The most recent was 6 months ago.
isa sa natutunan ko sa paghingi ng sign is, just because we asked for it doesn't mean things will get easy for us. Sometimes, God even test us to make us even stronger for the challenges that might come along our way towards that path na hinihingan naten ng sign. of course, that is my POV lang naman.
I also realized na unanswered prayers lead us to something better. minsan kasi yung akala naten na ok saten hindi pala. like how, I got my first job, I never intended to be in that field dahil sa insecurities ko at takot na baka hindi ko magampanang mabuti yung task sa work. pero dahil gusto ko na din makapag work agad, nag try na ako sa offer ng HR and surprisingly, nakasurvive naman at napaka priceless ng experience yun nga lang kailangan ko ding mag bid farewell sa career na yun. kaya hindi ako nawawalan ng pag asa. maybe what I think I want is not right for me, yun nalang pinag papalagay ko sa unanswered prayer kasi pinapalitan naman ni God ng something better.
just want to share this personal experience of mine. you may skipped this though. hihi
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I resigned from my previous work at the university dahil kokonti ang load ng subjects na ibibigay which is equivalent to deduc sa salary (dahil sa issues nga na kokonti subjects na hawak ng department namin sa 2nd sem dahil sa changes sa curriculum sa k-12). I passed the CSC the same semester din. started to do research for works sa metro manila sa IT industry. It took me 3 months to prepare. then dalawa ininapplyan ko, another university dto sa province namin pero not the same university where I previously worked, then sa isang IT firm. I passed the exams naman, then got into series of interviews and both passed. then around june, I received an offer sa school. but declined and started to pursue sa IT firm. -- sa pamimili ng tatanggapin sa dalawa, dun ako nanghingi ng signs. at halos lahat ng sign, I'm pretty sure sa IT firm sa metro manila pino-point out. so , without any second thoughts ... i-pinush ko na ang application ko sa IT company only to receive a regret letter (failing a background check perhaps, even if hindi naman ako nag AWOL sa prev. job ko. maybe hndi enough credentials ko) few months later. and here I'am almost 1 year ng walang job. racket online wasn't enough dagdag pa ang crappy wifi service dto area namin ngayun. may financial problem din ngayun kaya hindi ako makapag apply sa iba pang firm, considering na mahal pamasahe from our province to NCR.
but....
the thing is, despite it all. I still believe in that sign I asked God. maybe, not particularly sa IT company na yun. The mishaps, I have experienced this year, made me realize a lot of things that I have taken for granted and things I was too blind to see before. to make things worst pa, my nosy relatives started treating me indifferently now being rendered jobless after my first job. my initial reaction at first ay maging resentful din sakanila in return pero as time goes by with financial problems sa family at being rendered useless despite na naka graduate nako at CSC passer. Napalapit ako lalo kay God, kasi wala na akong alam na malapitan. this november will official mark na 1 year na akong jobless if hindi pa ako nakanap. I'm thinking of applying muna ulit sa school or sa Call center industry muna. still, hoping that God has better plans for me. as for the sign, it's often naman much later naten bago marealize ang purpose why things despite the signs didn't happen they way we hope it to happen.