Maraming salamat sa pagbati mga sis

I already submitted my pre-employment requirements kanina. Naloka ako sa RDO ni Y - Mandaue City! Dun kasi ang main office nila. Kaya nagulat si Kuyang nasa counter sa RDO 048 kanina (West Makati).
^Sis, I actually don't know how I did it. I started applying January 31. Hindi na ako required pumasok ng March 8, effectivity ng end of employment ko is April 8 pero sumahod pa ako ng April 10. So technically, I just missed two paydays.
I cannot say that this situation is easy. Kaya nga raw nagkafluid leak ang retina ko is because of stress. Hindi ko rin masabing, pasa lang nang pasa ng CV kasi at one point, I stopped passing the CVs. Ang tanging pinanghawakan ko lang honestly is dasal. Every morning, my routine is composed of: 1) Novena to St. Jude, 2) Prayer to St. Joseph, 3) Novena to St. Clare, 4) Novena to Padre Pio, 5) Novena to the Sacred Heart, 6) A few more prayers to Padre Pio (I have the booklet kasi), 7) Novena to St. Cajetan (Patron of Jobseekers) and 10) The Miracle Prayer. Sa gabi naman ako nakikipag-usap kay God as to how my day was, how I feel. I tell him, "I know you know more in my life. I know you know what is best for me. I know that you are aware how I cannot sacrifice my time for my toddler."
I believe God knows more in our daily struggles. He himself understands when there are priorities that we can't compromise - in my case, my toddler. My mom is a paralytic kaya she can only supervise the nanny. Hindi ko rin option na iwan lang sa nanny ang anak ko. Tapos there was this option to accept midshift and night shift. Iniisip ko pa lang, naiiyak na ako. Why? My hubby works night shift. Ang anak ko, kung gabing-gabi ako uuwi, dun matutulog sa parents ko. I hate a home that is empty sa gabi - only three Labradors and a maid ang maiiwan. I know sa iba, parang hindi malaking problema ito pero sa akin, hindi ko kayang ganun. I don't want an empty home. Kaya I believe, God knows even the littlest concerns na nasa heart natin.
Dalawang buwan akong natengga sa bahay, gumigising sa umaga ng kasabay ng anak ko. Lumobo ako dahil unli rice sa bahay. Pero I believe, it was time well spent with my son. Before ako natigil sa bahay, hindi pa siya nagsasalita ng maayos pero ngayon at 29 months, I can say he is now good at words.
Cheer up, sis Girltalker2. It will get better. This will pass. I hate it when people say that "hindi tayo bibigyan ng hindi natin kaya." Kasi the mere thought of the issue, nakakaloka na diba?
I'll pray for your peace of mind.