you definitely act it. How's that a secret?

[twix01]

yeah.i have experience loving someone secretly.and its so hard to pretend.huhuhu.and you know that he dont like you!ouchy 

i feel you sis pero ako naman alam ko mutual feelings namin.. medyo like/love namin isat isa pero we cant be together kasi may gf sya that time and nagka bf din ako haha! pero pag sya yon pumapasok sa picture lagi ako nacoconfused then.. nagyon nagmature nako! ayoko na mainlove ng patago LOL

[Priceless]

^^j.adore, yes, it happened to me. To us. We both came from relationships where I Love You's were thrown around so casually, sweet nothings, and other "acts" of love; so we were quite careful not to make the same mistake. Plus of course there were other factors as well and there was a lot at stake for both of us if the relationship didn't work out. He knew that I liked him, that he was special and important to me, and I didn't really have to put that on display (he wouldn't have liked it anyway).

In the end, it worked for us. I think too much PDA, overt displays of affection and "showiness" cheapens the thrill.

[purple.strawberry]

Yes. Altho at that time I already had a boyfriend. Officemate ko yung guy. Siyempre nothing happened, and after a year or so nakamove on din ako sa kanya.

[winkypops]

yes at ang hirap itago ang feelings

[nettai]

Haha dahil totally relate ako sa mga kwento dito (as in napabasa talaga ako from page 1) share lang ako ah, pardon for the lengthy post. Dati pa naman to.

Wala akong naramdaman sa kanya, as in friends lang kami. May boyfriend ako, sya single. Magkakaiba kami ng team. Then kinakantyawan ko nga sya kasi nagkakagusto sya sa mga girls na may boyfriend na, at yung mga engaged na -- he openly admits naman na hopeless romantic sya at di rin nya maintindihan sa sarili nya kung bakit sa dinami-dami ng girls sa mundo, yung mga taken pa ang mga nagugustuhan nya. And nagkakasundo kami kasi very similar ng interests namin.

Then yung mga friends nya, panay sabi ng "*name ko*, si *name nya* o" pag nagkikita kami. If they do that, I'd do the usual greetings sa friends nya and we'd do the fist bomb like brothers. Time skip, matagal kaming walang communication; around 1 year.

Nagkaroon kami ng classroom training. May sarili akong team during that time, kateam nya mga friends nya. Well, so then happened na dahil matagal-tagal ko na silang di nakakasama, pag lunchtime kami nagkakasama. So okay-okay naman kami... Until nag-Christmas Party.

Binigyan nya ako ng medyo mamahalin na Christmas gift, and yung gusto ko pa. I told him ayaw ko ng special treatment. Pero he just wanted to give me a gift. Wala sanang pumasok sa isip ko nun, if his friends didn't look at me and say, "Uy, si *name nya* o." Ay patay. I then understood why they'd keep on telling me, "*name ko*, si *name nya* o".

Then I unconsciously try to find ways na makausap sya pag lunchtime, or makahanap lang ng subject para makausap ko sya. I feel sad pag nag-aabsent sya. Then I feel happy pag nakikita sya. In short, I got attracted. But I had to tell myself, "No, wag kang feeling. Mga magaganda at sexy ang mga gusto nya." and I had to pressure myself to lose that feeling kasi I know it's just a "cheap thrill of attraction" na mawawala rin over time compared sa "strengthened love and affection" from the happy times na na-enjoy namin ng BF ko and yung mga sad and challenging times na naharap namin.

I'm not sure kung natuwa ako or nalungkot nung nahalata ko na dumidistansya na sya sa akin. But his friends still kept on saying "Hi *name ko*. Si *name nya* o." But it was not like back then, sobrang awkward sa pakiramdam pag nakikita ko sya; I was not sure kung babatiin ko ba sila like usual or iiwas na lang para hindi halata. For those moments, nawala sa "sight" ko si BF and I'd only think of him; may mga times na nagtatampo si BF kasi di ko sya masyadong pinapansin; and when he did, pinilit ko na alisin yung guy sa isip ko. Boooy, it did hurt.

And so time passed, natapos ang training, and hindi ulit kami nagkita for a year, and good thing nawala naman yung pagka-awkward sabay nawala na rin ang feelings -- thanks to the hectic schedule that I had. Wala na yung batian dati, puro his and hellos na lang. He's still single though. I really felt sorry kay BF pero nonetheless I truly appreciated his patience towards me during those times.

I thank you. Bow.

[17glut]

yes i have...good thing i managed to keep it that way

[zelda]

Yes, I have.

A very close friend of mine during my UP days. A friendship that began with libres and countless merienda together sa Sunken. I learned to draw dahil I was forced by this FA student.

Years after we graduated I told him na I fell in love with him then. Sabi nya he knew. But it was impossible for him to reciprocate my feelings. And I said, yeah I knew. Dahil isa syang sirena. 

[mindiegirl]

Oh no, what a hindrance zelda

My experience, this happened to me nung 'kabataan' ko. I secretly 'loved' someone for 3 or 4 years I think. Pero never, as in NEVER   ako may pinagsabihan. Haha! Kakahiya eh. Its my big big secret kasi our circle of friends is one and the same. And my very close friend na girl ay may long time crush sa kanya. May times na na feel ko he likes me back pero hindi sya sapat or nag evolve to the point na aminin nya sakin. Oh well. Those were the days. When someone seriously courted me finally I have overcomed my so called love for him. Its like breaking free cause finally Im out of that frustrating situation.

Now Im in happily in a relationship. And he is married already with 2 kids. Hehe. Happy ending for both of us.

[sweet.hann]

haha! loving someone secretly.. eh? ang hirap nun.. hehe.. lalo na kung close kayo.. ay!

pero now, hindi ko masabi na totally nakapag-move on na ko. and paminsan minsan bumabalik yung thought na "better pa rin si ***.. pero hindi na..
its better na ganito.. alam namin pareho yung worth namin sa isa't isa.. nandyan sya para saken, ako nandito din para sa kanya..

[sweet.hann]

he really don't know that i loved him.. although alam nya na naging crush ko sya.. at this point, i am happy what we are right now.. keeping the friendship.. pero im not closing my doors yet for him.. ganun din naman sya saken.. one time kasi may isang friend kami na nagtanong sa kanya habang nandun ako, sabi nya, "kuya [JL], pano kung si ate [me] pala yung para sayo?" he plainly answered, "kung kalooban ni Lord.." very uncertain ng sagot nya pero sweet.. hehe

[TomHansen]

LOVE hindi pa pero LIKE yes..

[raia_1303]

Yes, most definitely, mga 3 times in a span of 15 years.

Parating acquaintances then friendship then feelings for me. First one was in college, we got close, he liked someone else, I told him, I support him, tapos heartbreak for him, after a few months, he asked me if he had a chance with me, I told him "****, no way!", then continued being friends kahit na I was hurting because he had a string of gfs, then when I graduated ahead of me, when he tried contacting me, I didn't want to. Now he's married, sabi ng bff ko.

The second one was in the first company I worked for, we were in the same office branch. I didn't like him at first, and I was actually supportive when he courted one of my friends, then we became close kasi basted sya sa friend ko, so I started liking him na, then slowly falling for him na, until he got into a relationship. After I resigned, we still get to talk and hang out with each other. Just last year, I was informed he broke up with the girl. Pero ngayon, parang wala naman, friends, if he'll ask, I still need to get to know him again.

The last one was around 2 years ago. He's 11 years my senior, and was a senior consultant in our office. It just happened, we weren't close, pero we got close for some reason. When I asked him if he had a gf, he got mad and didn't talk to me, then I sad sorry. Then that same year, in November, he got married to his gf. Coincidentally, he now lives in the same village, I live in. Pero fortunately, hindi pa kami nagkikita. Let's see.

[pjiyeon]

I'm secretly in love with a client. Too bad he's already taken and we don't have any chance to meet outside work since he lives far from my place. He's funny, tall and handsome. 2 weeks more before the effectivity  date of my resignation. Last friday is the last day I saw him.

[swim_fatale]

Yes, I have.

A very close friend of mine during my UP days. A friendship that began with libres and countless merienda together sa Sunken. I learned to draw dahil I was forced by this FA student.

Years after we graduated I told him na I fell in love with him then. Sabi nya he knew. But it was impossible for him to reciprocate my feelings. And I said, yeah I knew. Dahil isa syang sirena. 

Boom relate ako, sis! Haha.

[cupcakencheese]

Yes ako rin may ganoon na case... this keep me inspired and going to work kahot traffic.. healthy naman kasi i was able to goore work dahil i like to see somene