If you ladies need your dose of miracle today, please let me share to you my little story (albeit just on my 6th week and still praying for a healthy full term
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Almost 7 weeks ago, I went to a new OB. Been married for 4 mos then and ttc for 3. I am in my early 30s so 3mos feels like forever. So I took control and decided to visit an OB for prenatal care. I specifically visited an OB with Infertility as her specialty as I don't want to waste any more time.
I came to her office asking for prenatal care. Part of her routine was an initial transV. And there it was -- PCOS, a cyst, Endometriosis, Adenomyosis and retroverted uterus. All I wanted was prenatal vitamins for this visit. But God said no. That night, iyak na lang ako ng iyak sa husband ko. The doctor decided to monitor me for the rest of this cycle. On my 3rd visit, she gave me her plan of attack. We undergo 6mos GnRH hormone therapy starting August and a laparoscopy operation to diagnose staging of my endometriosis. I prayed hard for a very confident doctor. I prayed for my doctor. Cause even if hindi ko maintindihan anong biglang nangyayari, inask ko na lang kay God na please help my doctor heal me. Use her hands to heal me. Heal me so I can welcome a child healthily.
On the 4th monitoring visit, dun pa lang nakita na nangitlog ako, not 14th day of my cycle but 22nd. Late ovulation ako. Sabi ni OB, I thought hindi ka nangingitlog kasi PCOS, etc. Syempre ang dasal ko kay God, tinulungan ko rin ang sarili ko. Talagang sa 3 weeks na yun, healthy and I worked out. Lost almost 5 lbs. I dedicated every workout to my future baby. I dedicated every effort.
That checkup, my doctor gave me Primolut N for 5 days (pampableeding made of progesterone). This was during my 2ww. I took it for 5 days. AF is not due until another 5 days. Pero sabi ni OB, take for 5 days, expect bleeding in 3 to 7 days. So wala na 'tong cycle na to. Wait for the bleeding then injection na ng hormone therapy for 6 mos -- meaning menopause ako ng 6 mos before my operation. tagal to TTC ulit diba?
Dito na nagsimula ang dasal ko ng thanks. Nagpapasalamat ako na may chance ako malaman ang pwede kong gawin. I thanked God na dinala niya ako sa doctor na kampante ako kasi it's a big factor to be at ease with who's treating you. I thanked Him for my very supportive husband. A healthy husband. I accepted na in 6-8mos pa ko pwede mag TTC. Pero natural na minsan hindi ko na alam idadasal ko, naiiyak na lang ako and sinasabi ko na lang kay God na "please listen to my heart."
It was the least month so to say. AF never came. The progesterone, instead of making me bleed, helped my low levels to keep a healthy uterus for my little miracle to implant. Ayan, 6 weeks na ako. At hindi natatapos ang pasasalamat ko sa BFP at sana healthy full term ako.
God is good all the time. But it is His time. I realized that I was pressuring Him by counting the months "I" want to be pregnant. ni-let go ko yun. Sabi ko "God, sorry. Sorry na pinipilit ko na ako ang masunod sa atin. Ang dami ko kasing plano. Akala ko handa na ako. Ikaw na ang bahala sa akin. Sorry."
Let go and let God. Yan ang nangyari sa akin.
Piangdasal ko din lahat ng TTC. Kasi ang dami kong nabasa dito na talagang nabuhayan ako ng loob.
