My life's tragedy: being a mom of 3 angels

[KeishaNheyq]

hi sis ejxtwo,
ngayon ko lang nabasa story mo and sobrang nadurog ang puso ko. Kinuwento ko din kay hubby story mo because last year was the worst year also for us.
I gave birth with our 1st child on my 32nd week of my pregnancy, and unfortunately our son joined our GOD on his 5th day. then after a month I undergone gallstone removal, next my husband and now I will be going to D&C.
Alam kong walang makakapagpagaan sa loob mo sis but PRAY lang. SIYA lang naman makakapagpagaan ng loob natin.
Go sis! Life's go on!
Alam kong masaya na ang mga babies natin. Hindi na sila mahihirapan dito.
Mayayakap natin ulit sila! ☺
GODBless sis!

[pandalicious]

Hugs to you sis... Sorry to read this sad news about your baby. Nabasa ko din noon yung previous thread mo that's why it really saddened me when i saw the title of your new thread. Just be strong sis, remember God will not give you something you cannot endure. As some of our sis said, maybe God is preparing something greater for you, just don't lose hope.

[KVsWahmmy]

...just know sis that there are ladies praying for you here-kasama na ako dun. We'll storm the heavens with prayers for you, that God may give you strength through these very trying times.

This is not going to be easy. This is going to be really really difficult. Draw strength sis from the very reason you are weak right now - your kids. They love you - no one will ever love a woman the way a child loves his/her mom - know and believe in that sis, na kahit wala na sila dito, they are watching over you, and they want nothing more than for you to survive this and be happy eventually.

Super tight hugs sis. 

[molybdenumstudios]

Sis ejxtwo: It is your former husband who is still to blame for your tragedy. Pasensya na kung maraming hindi sasang-ayon sa akin, ngunit si God na ang bahala sa lahat. Tiwala lang. Karma sa asawa mo 'yun, ibang tao lang ang apektado.

[CityHunter]

Hi, ejxtwo.

How are things from your end?  Though we may not directly know each other here ay I'm sure a lot would gladly give what support they could.

[Evolet027]

Hi sis! I know how it feels na mawalan ng anak. My 2 yr-old son also left us almost 3 years ago. kakabirthday lang nya last May 22, 5 yrs old na sana sya. Kahit 3 yrs na, fresh pa rin saken and i still imagine na kung buhay sya, may 5 yr old kid na ko na hinahatid at sundo sa school. But then, I know and I trust God na He has reasons kung bakit nangyari yun, and ang lagi ko sinasabi kay God "Kahit anung plano Mo saken, sa pinagdaanan ko, I still have my Faith in You, and I know, you have better plans for me, and so Your will be done". Be strong sis. Lagi ka din humingi ng strength ke God, ikaw, pamilya mo at higit sa lahat si God ang sandalan mo, promise, gagaan ang lahat sis.

Ok lang umiyak ng umiyak, natural lang na umiyak kasi masakit yan eh. Always pray sis. I will also pray for you.

[ysa.belle]

hi there sis ejxtwo. no words can describe the pain you went through and going through right now. nagulat ako sa post mo. may god bless you sis. mahirap ang mga pinagdadaanan mo pero gaya ng sabi ng iba, hindi ibibigay ni God if hindi mo kakayanin. please please do not try to take your life anymore... GOd has plans for you sis. your angels are watching over you... i really wish that i can give you a hug right now...

again, god bless you sis...

[lilstar]

Hi sis, nasundan ko din yung story mo sa kabilang thread and I'm sorry to know what happened with your son. Di ko alam kung gano kasakit but I pray na maging strong ka pa din despite your situation. Sis just hold on to God. Ang buhay kasi akala natin cause and effect, na pag nakagawa [textspeak!] ng mabuti, mabuti din ang balik, madalas, madaming trials ang dadaan sa buhay natin. Even the kindest person nabbgyan ng trials. Like the story of Job sa bible, malakas ang faith nya kay God, mayaman at happy ang life, pero tinest sya ni God at kinuha sa knya lahat ng pag aari nya, businesses including his children, sunod sunod, in just 1 day. Pero he remained faithful and God blessed him and give His kingdom.

 Be strong sis. Have faith in God. Hugsss.

[ejxtwo]

It's 3am and inaatake na naman ako ng anxiety and depression sisses. Parang naririnig ko yung voice ni Mikee, yung iyak ni Kito and yung giggles ni Kiel. Ang hirap talaga. 😢 I was out the whole day with my guy friend, nag-punta kami sa priest na friend ng mom ko then nag-mall na rin. But everything around me reminds me of my kids, lalo na pag may nakikita akong toddlers and tweens. I can't help but to feel jealous talaga, naiyak na ako sa mall kaya umuwi nalang kami. My brother suggested na lumipat nalang kami ng condo para kahit papano ma-ease yung pain and after all we need a smaller one na rin kasi dalawa nalang kami ng mom ko.

Anyway, thank you for the prayers mga sis. Sobrang laking help sakin. And sorry if ginagawa ko kayong diary, please bear with me. Thanks again sisses. God bless us all.

[CityHunter]

Hi, ejxtwo.

Indeed its sad when we recall all those who have left us in this world more so sa iyo mga babies mo.  However, you should also be strong for them.  Dahil only be being so can you bring meaning not just to your life but also to them.  Besides, its what makes us human - itong mga emotions.  We would be quite shocked if you don't feel the way you are now.

And what is there to be sorry for by sharing to us yun pains and experiences mo on this.  That's what we are here for - for each other.  We chose to read and answer your messages dahil we want to help in whatever ways we could

[katzykat]

Hi Sis.. I've read your story about your baby girl.. Kahit bago lang ako dito I have been reading the posts and I came across sa post mo.. Truly heartbreaking.. Im a Mom also of 2 and as a Mom I am very affected sa post mo.. Wala ako advise na mabibigay sayo.. Just a prayer na God will give you strength to carry the cross.. I believe you can surpass this.. Maybe not now but I know you will soon..  God is soo good and I believe God is there with you all the time. Isipin mo nlng sis na they are all happy sa heaven playing and looking after you.. Stay strong sis..

[ysa.belle]

Maybe I can comment in behalf of everyone who responded your messages sis ejxtwo na lahat kami here are willing to listen and share advices. Wag kang pasorry kase lahat naman tayo nasasaktan and nagkaka-trials.

I wish you peace of mind. Your kids love you, saglit mo man lang sila nakasama pero I am sure mahal na mahal mo sila & ganun din sila sa iyo. They want you to be happy... One day at a time po.

[angel_babyteen]

Hi sis, sorry to hear about all this, wag mo sayangin ang buhay mo, pwede ka naman mag start ulit, go to a place na walang nakakakilala sayo and start over is another option, everything happens for a reason, be strong na lang, goodluck sis.

[snowberry]

Hello sis, be strong. A lot of people loves you especially your mom. Just think kung gaano rin magiging kasakit sa kanya if you took your life.  Darating din ang saya sa buhay mo. Always reach out to God.

We'll pray for you .

[ejxtwo]

Thank you for always listening to my stories, sisses. I really appreciate all the concerns and prayers.

We're planning to migrate sa US soon, mag-aayos lang muna papers. Pero ang hirap hirap pa rin talaga. Masakit pa din. Every night nalang akong umiiyak because I always see my angels in my dreams... Hindi ako makakain and makatulog. Tomorrow first meeting ko with the support group na suggested ng priest friend ng mother ko, I hope everything turns out to be okay. Please continue to pray for me, mga sis. Sobrang laking help talaga sakin. God bless us all.

[harley18]

Your profile says 'Mom of 2 angels and a happy baby'.. it's now 3.

Be strong, start new, keep moving forward. Wag na wag mo na sana maisipang magsuicide. Anong sabi ng ex-husband mo?

[Beng01]

hi sis, my prayers are all for you. Aside sa support ng friends and family, manghawak ka in God's grace. It is ok not to be strong because what you are going through is not so easy, just cry whenever you want to, you feel to.

Alway remember that you are a good mother to your children, and your children are very thankful for that, they maybe gone now here on earth butI know in the heart of your hearts their love for you stays and keep you.

[samtorini]

Hi sis, I'm sorry for your loss. I'll pray that God gives you the strength that you need right now. Try mo sis, baka gumana sa'yo [textspeak!] "pet therapy". Adopt a dog or any  pet

[airwaterfire]

First and foremost, condolence.

Pero sana lahat ng posts mo ay totoo. Kasi kung hindi, medyo marami narin ang napapaniwala mo.

[Beng01]

hi sis airwaterfire why said "sana lahat ng posts mo ay totoo"

Do you know ejxtwo personally?