Longtime non-practicing Catholic here, but a personal crisis (loving BF of 2 years broke up with me because he had enough of my being selosa; nasakal kasi siya and he did not feel enough trust) led me to return to the faith and give some novenas a try. My request is for a last chance with my BF. Siyempre, I'm combining this with what I can do to remedy the situation (e.g. getting counseling for my issues, learning not to be selos when I see him joking around with other girls, especially now that we're technically not together). I took the risk of asking for a very audacious favor: kung pwede sana makipagbalikan kami before my birthday, which is already this week (when we broke up almost a month ago). Sana ma-grant ang requests ko, lalo na't first relationship ko ito and I feel remorseful because I now understand how, despite loving my BF, a major flaw of mine made things unbearable and painful for him.
The novenas that I've been praying:
- St. Jude novena (6x a day for 9 consecutive days): 3rd round na
- St. Therese novena (5 days): 3rd round; I've been seeing a lot of roses since I started praying it. I haven't received a rose personally, pero napansin ko, dumadami ata yung roses na nakikita ko sa simbahang dinadaanan ko. Once, I even asked to see a rose somewhere else (i.e. hindi sana sa simbahan), and - when I least expected it - I did!
- Holy Spirit novena (reposting as I promised to circulate it)
"PRAYER TO THE HOLY SPIRIT
(pray for 3 days or 3 hours straight)
Holy Spirit, You who make me see everything and showed me the way to reach my ideals, You who gave me the divine gift to forgive and forget the wrong that is done to me and You who are in all instances of my life with me, I want to thank You for everything and confirm once more that I never want to be separated from You no matter how great the material desire may be. I want to be with You and my loved ones in Your perpetual glory. Amen
In Jesus Christ, your Son's name, I ask that you grant me (State your specific request or intention here!)
While making the request, you must promise either:
(a) To publish this prayer or
(b) To circulate the favor
This prayer should be said for 3 consecutive days. After the 3rd day, the request will be granted, no matter how difficult it may be"
- Express Memorare: I try to pray it once a day.
So far, my favorites have been the first two novenas that I listed.
The effect so far?
I think the Lord has been softening my ex's stance and restoring the patience he lost. He initially told me to get out of his life and to never contact him again. He blocked me from all his accounts.
2 weeks later (after round 1 of the St. Jude novena), I texted him, asking to talk. He said "No." I asked him a few things, and he responded. He was obviously still very angry, but at least he responded. That weekend, he told me how he really feels (aside from the anger) - that he's not apathetic, but that it hurts too much to talk to me because he remembers all the pain, and that he's not sure if he'll ever be okay with me again.
But then, last Friday, towards the end of the 3rd week, he texted me, saying he could meet me that weekend. When we met, he said that he still wasn't okay with me, and that it still hurt. So I asked why he asked to meet me. He said that he might as well. He also said that it took him a lot of anxiety to text me. I said that I was proud of him and that it was so brave of him to do that. For him to do that... it really was a miracle! I'm still hoping for an even greater miracle. The Lord really seems to be reaching into his heart right now.
