Attitude problem, please enlighten me :(

[Ms. Undecided]

Hi girls and guys, if we have them here.
I don't know if tama ba ako ng napuntahan but I'll post it here anyway.
Hindi ko alam how am I going to explain this, I don?t know if I have some psychological problem, I would like to have a psychiatric test actually but I don?t know where to start. I'm sorry if magiging mahaba 'tong post for I don?t know how to explain this for you to understand, so please, bear with me.

I easily get irritated, very short-tempered, a jealous type, selfish, pessimistic,I overthink, A LOT! Mahilig mag self pity, lahat na ng negative trait parang sinalo ko na Mabilis ako mapasaya, mabilis din mabago mood ko. Mabilis ako umiyak. Madalas ko maisip na ano kaya kung one day masagasaan ako, mabubuhay kaya ako? Ano kaya kung di na ako magising? Minsan pa gusto ko maaksidente, gusto ko malaman sino yung magke-care sakin bukod sa pamilya ko. Mahilig ako mag-jump into conclusion. I always focused in the past and future. imbes mag-focus ako sa present. I mean, ginagawa kong basehan yung mga nangyari sa past sa mga mangyayari s future. Sounds really weird.

Yung maliit na bagay, pinalalaki ko.
Like for example, randomly bf will text 'I love you babe', parang out of nowhere magtetext siya ng ganun, then ako sasabihin ko wrong send siya, sasabihin niya na hindi. Pero ako insist ako ng insist na wrong send siya hanggang sa pag-awayan nalang namin.
Today, he set an appointment to DFA to have his passport on September, magtu-tourist siya dun kasama mama niya for a month. Tas nagalit na ko, I even dare him to choose kung pupunta siya dun o maghihiwalay kami. WTfudge diba? Pero after naman nun parang narerealize ko na mali naman yung ginawa ko tas nagi-guilty ako tapos magiging okay na naman ako tas mamaya sasama na naman mood ko.

My bf always ask me, "ampangit talaga ng ugali mo, bakit ka ba ganyan?" Alam ko naman yun, iniiyak ko nalang. Alam ko na ako yung may problema, nasisira na tuluyan relasyon namin dahil sa ugali ko. Sa office naman napapakitaan ko boss ko ng bad attitude ko minsan parang napapasigaw ako bahagya, nakakapagdabog ako, buti nalang mabait boss ko

Gusto ko lahat ng gisto ko masusunod, kapag hindi pabor sakin, magagalit ako I even blame things like misunderstanding to others while in fact I know that the problem is me, specifically, my attitude
I don't have much friends, kapag off ko sa work, church at bahay lang ako. Hindi ako palagimik. Wala akong social life. Feeling ko looser ako.

Sometimes, I want to say sorry because I exist

Paano po ba i-overcome ?to nahihirapan na ako sa ugali ko

[plumpolka]

medyo ganyan din ako dati... na overcome ko (yung iba) by reading cognitive behavior na ebook. i'll check if meron pa ko sa dropbox ko. try mo din basahin, maybe you'll see kung alin dun mga ugali mo and pano mo sya mababago.
at least narecognize mo yung mali sa ugali mo, 1st step to changing for the better

[Ms. Undecided]

^ What ebook gamit mo sis? Anong title nun sis? Nahihirapan na kasi talaga ako

[Rory_Lorelie_Gilmore]

^^ Hi again Sis, I'm no expert pero bukod sa bata ka pa talaga (you're 22 right) parang ganyan ang Bipolar sa mga nababasa and naeencounter ko.

Don't be too hard on yourself, the fact na alam mong may issue ka is enough reason for you to work it out.

Honestly, some of your traits na-experience ko din noon. So don't feel too bad. Wag ka mapagod tulungan sarili mo.

[plumpolka]

^^cognitive behavior for dummies. meron pa pala ako file sa dropbox, pm mo na lang ako para masend ko sayo di kasi ata pwede magshare dito mismo e. try mo din yung mga activities kasi parang may activity logs din sya e.

^ohhhh, inask din ako ng bf ko if bipolar daw ba ako and tingin ko nga din. di naman ako na-offend sa sinabi nya pero may mga times din kasi na nagtataka nga din sya sa ugali ko. dati iniisip ko lang na baliw ata ako pero d ko kasi talaga macontrol yung emotions ko.

although yung iba, nagagawa ko na by heart, yung iba, hindi pa masyado kasi sa totoo lang, mas malakas emotions ko kesa sa akin. i always act and say things (extreme) based on my emotions. yun ata ang pinaka mahirap imaster para sakin, yung ma-control ko yung sarili kong emotions. and i become aware din sa pag uugali ko. and thanful din ako sa partner ko na alam na nya sakyan yung sapi ko, pero i dont take him for granted as well kasi alam ko sa sarili ko na baka walang magtyaga sa ugali ko if lagi din akong ganon. i also have a few close friends lang, pero mga long time naman.

[glamorosa_09]

If you have the means sis, pa-assess ka sa psychiatrist or psychologist.

If you will rely on self-help, maganda nga yung CBT. But if you couldn't control your thoughts and behaviors alone, it would be wise to seek professional help. Kesa naman tuluyang mag-suffer yung work and romantic relationships mo. Buti na lang iniintindi ka pa ng bf at boss mo, pero baka mamaya may hangganan din yan.

[Rory_Lorelie_Gilmore]

^^ Oo Sis, since ilang beses mo na din nabanggit sa threads na may plano ka na magpa check/asess I guess it's now or never.

[Ms. Undecided]

^^cognitive behavior for dummies. meron pa pala ako file sa dropbox, pm mo na lang ako para masend ko sayo di kasi ata pwede magshare dito mismo e. try mo din yung mga activities kasi parang may activity logs din sya e.

PM sent sis

[Ms. Undecided]

Gusto ko talaga magpa-asses pero di ko alam paano sisimulan.
Any suggested doctors ba?

[hisana]

Sis, natakot naman ako sayo, parang ngang medyo toxic yung disposition mo. You sound really stressed and unhappy with life, and yes, maybe even bipolar. Merong thread under Health Concerns about where to find psychiatrists, and also napag-usapan din ito sa depression thread and there are a few recommendations on where to go for psychotherapy na andun.

Do it as soon as you can ,for your sake and for the sake of the people around you.

[shinies]

The good thing about you sis, alam mo may problema at willing ka gawin ang dapat para masolusyonan ang problema Wag ka mawalan ng pag-asa.

Meron psychologist/psychiatrist thread dito andun mga rekumendadong doctor nila. Kung budget constraint, pwede ka pumila daw sa PGH. Sabi din nila ok mga doctor dun kaso kailangan mo lang pumila.

Mas ok kasi sa propesyonal ka na dumerecho para alam kung ano talaga nababagay na solusyon. Good luck sis!

[Ms. Undecided]

Ayoko sa PGH haha, in my personal experience lang kasi yung ate ko naadmit dun before, puro OJt naghawak samin nakakaloka.

Salamat sa mga payo mga sis. Alam ko naman talaga na may problema talaga sa akin, aware ako at ako mismo badtrip sa ugali ko. Napapatanong ako sa taas kung bakit ba ganito ako. I'm not like this before, super masiyahin ako and I don't care to what other people think about me as long as I know myself. Pero lahat nabago, di ko na namalayan kung kelan. Ewan kung dahil ba menopausal baby ako, haha. Sabi nila pag menopausal baby ka it's either gifted or special child, dun siguro ako sa 'OR' hahaha xD

[airish_2]

^Sis, try mo kay Dr. Randy Dellosa, yun nga lang you have to set an appointment which is common you don't have to queue in line http://www.randydellosa.com/contacts.htm yung clinic nya hindi usual na white wall, if you know what I mean 

[avitot]

Hi TS!

Same tayo ng pinagdaanan halos lahat ng nabanggit mo naramdaman ko yan lahat and maybe something may have triggered it for you to feel that way from your past. be it childhood, teen experience...  I am lucky na medyo little by little naovercome ko na siya.

Gustong gusto ko magseek help sa psychiatrist before but super expensive for every session and super layo saken halos kaya nagresearch ako online.  share ko lang din baka makahelp sayo, yung nafound ko na site betterhelp site. more on licensed counselors sila and you get to pick kung bet mo yung irefer nila sayo based on your problems/issues and so far ok yung na assign sa akin kaya naintindihan ko bat ako ganito and she helped me yung ways to overcome it by asking questions about my life. paid site siya but comparing the rate sa psychiatrist super affordable.

sabi niya saken nung una, the fact that we recognized something is wrong with our behaviour and we are willing to correct it is really a good sign to overcome this phase daw kaya push lang po

goodluck

[Ms. Undecided]

^ Hi sis, anong site yun? saka magkano kaya? Salamat.

[avitot]

sis betterhelp.com ang site. biweekly ang kaltas saken around 2k sa pesos. for me pwede na kasi unlimited consulting naman. pwede calls, chats, or video sessions kayo ng counsellor mo. very happy ako kasi parang na overcome ko na lahat ng issues ko. 

[Ms. Undecided]

^ I will try sis, salamat

[DeathToMondays]

Hi girls and guys, if we have them here.
I don't know if tama ba ako ng napuntahan but I'll post it here anyway.
Hindi ko alam how am I going to explain this, I don?t know if I have some psychological problem, I would like to have a psychiatric test actually but I don?t know where to start. I'm sorry if magiging mahaba 'tong post for I don?t know how to explain this for you to understand, so please, bear with me.

I easily get irritated, very short-tempered, a jealous type, selfish, pessimistic,I overthink, A LOT! Mahilig mag self pity, lahat na ng negative trait parang sinalo ko na Mabilis ako mapasaya, mabilis din mabago mood ko. Mabilis ako umiyak. Madalas ko maisip na ano kaya kung one day masagasaan ako, mabubuhay kaya ako? Ano kaya kung di na ako magising? Minsan pa gusto ko maaksidente, gusto ko malaman sino yung magke-care sakin bukod sa pamilya ko. Mahilig ako mag-jump into conclusion. I always focused in the past and future. imbes mag-focus ako sa present. I mean, ginagawa kong basehan yung mga nangyari sa past sa mga mangyayari s future. Sounds really weird.

Yung maliit na bagay, pinalalaki ko.
Like for example, randomly bf will text 'I love you babe', parang out of nowhere magtetext siya ng ganun, then ako sasabihin ko wrong send siya, sasabihin niya na hindi. Pero ako insist ako ng insist na wrong send siya hanggang sa pag-awayan nalang namin.
Today, he set an appointment to DFA to have his passport on September, magtu-tourist siya dun kasama mama niya for a month. Tas nagalit na ko, I even dare him to choose kung pupunta siya dun o maghihiwalay kami. WTfudge diba? Pero after naman nun parang narerealize ko na mali naman yung ginawa ko tas nagi-guilty ako tapos magiging okay na naman ako tas mamaya sasama na naman mood ko.

My bf always ask me, "ampangit talaga ng ugali mo, bakit ka ba ganyan?" Alam ko naman yun, iniiyak ko nalang. Alam ko na ako yung may problema, nasisira na tuluyan relasyon namin dahil sa ugali ko. Sa office naman napapakitaan ko boss ko ng bad attitude ko minsan parang napapasigaw ako bahagya, nakakapagdabog ako, buti nalang mabait boss ko

Gusto ko lahat ng gisto ko masusunod, kapag hindi pabor sakin, magagalit ako I even blame things like misunderstanding to others while in fact I know that the problem is me, specifically, my attitude
I don't have much friends, kapag off ko sa work, church at bahay lang ako. Hindi ako palagimik. Wala akong social life. Feeling ko looser ako.

Sometimes, I want to say sorry because I exist

Paano po ba i-overcome ?to nahihirapan na ako sa ugali ko

Before you try diagnosing yourself through us non-experts here, it could be you're just immature with difficulty managing your emotional responses. And it seems you also have trouble managing your impulse control.

So before copping out and blaming your behavior on a condition you may not actually have, it's better if you learn how to take responsibility for your emotional responses to the events and people around you. It's so easy to say, "Oh, I'm like this and that because I have so-and-so condition," and use that as an excuse for not growing up.

You're already aware of your own behavioral shortcomings. You may want to work on those first by not being too quick to react to everything.

You're entitled to feel your own emotions, but you're not entitled to act on them in ways that could be hurtful to yourself and others.

[glamorosa_09]

So before copping out and blaming your behavior on a condition you may not actually have, it's better if you learn how to take responsibility for your emotional responses to the events and people around you. It's so easy to say, "Oh, I'm like this and that because I have so-and-so condition," and use that as an excuse for not growing up. 

I agree about not making diagnoses and conclusions (especially without professional assessment). And in most cases, even if one is diagnosed, one should not use his/her label as an excuse for his/her disruptive behaviors.

But in fairness to TS, I think she's on the first stage of taking responsibility for her emotional responses -- admitting that something is wrong with her behavior. Also, by the looks of it, she's considering to check out the book on CBT and is looking into online counseling. It's actually brave of her to admit her behavioral problems. And now that she's on her way to facing it, I think she's on the right track.