this should have been my happiest month...my wedding :( {Journal to Recovery}

[loveann]

I feel so bad about your situation my dear holly mae.
But I know everything will be fine, be closed to GOD, ok?
Prayers, prayers, prayers are the answer. Buti na lang [textspeak!] nandito ang Sisterettes natin to support you.

[super_she]

Pray, my dear sis.  Prayer helps a lot.  Don't ever lose hope and faith that you are exactly where you should be. 

[aquacharly]

Pray, my dear sis.  Prayer helps a lot.  Don't ever lose hope and faith that you are exactly where you should be. 

I like this ...   "you are exactly where you should be"
Yes, that is a good line to keep in mind since life is a journey of ups and downs.  And  "the downs" are opportunities for us to learn valuable lessons for strenghtening our character. 

HOLLI MAY   it is all about moving on;  that is how you keep from drowning.
                 In life, do not sit down and cry for long...  pick yourself up and do something ....  just move!   

I hope you feel better these days.  God bless.

[Gladz31842]

na-touched naman ako sa ginawa ng cousins mo sis, it moved me to tears....that's how much God loves you...he just sent you angels  

[super_she]

^^thanks for the comment sis.  I, myself, live my life everyday keeping those thoughts in mind. Another thing:

Don't be afraid of tomorrow, God is already there. 

[aquacharly]

Hay naku SUPER SHE   ... God really speaks through people, even those we do not know.   

Pa OT, HOLLI MAY     
We just confirmed that a person we have a contract with has been going behind our backs to deprive us of what we contracted to acquire from her ... that all this time, talaga... that person who is soooo wealthy is talagang balasubas... just gets money or downpayments, and then waits for a better offer, etc etc etc.... I think kami lang naging glitch sa kanyang modus operandi to-date ... kapalmukz 

The situation is grossly balasubas talaga...  I was an inch away from getting a contract done on her... sobra na yang babaeng yan .... then your latest words of wisdom:

         Don't be afraid of tomorrow, God is already there.

Actually, hindi ako afraid... bwis1t ako and gusto ko nang tipakin this kapalmukz, to give her what is her due.   hehe    Or what I want to give as her due... who am I to judge her totality anyway?  hehe
So my mind was working out a package pano ko  sya contract out.  hehe

So if I may rephrase:

          Don't take Tomorrow in your hands, for God is already there.

 
Thank you  HOLLI MAY for the "OT pass"   hehe

Thank you!, SUPER SHE.   God bless you and your loved ones.

[super_she]

^No problem sis!  Glad to be of help! God bless din po! 

[baliwsayo]

Ganun naman talaga sa start, feeling mo may part ka ng katawan mo na nawala. Time lang talaga sis. Iwasan mo muna mag-internet lalo na facebook.. nakakasira lang ng ulo talaga. Kami nga almost 5 years na. Acceptance lang talaga sis.. na he doesnt love you enough to save your relationship. Pag natanggap mo na yun, magiging madali na lang ang lahat. 

[holli_may]

thanks sa inyo mya sis. and yes sis loveann, i kept on holding on through prayers talaga. i feel it's my only lifeline now aside from trying my best to pick myself up again.

Sis super_she, thanks sa paalala and yes, sis aquacharly, so far i'm feeling better na after that "highland" gift. Sana nga lang, sis, baon-baon ko pa rin tong light feeling na 'to by the time tapos na leave ko.

Tama ka sis Gladz31842, i'm really so blessed with a loving family aside from supportive friends like the ones I have here in GT

 Yan din ang sabi ko sa sarili ko, sis baliwsayo...TIME will really heal all wounds and pain. And I know God is always good that I believe I'm near for that time of complete healing and acceptance.

Loneliness is really killing me mga sis. Feeling ko medyo tanggap ko na na wala na talaga siya eh, pero the feeling of loneliness really drove me nuts! It's not just because I still stay in the same unit that we used to share or because  I do not go out often, but that heavy feeling of being alone now. I so miss him still...our laughter, our travels, our cooking sessions, and even our late night movie marathon...  But as what you said nga, sis super_she, that I should never lose hope and faith that I am exactly where I SHOULD be. I'll really hold on to those words, sis

[ysa.belle]

hello sis holli_may, kamusta ka na?

[holli_may]

hi, sis ysa_belle ok lang ako sis ,thanks for asking musta ka na din?

[holli_may]

hello mga sis...back to work for me na.

[chengkii]

good for you HOLLI_MAY. Keep it up.

[holli_may]

thanks, sis chenkii trying to hold on sa peace of mind that i worked on from my vacation, hope this is the start of my moving on na

[ysa.belle]

^^^^ buti naman okay kana sis holli_may. ako, okay lang... nakakaraos naman after what happened recently...

pero ikaw, I am so proud and happy for you kase nagiging okay ka na. i pray na tuloy tuloy na yan.

smiel always... dito lang ako for you.

[holli_may]

@ sis ysa.bell === i guess nakakatulong talaga yung vacation ko sis and pati na rin siguro yung napapaligiran ako ng family ko. non stop galaw kasi ako kasi travel ako from one place to another. i think parang naging breather yun sa akin. Malalaman ko lang pagdating ng restday ko, sis, kung talagang okay na ako...yan na kasi yung time na idle na ang day ko. Kumbaga di na ako gaanong preoccupied sa work. kaya nga gumawa na ako ng plan na lalabas ako the whole day para di na mag-creep in uli sa akin ang loneliness...pandamay kasi ang restday always eh...hahaha!

[holli_may]

thanks, sis ysa.belle !!!

[ysa.belle]

anytime sis.
 

buti naman at nakapagrelax ka kahit pano. syempre not all the time may mga taong nakapaligid sayo to cheer you up and make you smile di ba? pero i know thankful ka sa mga yun. you deserve that vacation.

pag nakapahinga ka, alone at walang kasama tapos biglang nag creep in uli yung pain na yun, iiyak mo lang. ibig sabihin nun eh meron pang konti...you just have to let it out para hindi magstay sa loob mo, para mailabas mo talaga lahat lahat. pag naiyak mo na nun, gagaan pakiramdam mo. then think about all the things that makes you happy and how lucky you are since many people love you. lilipas lahat ng sakit sa loob. lilipas lahat ng sama ng loob and one day gigising ka na wala na yung pain. na deadma ka nalang.

[holli_may]

i agree with you, sis. sana nga malapit na ako sa day na yan. i know malapit na ako sa day na yan! aja! hehe

[lakwatsera_01]

hi sis holli_may, how are you coping?kamusta ka na? binasa ko buong thread and had goosebumps while reading it..i'm going thru a painful break-up as well...and reading the whole thread gave me strength...i will include you din sa prayers ko...di bale sis malapit na mag september, a new month and hopefully a better you...ganun kasi ako nun..july has been a rough and tough month for me..cried and cried every night..then told myself, sna mas maging ok na ako by next month..and you know, it did..sis tayo lang makakatulong sa sarili natin..im not saying that i'm ok now pero i can feel that slowly i'm moving on...i always ask God to stay with me day in and day out...pag on the way ako sa office sinasabi ko lagi na Lord please help me get thru the day...The Lord, family and friends will help us keep our sanity...sis try din natin tumingin sa mga nasa ibaba natin, yung mga taong mas grabe ang pinagdadaanan kesa satin kasi minsan nakakatulong...hope we could take those tiny steps forward...