Yeah I did. That's a Big parang batok for me from God after all those years that I really doubted if He even really exist in the first place hehe.
He was my 9 mornings.
My story is that of a typical y'know jaded, sarcastic, cynical person. i really lost all faith about men for quite some time. 6 years nakakahiya man aminin pero kasama dun si God. Not really turn an atheist but I really doubted if He really is real.
Then christmas of 2005. Nabuo ko yung simbang gabi. Hindi dahil talaga nagsimba ako pero nabuo ko sya because of insomnia. I couldnt sleep so I attented yung misa sa madaling araw. But then I know my faith on Him no matter how cynical I get or how lost. I still looking for Him somewhere.
Then nung last nya 24. Nag breakfast kami ng mama ko sabi nya I should make a wish. Though Im really cynical I told myself hindi lang naman ako makatulog kaya nabuo ko. Pero kinulit nya ako nung kasama na family namin nagsimba before noche buena. Malay daw kung magkatotoo. So yun I did.
I ask for signs for a guy to come. Impossible signs. Kasi ayaw ko mag hope ng ganun. Buti na yung alam kung imposible mangyari para hindi masakit umasa.
1. I want HIM to be tall. Taller than I am.
-My hubby is 5'10".
2. I want HIM to be dark.
-hayy grabe at ipinaman nya pa sa anak namin kulay nya.
3. I want HIm sungki.
- kasi di ba bihira lang naman sungki? parang sa sampu isa lang. I gave Him dagger looks nung naiisipan nya magpa braces. Ayoko ever!
4. I want Him bald.
-hanggang ngayon kalbo pa din sya.
5 I want Him wearing white shoes on the first date.
- dito ko napaiyak nun naalala ko sapatos nya nung 2 months ko na naalala na Sya yun hiningi kong simbang gabi. Kasi naka white rubber shoes sya kahit umuulan the whole day bago nung date namin. Concert yun sa football field so alam nya na magiging maputik pero wala lang daw. Later on I asked for that particular shoes and he gave it to me naman. pero ngayon hindi ko na alam since natira kami abroad at naiwan mga gamit namin dati sa pinas.
6. I want Him to love me the way I wanted to be love.
-though he grows up now as a person and 4 years since. We dont have the perfect relationship. But his patience to understand me is priceless. In every fight or arguments at the end of the day, When we have to say our prayers together bago matulog....He always proved me wrong. "Mahal lang kita. Masama ba yun". Sa lahat ako lang naman rason nya. hayyyy

and lastly...I asked to meet HIM before your next birthday.
-True naman. Kasi kasama ko na sya nagsisimba nun bago pa man magpasko

Simula nun talagang umikot na buhay ko. Si God talagang hindi nawawala. Lagi lang sya nag-aantay.
Ask for His will. To let things happen not because you wanted it.... but HE wanted it to happen to you.