I begged, pleaded and threw away my pride now i feel pathetic

[snix]

Prior to our breakup, nagmakaawa ako, at nagiiyak ako talaga as in hysterical na huwag niya ko iwan.. as if that wasn't enough nalasing ako at nagiiyak sa kanya ngayon hiyang hiya ako sa sarili ko at sa pinagagawa ko parang naubos lahat ng pride ko at pati ako nanliliit sa sarili ko..

Iniisip ko din kung ano kaya naisip niya sakin ng mga panahon na yun.. siguro mas malabo ng magkabalikan dahil dito

[chicafabulosa]

No.1 sis why would you beg? Pardon me sis but I think that is kinda extreme for me. Never ever beg someone not to live you, that will lessen how they look at you. Keep your dignity intact. He is not the last guy on earth.  Sis, i have read how you post and i can sense you are smart and witty. There are a lot of guy who would fall for you.

How he thinks, why would you still care? Ex na nga di ba, that means wala na kayo. So kahit ano pa isipin nya wala ka ng magagawa. If i were you, the damage has been done... Ayusin mo buhay mo. Pakita mo what he just lost. Wag kang magpaka damsel in distress ni. Di na usi yan. Yun mga ganyan ngayon mas madalas sila ang talunan.

Make sure kung magkakaron ka next relationship, wag mo na ulitin anong mistake mo wi your last one. Also, love yourself sis. If the guy sees how much you love yourself, you will definitely get the kind of love you deserve. Wag mo hayaan na bumagsak kadahil lang sa kanya. You have a lot of reason to move on and be a better person.

And pray harder... Reinvent yourself. Be a better you. Learn to accept na wala na kayo. Wag kang magmakaawa.

[snix]

^Hi sis if you read my posts you should know by now how insecure i am in life probably why i resulted to this.. Im getting professional help for this na na nga eh..

Anyway, I regret doing so I just want to save face.. Ako ang babaeng mas mataas pa ang pride kesa sa lalake pero ng time na yun tinapon ko lahat yun.. I regret doing so and i feel bad about doing it.. Not something I could ever be proud of

[chicafabulosa]

Yes ive read that. Kaya nga advice ko sayo is learn to love yourself more. Because when you do, insecurities will just disappear ....trust me...

[harlet]

^good point sis chicafabulosa....i have also seen a friend kung paano magmakaawa sa boyfriend niya para balikan siya, she was crying, trying to hug the guy pero super iwas ang lalaki, she even knelt down.....as a woman, ang sakit ng scene na yun....nakakababa nga ng pagkababae lalo na at ayaw na ng guy....

well, nangyari na yun sis snix....for now, just move on....and pretend and let him know na, lasing ka lang noon at di mo alam ginagawa mo....

[chicafabulosa]

Sis harlet the last part if your post about explaining it na lasing lang sya... I dont think its a good idea. Because kahit naman sabihin nya yun, lalo lang baba ang tingin sa kanya. Imagine nagpapakalasing sya because of him... Like what I said sis it happened na. Wala ka na dapat paki sa iisipin nya. Ayusin mo sarili mo. Pakita mo youve changed and you become a better person without him....

[angelzero]

Damage is done. Try not to think about it anymore. Best thing to do, avoid contacting your ex. Kahit phone call or text. Erase his number on your celphone para maiwasan na rin ang drunk dialling. Distract yourself. Go out more with your family and friends.

On your next relationship sis, leave something for yourself. Wag bigay todo. Hope for the best but expect the worst. Having gone through what you've gone through, I think you'd know better next time.

Take it easy sis.

[snix]

I could proudly say that I will never get to the point that I will kneel down just to stop him from leaving me.. Sa phone ko lang lahat nasabi yun but still

i should never have let my emotions take over me.

Kung magkakaayos magayos pero if not I swear I will never beg again.. kung bakit ngayon pako natauhan

[CityHunter]

Hi, snix.

All of us did some act that we regretted later.  Take heart that you woke up from that and are vowing to be a better person.  Yun ang important. 

[gab54]

If I were u, hindi ako magmamaka-awa sa taong ayaw na sa akin. Pero syempre ginawa mo yun dahil mahal mo. Since what's done is done, wala na tayong magagawa so dont feel sorry for yourself. At least masasabi mo sa sarili mo na ginawa mo ang lahat...
Kaya lang sis, sa tono mo parang umaasa ka parin magkabalikan kayo. That would be a problem. If u are not careful, baka maulit na naman ang pag plead mo, at hindi ito makakatulong... The best thing to do now is to cut off all communications. Allow yourself to heal & love yourself & pray to God.

[det060403]

Ditto gab54

less communication or none at all does help! big time!!!

[jaemi33]

Hi sis snix - agree ako sa lahat ng mga advise dito ng mga sisters natin. What is done is done. Just move on. I'm sure most of us did something embrassing in our lives na super niregret natin, pero we should use and remember that experience para hindi na natin ulitin ulit  Love yourself more. I used to love the man I love more than I love myself and the experience is just heart breaking, but then I realized how much I worth so I let go of that negative feeling and I'm having a happy single life I think this experience of yours will help you not only sa love life mo but also generaly sa social life mo. Never beg for someone who wants to leave your life. There is a reason why they are not meant to be in your life anymore.

[chicafabulosa]

Sis remember this always ha:

Our life is like a movie. If someone leaves, that means their role in the movie has already ended. But the movie continues even without them.

You make the ending of your own movie sis. Do not rely on other people how your own movie will end. End it with how you want it to be not because they want it. not because your bf left you, you will be contented on how your movie ends. But instead of feeling sorry for yourself, find that hay ending.. Do it by loving yourself more and learning not to rely on other people for your happiness. i always say this to myself when a friend leaves or someone really close to me passed away. I hope it helps...

Remember also what I told, NEVER EVER BEG. keep your dignity intact. Rely on yourself alone. A help from other people from time to time is good but never ever trust your happiness with them. Leave something for yourself. Because if you do give everything and they leave you, you will be left with nothing.

[piatos]

done that sa huli ako rin nasaktan.  Pray, pray and pray lang sis.  Go out with your friends.

[bluegintonic]

To Miss TS-Give yourself time-to heal.I felt that way too when my ex broke up with me. Siya lang kasi guy na nakipag break sa akin, usually I'm the one who breaks up with guys eh.Sobrang nakaka-baba talaga ng morale.What I did-I focused on work,exercised,I always made ME time special para mabawasan yung negative feelings.Then after 6 months I felt like it was ok to date again.And I did-I met my now-husband

[greyzie]

hi, sis! be kind to yourself. at least you won't have any regrets or any what-ifs kasi you know you've done it all, it's just not meant to be. it's not your fault. now, what's important is not how many times we fail but how quick we get up when we do. kaya, be kind to yourself. embrace the process of grieving and move forward.

[tannya]

^korek lahat!

move on lang sis.it will heal in time.most of us, if not all, ay nakakaranas din ng ganyan. marami pang guys out there at hindi siya nag-iisa sa mundo. (take note: di ako hater, bitter, etc hah nagsasabi lang ako ng trueness harharhar)

i remembered nga [textspeak!] sa akin kaninang morning lang while i was taking a bath sa banyo, he was the first and last na iniyakan kong di ko kaanuanu hahaha ex lang. shhhh lang mga gurlz hah? well then, i was thinking 'kamusta na nga pala c ***?' matagaltagal nadin pala ako kasing di nagllurk/tinitingnan ang fb nya hahaha when  realized only now as in now na wala na pala syang fb hahaha...

see?it was more than 10 years ago already and now i'm a mother of one na so look how time flies so fast and mawawala din yan believe me. 

so for now, hang out more with your friends, do not be idle para walang maisip na masyadong nega and be busy on things other than bf-gf relationships sa ngayon para maka move on.

[mooncake and leaves]

stop beating yourself up over it. it already happened. if it's any consolation, you're neither the first nor the last girl to make a fool of herself. embarrassing as it might have been, someday you'll either look back at all of this and laugh or feel that that was a particularly poignant moment for you. you don't get to love that many people that much and you had a very human episode. that's about it. all you can do is accept that it happened and learn from it.

[karlita123]

I agree. Learn from your mistakes.

[kaiz]

I agree with you sisses --- never ever beg. pero I have a friend na siya talaga nag beg sa bf nya, as in to the point na pagpinupuntahan pa niya sa work, hindi mn lang
sya pinapansin. but now, they're happily married na. nagtataka din ako minsan.