Messages for your Significant Other

[simang]

Nawiwili ka yata sa pag harana sa akin? This time it was cuter kase I can see your face while singing over at facetime. Kinikilig ka sa ginagawa mo no? Hahaha. Nirecord ko yung isang song, antayin mo na lang sa facebook. Haha. Seriously though, you warm my heart everytime. How can I not love you.

[ysa.belle]

yesterday was fun. nakasama kita ng matagal tagal... thank you sa time.

[insanelypurpleprincess]

sugardrop and simang, I missed reading through your posts, ladies. Anyway, it's either I am also on a natural high or super kakilig ang mga posts nyo... either way... I am so happy for you both!!!

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Happy Anniversary to Us!!! I love you!!! 

[Tumblrista]

I had so much fun with you on our outing yesterday. Para lang tayong bumalik sa pagkabata. Eventhough the preparation and commute were tiring, they're all worth it. Looking forward for more bonding sessions like that. 

[simang]

^^enjoy your anniversary :-)

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I missed you today. Gahhd so many errands eh. I'm still at the doctor's clinic and i'm hoping for some good news :-)

[sugardrop]

^^^
Happy happy anniversary to you and your man.

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I miss you. See you real soon, buster. Labyutu!

[ysa.belle]

im scared. malapit na birthday mo eh. baka hindi ka magparamdam...

[insanelypurpleprincess]

S&S sisters (a.k.a. simang and sugardrop), thanks heaps!!! Almost back to the same time zone as you gals, so I should be better at keeping up with posts

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Thank you for that awesome anniversary dinner. What's funny is, both our tummies went bad... looks like we're not cut out for authentic Italian food huh? Let's stick to our trusty Chinese next time. Nonetheless, thanks.. it was awesome.. don't you suddenly miss Chickenjoy from Jollibee? I miss home!!!

[sugardrop]

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Funny how it's always Chickenjoy that a lot of us miss when it's not available yet we just pass by them whenever there are a lot of other choices.

Have your chickenjoy soon.

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You never fail to drive me nuts but I still labyu!

[ysa.belle]

i am scared. hindi ko masabi sayo. hindi ko masabi out loud. i just decided na dito sabihin kase in a way i need to vent it out.

i love you. i love you so much. kahit na galit na galit sayo family ko, pinipili kita over them. gustong gusto ko na makasama ka ulit gaya ng dati. alam mo, i felt secured with your love noon. dati alam ko walang pwedeng manakit sa akin kase andiyan ka sa tabi ko at hindi mo ako pababayaan. i was so happy back then. walang makakasira ng saya ko noon. i miss sleeping with you by my side. i miss waking up beside you. i miss the nag-aagawan part ng blanket pag malamig na malamig na ang aircon sa gabi. i miss going out with you. i miss doing business with you. i miss hugging you at night. i miss cooking egg the way you want it, dulok ng konti sa ilalim and with pepper but the yolk is kinda runny. i miss the feeling na pag uwi mo kahit anong inis ko wala na. i miss you loving me.

its been two years and i thought wala ng tears. meron parin pala. naiiyak palang ako while typing this. gosh. if only i could turn back time. umalis nalang siguro ako papuntang oman baka sakali nasa bahay ka pa. are you still mine? hindi ko alam eh. though i am thankful for the effort na you do when we have lunch together. i am thankful that you greeted me mother's day coz we have a child together. thankful ako kase in a way i know you love our child. but i am scared. maybe it is because of all the things that has happened to think na i never ever thought that you would go. did you know that i attempted suicide when you left? it was so painful. i cried and cried. i was a mess. they saw me that way, i just cried and cried. eat? i barely did. water? halos hindi din. i almost gave up on life but i didn't.

the tears were just flowing non stop. i tried to control it but it was too hard. i never wanted to wake up coz sleep was the only peace i had. but it was very difficult for me. i woke up in the wee hours and cry. it came to a point na nagpapalpitate ako and i had difficulty breathing... until now naman i still experience those things... kakatakot. i landed a job in a catering business but i only lasted for a day, why? our clients were celebrating birthdays, weddings, anniversaries and all those happy events and i had to deal with them. that was so wrong. i was dying inside and dealing with uber happy people is one thing i could not do at that time.

mommy was so worried about me that she even slept in my room because she knew i could not sleep and if i did, i still wake up around 3 or 4 am. it came to a point that i could no longer sleep in our room. i could not even bear staying there. every time i went inside our room, images of us very happy are flashing right before my eyes and it d@mn hurts. i might go crazy if i stayed there.


it came to a point where i was so scared of going out. i lost my self confidence.my sister said that i should take care of myself. all i do all day was just stare at the wall and cry. each time i ate, i threw up.  i was scared to talk to people. i was scared of everything. my hands would go cold, my eyes would tear up and i would start to get nervous... ngayon lang ako nasaktan na ganito...

i love you that much kaya i am hurting. all i ever did was love you. yes, i may be selfish but all the decisions i made for you, i made sure it was beneficial to you. i made sure lamang ka. i can still say it to your face that wala akong ginawa na ikinapahamak mo, sinigurado ko na lahat lamang ka, lahat ikakabuti mo. i may have made mistakes, after all i am not perfect but was that reason enough to hurt me? reason enough to throw away everything that we worked for?

i was so angry at you but i was wondering why i still love you. you hurt me so many times. you made me cry. you made my parents see that i love you more than them. until now i am wondering why i love you.. all i know is i am still praying that we can be together again... please do not forget that i am thankful for the the very very very little things that you are doing for me.... its been two years, before that, we've been through hell and back.. now we wait... i hope when you tell me you love me, that is still true... maybe you still love me, my boss says she can see that you love me.... sana that it true.... coz i love you and i already proved that over and over again...

advance happy birthday....

[simang]

sisses insanelypurpleprincess and sugardrop now i'm craving for chickenjoy when I just had one for lunch -_-

^sis ysa.belle, everything will be okay :-)

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Thank you for being here tonight. And yes, my doctor advised 30 days without sexual contact starting Monday. Sorry my lady parts need medication to function normally, but I'll be fine. Our future little one will be fine.

[sugardrop]

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I hope you get better real soon.

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Get well soon, Georgie. Don't forget to take your medicine too. Get tons of rest tonight. I miss you.

[sugardrop]

Why are you extra sweet tonight? May kalokohan ka bang ginawa?! Kidding!

Sabi ko magsawa ka sa line ko na "i love you to the moon and back" and your response ha, "di ako magsasawa. i love you'. Anong gamot ininom mo ng mapainom nga lagi sayo so you're extra sweet?

Anyway, let's sleep na. Buti na lang I didn't have to sing you a lullaby kasi wala akong alam na lullaby at ayaw ko pumiyok. G'night, Georgie.

P.S.
My gay co-worker said "saraaaaap" when he saw you after nya ako kulitin kung ano ichura mo. Palakpak na tenga, bilis!

[budzwhiz]

Tiwala lang. Kaya natin to!

[simang]

Haaaay the morning after is always the hardest. I'm looking forward to the day when we can just stay in bed for a few more hours and just talk about random stuff and make out. It's always heartbreaking when you have to leave... Your kisses are incredibly sweet and warm, I wouldn't trade them for anything. I love you so much it's crazy!

[insanelypurpleprincess]

sugardrop, get well soon to Georgie. As for Chickenjoy, I guess it is true when they said, 'panlasang Pilipino, at home sa Jollibee!'... It is kicking in... home sickness even if we're having a blast. A few more days and I can eat all the Chickenjoy I want... suppose I have space for it. Gained so much weight in the last two weeks... Ugh!

simang, oh my! Hope you get better the soonest. It's not so much for the lack of sexy time, but for an overall restored health... after all, you are still yet to build happily ever after with Engr.

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I am dreading that we're almost heading home... I am too worried about being drowned in work back log... but it's fine... this trip was oh so worth it!!! And yes, closer to Chickenjoy, plus sisig and beer and of course, rice as a normal part of every meal.

[simang]

thank you sisses sugardrop and insanelypurpleprincess.

actually it's me that i'm worried about. can i last 30 days? lolololol

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Yey! Will see you again in a bit. Namiss mo naman ako kaagad. I want Japanese food, can we have that for dinner? Seeee you my handsome bear!

[sugardrop]

^^
Thank you.

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Kaya mo yan. I lasted that long.

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You're still sick? Darn. Go see a doctor. I miss you.

[sugardrop]

Stay with me.

[ysa.belle]

45minutes to go and it's your birthday na. there are butterflies in my stomach kase di ko alam if magpaparamdam ka bukas sa akin. I love you so much. Proven na yung pagmamahal ko sayo. Goodnight. I'll try to sleep...