may nag PM sa akin noon, kung ako ba raw nung nagsimula, nalilito din ba daw?
my reply was no. in general no.
90% of the time, No, the rest i just had to seek confirmation.
it also made me reflect. ano nga ba ginawa ko noong araw?
1. lagi ako nag memeditate. i did proper meditation. hindi chanting chanting lang.
the meditations i used helped developed my etheric, astral, and mental bodies. increased my spiritual cord size. of course cleansing. the system i used was systematic.
2. nag give ako. yes. i paid people for their time. paid authors for their knowledge. i also tithed. tithed to charities. tithed to different masters. i bought CDs, DVDs, Books. ----
and i spent hours reading them...again...and again...and again....10x...20x...even up to now binabalikan koit is in giving that we receive. by enlightening others, i earned karmic merits to understand the higher teachings which are abstract.
free is okay...only to an extent. wala akong kilala na umabot ng malalim na kaalaman dahil nadaan lang sa libre. lahat pinag hihirapan. either in this life or the past lives.
3. consistent practice. i practiced sincerely. when the heavens see that you are sincere, and are practicing they will open up to you.
4. you have to lower the ego. that's another important thing. i've been scanning some of the peeps here. merong mataas pa ego. throw the ego away. you will understand more of the abstract things.
5. i have also organized / helped organize for masters, opened areas, gathered people to meditate, supported their school, gave ideas to spread their teachings.... to spread the light is what the spiritual hierarchy wants. if you help spread the light, more will be revealed.
maswerte nga kayo at binibigay sa inyo dito. when i started, it was old school, i was most often ignored. and the answer was "mag meditate ka!" so that 10 percent verification, hindi lahat nasagot yun. kinailangan kong mag kamot. mas malupet pa sa ibang schools, pag hindi mo nagawa ang pinapagawa sa iyo, hindi ka pakakainin.
and masters will always break you. it is because "friction" in life helps you balance karma. kaya i say again, wala ako kilala na umabot sa malalim na kaalaman na dumaan sa libre lang.
we all need to work hard para madala sa next life.
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as for karma, you have to ask yourself, bakit lapitin ang isang negative situation sa iyo?
also if you keep on worrying about others, if you keep on thinking about when others will be hit by karma. your chakras usually shrink in size, and the spiritual cord too...and you're open to negativity.
it is not the white path....
better to think about your personal growth instead of wondering when the so called "negative" people will be hit. isang malaking hit to the basic chakra din yan...actually all....but malaki effect sa basic chakra....and it is the center of prosperity, including good health.
it is better to bless them and pray for them. batuhin mo sila ng tinapay. sometimes too, fighting back is not the answer, but acceptance, understanding, patience, and letting go.
ang diyos hindi natutulog. in God's time they will reap any negative na tinanim nila. also, minsan ang lesson ay nasa iyo at hindi sa kanila. minsan ang diyos gumagamit ng ibang tao para magbigay ng paraan para ibalanse ang karma natin. isipin natin sila ang masama, pero sa totoo lang, tayo yung marka. whether their action carries karma or not, nasa itaas na yun. but if they have to reap, it can be in this life or the next ones.
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^yup kaya thank you po sa inyo ni sir CH for explaining things to us patientkly dahil baby level ang understanding ko. 
i still remember the day i saw sir CH in GT and I messaged him something like, "hey, there's a FS thread here" hindi ko na maalala saan thread yun. i think airsoft section ng GT. pero alam ko sa Filipino Airsoft (FAS) nakita ko din doon si sir CH.