An Online Diary of a Stalker (I stalk the kabitches)

[purple.strawberry]

Mahirap talaga humiwalay if financially dependent ka sa lalake..

2 decades of marriage. Can't imagine you lasted that long knowing ugali ng hubby mo.

[bebepink]

^thanks for your inputs to both of you.

may be it's easy to say to get out of the marriage if you have the means diba and people around to help you out.  i claimed to myself everyday that i could get out on my situation now. pero in my case hinde ganun ang nangyari.  when i was working for 15 years. I had to support my mom who is ill for many years after my father died. likewise, my hubby took care of our finances at that time. kapag nagbabalak na ko humiwalay yung mga anak ko ayaw sumama kasi they are afraid baka matulad sila sa mga anak ng mga sisters ko na naging helper sa mga relatives namin. it breaks my heart to leave them with their dad. kaya nagtitiis ako.

inaaway si hubby? oo sis inaaway ko ang hubby as much as the kabitches. kaso naging physical sya kaya dinadaan ko na lang sa iyak at dasal kasi baka magkapatayan kami kawawa mga anak ko. saka malandi din yun mga pumapatol kay hubby kasi yun neighbor  kabitch with rich hubby na pumatol sa kanya,  nalaman ko sa dati ni yaya na kung kanino kanino din pumapatol. imagine tricycle driver pinatulan. saka yun old kabitch is a sugarmom just to please my hubby. sabi ko nga kay ka b**** talo ka pa ng mga maids ko hinde pumatol kay hubby unlike her. foreigner ang hubby ni old kabitch.  grr!!!

mahirap kasi sa situation ko at sa mga nasa paligid ko hindi nila kaya ako tulungan para kausapin ang hubby ko. even sa side nya, kasi ang point nila hindi sila ang magulang ko o kapatid kaya di nila ma confront si hubby. unlike nun buhay ang papa ko, he listened to my father.

i was deceived by him since working ako kaya focus ako sa work at maipagamot ang mama ko.
di ko gusto mabuntis kasi yun gap ng 2nd baby ko dito sa 3rd ko is 10yrs.  i never thought mabubuntis pa ko kasi nasa menopausal age na ko e. as much as i rejected my hubby to his itch, i couldn't kasi inaaway ako kaya na force ako. i think bipolar din si hubby e.

outcasted na kami sa side ng mama ko kasi meron pa kami debts sa kanila na malaki.
my friends had lent me money before kaya nahihiya na ko manghiram pa.
sa side ng papa ko, meron din sila mga burdens kaya hindi nila ako matulungan.
online jobs i applied already pero i had no luck yet for 3 yrs of no job till now.
i am selling baked goodies but it could only help me on my medications.

to continue with my story with kabitch:

i told my hubby that his kabitch wanted to meet up...he got mad. he wanted me stopped talking to the old kabitch. he will stopped seeing her. ginawa ni hubby yun, kaya nagalit si kabitch by threatening me and hubby naipapatay kami ng mga anak ko pati si hubby. 10 k  lang daw ang buhay namin. napilitan kami lumipat ng place since we are only renting the place.

kaya ginawa ko since meron kami mga common friends sa fb, i told those circle about what's happening to me and to my family of which they re shocked kasi they know for a fact that she's happily married.
kaya lalo nagalit si kabitch kasi nalaman nya na im roaming around  her bushes. as in nagpalit na kami ng contact numbers namin para di na kami parehas tawagan ni hubby. kaya sa fb nya kami pm. kaya i kept records of all her messages and sent to many around me para if ever meron mangyari sa amin, sya yun suspect. 

Then, nalaman nun father ni kabitch, kaya natigil siya sa pag threat sa amin. I've learned it from one of our common friend in fb. sabi pa sa kabitch ng dad nya kapag di sya tumigil sa obsession niya e tatanggalan ng mana. she asked forgiveness to me and hubby but i didn't reply to her. i dunno with hubby. until now, i stalked her  and her family sa fb. i know where she lives and contact numbers.


thanks again for GT , you allowed me to vent out here. God bless.

[j.adore]

Oo nakakastress..

bebepink, ikaw lang pwede tumulong sa sarili mo. Do not wait for your husband to change. Do not wait for relatives or friends to help you out or even strangers to give charity.
Kakaantay, you've lost almost 2 decades of your life. Worse, you're bringing in other human beings into your broken world.

Madali sabihin? Oo pero may mga tao who have way less than you (no money, no friends, and no family left) but were able to get back up on their feet. You have a hard life, yes. Some decisions may not be ideal but in turning this around, if not now, then when?



Yung sa sugarmommy, sana pala you guys got more money before showing to her circles what kind of person she is. Dagdag ganti In fairness, matalino husband mo kung puro may pera mga babae niya.  The affair is already there why not get some out of it (just a devious idea in case your husband finds another sugarmomma).

[lovemeagain30]

kay bebepink, ikaw na.. pinakyaw mo na lahat!

mukhang masukista ka naman at tanggap na tanggap mo na si pervert/philanderer/gold digger mong hubby eh wag ka ng umahon.  i don't think you will listen to any sound advice you will read from here.

eto lang, warning lang, ang side effect lang nitong ginagawa mo ay nakaka - aning sa huli. nasa sayo yung ipagpapatuloy mo buhay impiyerno mo or maghanap ka ng totoong silbi ng buhay.

the choice is yours kapatid.

[bebepink]

^ sis, truly ako lang ang tutulong sa sarili ko kaya nga ayoko maging burden ng iba tao except my hubby kasi responsibility nya kami. yun circumstances ko ako nahirapan kasi lack of opportunities ako. meron pa ko chronic kidney disease kaya ako lalo naging dependent sa kanya.

actually, sinabi ko yun sa hubby ko at sa sugarmama nya na bigyan ako ng 5M para lalayo na kami ng mga anak ko at di na kami magpapakita...kanya kanya na si hubby. e ayaw ni sugarmama. naisip ko noon na mas mabuti na mawala na kami basta meron na kami funds to start anew  kaso di pumayag at si hubby natakot daw sya kaya ayaw nya dahil magiging slave sya nun sugarmama. at na realize nya na mas importante daw kami. but still have doubts.

my pregnancy is unplanned kasi menopausal age na ko kaya di ko expected na ganito mangyari. i guess, you can say how stupid/ ignorant iam but still depende kasi sa situation. Meron nga nag offer sa kin na mag apply ako na tourist visa sa USA  sagot lahat ang gastos, mag TNT muna ko pero maging kabitch din ako. ayoko kasi di ko alam kung ano mangyari sa kin at sa mga anak ko.  saka di ko kaya maki- affair. saka ang mga sisters ko, they re suffering too...single moms sila and still depending help from me and to my relatives.

bahala na si God sa amin. I seek God's guidance whenever I plan to leave hubby. Am not waiting for my hubby to change kasi God gave us our own freewill. everyday i m counting my blessings to stay positive.
frequent, i seek help from my circles to refer me for opportunities. maybe, limited ang network kko . unlike hubby dami connections kaya dami nya din temptations.

no worries, sis, hubby knows his strategy kaya mga rich kabitch ang kinukuha. kasi nalaman ko lang naman na ganyan sya when i got jobless...mga 5 yrs ago. kasi lagi nya in denial sa mga ginawa nya. for 15 years, I have no solid proof after mahuli ko lang yun email message ni old kabitch. then the rest follows na , inamin na sa kin ni hubby yun mga previous affairs nya. kaso paranoid na ko. and i guess, forgiven but never forgotten.   kaya siguro i still stalked his kabitches.

[donya_dyosa]

^naaawa ako sa situation mo. naiintindihan ko bakit ka nagstay..

you know, gamitan na lang,
grabe na kasi ang lokohan na nangyayari..
hayaan mo na mambabae ang asawa mo..
kung sa sinasabi mo
kailangan mo siya financially, kung nakakakain naman kayo ng maayos, yung mga meds mo ok at pagaaral ng mga bata..
 iset aside mo na ang feelings mo
kasal lang kayo pero wala na.. lokohan na sis..

no more stalking sa mga kabit. wag ka na magdamdam jan.. sa tinagal tagal na ng panloloko sayo..
dapat naimmune ka na. di kaba naaawa sa sarili mo sis?
ang tagal mo ng pinahihirapan ang sarili mo...

have that i dont give a F attitude..
lakompake kinda thing.
sa una ipretend mo.. pero masasanay ka hanggang sa lakampake na talaga..

[kvandenhaak]

I can not imagine the pain TS had to go through.

[bebepink]

^sis, thanks for all the advice.

i guess, yan na nga ang nagagawa ko. maawain kasi ako siguro dahil sa mga nangyari sa akin mga problems kaya sana maging totally manhid na ko.
imagine,i kept on stalking kabitches for me to pray for my enemies. for me not to stalked the kabitches,i tried to deactivate my fb though.

napakahirap kapag wala ka matakbuhan na parents nor siblings to help you out in all the troubles/challenges of life. thankful to our LOrd for
the strength and guidance. I let God's plan and will to prevail.

God bless us all.

[junetwentythree]

@bebepink

When there's a will, there's a way.

In your case, I'm not sure you really have the will. All I'm seeing are excuses. You can say all your prayers. But at the end of the day, pardon my expletive, but what the hell are all your prayers going to do if you don't do anything about getting out of your situation? Really? Do you expect God to come down from the heavens and just get you out of your situation?

Here: http://www.unwomen-eseasia.org/projects/evaw/vawngo/vamphil.htm

If you're online, you could have googled this already. You say you don't have the funds, so there. See if any of these could help you and your kids. If not, keep looking online.

Stop making excuses. Stop leaving it up to God. Do something. ANYTHING.