Hello mga sissies! I recently have many issues in dressing up my 'big body' -- big as in 41-34-47 ang vital stats...
My mom would usually contradict me in what I wear. Walang araw na hindi niya ako pinagpapalit ng suot na damit kada aalis ako ng bahay. Pinagbabawalan niya akong magsuot ng mga maluluwag na skirts at dresses (maxi, circle, even the mullet na uso ngayon) dahil mas nagmumukha raw akong malaki. Some other items na 'bawal daw' sa akin: belts (mukha raw akong longganisa dahil nagiging prominent daw ang bilbil ko, except when used to secure my pants or jeans), leggings (mukha raw akong suman, even if I wear it with long tops and dresses), wide-leg pants (same reason as with skirts and dresses), deep V-necks (unless mag-tube ako, which is sometimes inappropriate dahil I'm less on top, siguro mas conscious sya sa chickenpox scar ko between my boobs, haha!). She urges me to wear pencil skirts (and dresses with similar cuts), skinny jeans, trousers, button-downs (wag lang bubuka nang husto ang buttons sa bust area), long tops and shirts -- basta tailored, minsan 'professional' na ang datingan.
Ang problema, a) in a workplace where casual Fridays is the dominant dressing style, mas mukha akong 'boss' sa mga boss ko; b) there are days na hindi ko feel mag-power dress -- I want to look like a regular girl on some days, kasi kung minsan nahihiya ako sa mga boss ko na casual lang sila pag pumapasok tapos ako mas 'formal' ang look (although I do get compliments when I do that); c) I wanna explore beyond the pants and jeans territory -- gusto kong mag-skirt naman, pero parang over naman yata kung pencil skirt. Besides, I feel uncomfortable kapag nagra-rub ang thighs ko everytime I wear pencil skirts, kahit may suot na akong cycling shorts; and d) I do not have a definite style personality, but I'm always fascinated by the girly-romantic look. Eh paano ko naman gagawin yun kung bawal sa akin ang full skirts at dresses diba?
Sometimes hindi ko alam kung ang problema ba sa kin eh yung katawan ko, yung lack of choices, yung, well, pakikialam ng nanay ko sa style ko dahil naalibadbaran siya sa aking big figure, o yung kakulangan ko sa self-esteem dahil sa mga comments sa kin ng mga nasa paligid ko.
Sorry kung napahaba ang post, but I strongly need advice. I wanna start fresh this 2013, and I wanna start with making peace with my body, dressing according to my body type, and ignoring (but not totally) my mother's comments on how I look. Thanks in advance!