Girl to Girl Relationships Part V :)

[crazylove]

^hi mga sis, backread muna ko..

[pumpkin13]

Mga sis, try to watch Blue is the Warmest Color if you haven't seen it. In one way or another, makakarelate tayo dito.

[patstarr]

is it weird that i found a fellow femme partner first before realizing im attracted to girls? i used to date guys before, but never naging seryoso na boyfriend. so technically she's my first. and ako din first nya. im so confused but ive never been this happy

[catblox]

Hi peeps, I've been on GT for a long time, but just recently active and this is the first time I posted on this thread. I've been in g2g relationships several times. My gf and I are together for 8 years so this is it

@pumpkin13 i've seen blue na. pretty good movie with very good actors. sad nga lang ang ending pero marami siguro ganoon talaga.

@patstarr i think that's what happened to my partner, so i don't think it's strange. iba lang ng ikot, haha. just be what you already are...happy.

[patstarr]

^ @catblox really trying to just enjoy it, go with the flow. medyo overwhelming lang yung feelings. parang ang intense masyado. considering ldr kami nyan ah.

for the closeted couples - is it normal to be frustrated na you have to hide the relationship? a lot of times i want the world to know how wonderful she is and how lucky i am to have her but i cant do anything about it. i dont want her to think that im ashamed of her or anything. di lang talaga ako ready mag out pa 

[clairedelune08]

Mga sis, try to watch Blue is the Warmest Color if you haven't seen it. In one way or another, makakarelate tayo dito.

Na watch namin yan together sis. Haha. Pero medyo hindi namin kinaya yung Rated R scenes. Parang di namin inasahan yun.

is it weird that i found a fellow femme partner first before realizing im attracted to girls? i used to date guys before, but never naging seryoso na boyfriend. so technically she's my first. and ako din first nya. im so confused but ive never been this happy

Iba talaga sis kung nahanap mo na yung taong talagang komportable kang kasama siya. At mararamdaman mo kung gano kayo ka seryoso. Never din akong nagka bf. Mga MU2x lang. Kaya siya din yung first ka relationship ko. :3

for the closeted couples - is it normal to be frustrated na you have to hide the relationship? a lot of times i want the world to know how wonderful she is and how lucky i am to have her but i cant do anything about it. i dont want her to think that im ashamed of her or anything. di lang talaga ako ready mag out pa 

Siguro sis, for me, at least. Ganyan din yung partner ko. I'm the one who's always trying to talk her out of coming out pero she always says that she's not ready. Pero deep inside, ako din naman. Marami na ring nag se-speculate samin and there are a few people who already know naman. Pero sa totoo lang, hindi pa talaga kami ready kasi sa pagkakalam ng marami, we're straight talaga. Haha. Medyo natatakot kami especially of our families. Minsan, nag aaway pa kami because of that. But in the end, we'll both have to understand na medyo hindi madali ang situation and we'll have to bear with that for a while.

been two months since we broke up. almost four years kami but til now ngtrtry pa din siya kung magiging ok kami ulit. pero di ko alam sasabihin na wala na kong feelings sa kanya. naawa ako kasi super bait nya and ng family nya sakin. Sana one day sabihin nya na din sakin na hindi na din niya ko mahal para di na sakin manggaling.

Why don't you give it some time muna sis? I think the space is good for you to think things through. Sana ma work out niyo na yan in the end. Pero in fairness, sayang ang 4 years.

[catblox]

But in the end, we'll both have to understand na medyo hindi madali ang situation and we'll have to bear with that for a while.

True. Ang hirap niyan iba pa rin kasi if your family knows about your relationship. What's even harder is to know how long you'd wait. It took 4 years for me, and 6 years for her.  We had argued many times about it too. It was only when the arguments became very ugly that we decided to do something about it. I-out or i-end? And it's better now But sometimes, I think paano kaya kung inagahan pa namin. Pero oks lang, at least we did it na so our relationship could progress. Cheers!

[patstarr]

Siguro sis, for me, at least. Ganyan din yung partner ko. I'm the one who's always trying to talk her out of coming out pero she always says that she's not ready. Pero deep inside, ako din naman. Marami na ring nag se-speculate samin and there are a few people who already know naman. Pero sa totoo lang, hindi pa talaga kami ready kasi sa pagkakalam ng marami, we're straight talaga. Haha. Medyo natatakot kami especially of our families. Minsan, nag aaway pa kami because of that. But in the end, we'll both have to understand na medyo hindi madali ang situation and we'll have to bear with that for a while.

Samin good thing na naging LDR kami I guess, easier to hide it. Hirap kasi talaga kasi feel ko di maniniwala friends namin when we tell them.

Pero mom nya nag speculate na even before naging kami. Even before she told me she liked me actually. Si ga** naman tumawa lang nung tinanong nung mom nya if sure sya na straight ako. I guess caught off guard sya. But sayang kasi may judgement na sakin agad mom nya. So yun palang, takot na ako sa mom nya.

[pumpkin13]

More than a couple of years ago, I shared here my confusion when I got attracted to a woman for the first time in my life. I shared here too how that attraction evolved to a lovely relationship, my first ever girl-to-girl relationship and her first, too. The experience was amazing. I wouldn't trade it for anything else. The pain of losing the person and the relationship is even worse than the past breakups I went through with guys. So yes, I lost her to someone else. She just felt that she was drifting away from me and falling for someone else, for another girl...

I didn't see it coming. There was no any sign. A week ago, we were still that loving couple, or so I thought. I didn't know there was already a struggle within her. I didn't feel it. She was good at hiding things. Then she just blurted it out during the times when I thought things were perfect. I was crushed. I wanted to fight for it, for her, for what we had, for the relationship we nourished for almost 3 years. But she has given up on me already. And it kills me inside.

My world is about to turn 360 degrees one more time. I will have to go and move away from her and the friends I've gained along the way. I will have to heal on my own and accept the fact that I lost everything we had. I lost the future we planned to share, all the plans. I have to let go of the promises that nothing can break us apart, that we will last until we grow old. I believed all that, and now I have to let them all go.

I am so crushed, devastated and hurt. It's like a million knives were stabbed to my chest. And now I have to start over again. 

[zeroone]

hypothetical question mga sis...

if a girl kiss another girl, like torrid with one of them hands on the other's butt, does that automatically make them or one of them lesbian? i 'm no sexist, it's just a girl confessed to me that she did this recently but she said it's just out of curiosity.

can that be true??

[pumpkin13]

^thanks, sis. I'm now starting to move on and making plans for myself. Sometimes, I just can't help myself but check on her if she's okay. I'd go to her room and see her sitting in bed, suffering from the trouble she has caused everyone. Hindi lang kasi kami yung affected but the entire house with friends. And it hurts me that one of the things she's suffering from is that the person she fell for doesn't even know it. It's a one-sided love, and I lost to that one-sided love. It's like, she' hasn't lost anything because she hasn't had it to begin with. And I lost her and everything between us. Nothing has ended up in a happy way.

[pumpkin13]

^Oo sis, we live with our friends. So I have to move out soon, inaayos ko lang yung process ng pagmove out and magiging new place ko. Yes, she was honest pero sobrang devastated ako kasi nung una parang willing pa sya na ayusin namin kami. Sabi nya kelangan lang nya makaget over dun. Kala ko naman to be able to get over that, magfofocus kami samin. Yun pala, without me knowing, nagcompose sya ng email para dun sa girl para umamin sya. Nabasa ko lang sa conversation nila ng friend nya. I know it was bad of me na makialam ng phone so I said sorry for what I did pero sabi ko, buti na lang ginawa ko yun. All this time pala I was in the dark. So the plan was to send the email and pag nireject sya, that's the only time na makakafocus sya ayusin kami. Tapos tinanong nya sa text yun friend nya, what if i-accept ako? Sabi nun friend, then give it a chance. So naisip ko, okay, then that's the time you're going to ditch me, aren't you? Dun na kami nag away and yun na yung end. I just felt betrayed and devastated.

[ilovekaitlintobits25]

hi. i'm in a relationship right now with another femme (soft butch) and i am very very girly. turning 2 years na kami next month. she's my first f2f rel, i'd been married too with a guy and blessed with a baby girl, 28 na ako and she's 32. confused ako as of now, nasa 'pinas ako and she's in the uk but i'm returning next week. hindi kami nag-uusap since sunday for no apparent reason, oh well, probably because of me. hindi ko maintindihan sarili ko, hindi ko siya namimiss. i'd been here for 3 months na. hindi ko talaga siya hinahanap, ok lang if we don't communicate at all. feeling ko ngaun ok lang din if we separate ways na din basta maging ok lang siya. ayoko lang na hindi siya masaya, gusto ko ok siya. is that enough reason to stick with her? thanks sisses.

[catblox]

@pumpkin13
grabe yang pinagdadaanan mo. it's not easy to move on, pero kayanin mo kasi the reason for ending the relationship is valid. you deserve to be with someone who chooses you as the best for her.

@ilovekaitlinintobits24
here's my 2cents. to stay with her para "okay" siya at "masaya" siya isn't enough. one, it sounds like you're just pitying her kasi. she's 32 in a foreign country so it screams independence for me. also sis, kung okay lang sa yo not to communicate with her and you don't even miss her, you no longer want a relationship with her. it looks like it's already over for you. and sis, para malinaw ko lang, married ka pa rin ba dun sa dad ng baby mo? kung oo, i think you need to clear that up first para makapagfocus ka na sa relationship na gusto mo.

[ilovekaitlintobits25]

@catblox thanks ☺️ divorced na kami ni ex. right now i don't know what to tell her when i see her on saturday, from there i will decide. i know i love her, i'm just not sure if i'm still in love with her 😔 but thank you though! and another thing, she have a history of depression. before me, she wasn't working for like 7 years and just wallowing in loneliness that's why i'm so worried she might do that again.

[pumpkin13]

Thank you mga sis for your support and encouragement. The crying has lessened, although there are times that I still do lalo na pag naiisip ko yung lahat ng nangyayari sakin: need to find a place for me asap, stop ang schooling ko kasi affected ang finances ko since I will have to pay for a new apartment plus the bills, unlike dati na may kashare ako. Bagsak din ang scores ko sa work kasi I haven't been functioning properly since the breakup happened. Then the only friend who was willing to help me for the downpayment sa apartment just backed out kasi nahospitalize anak nya. So sabi ko kunin ko na lang sa savings ko, yun nga lang after that, nganga na ko. Maghihirap talaga ako.

Then there she is. Walang nagbago sa buhay. Nakakulong lang sa room, nakikinig ng music while playing some PC games. Naiiyak ako minsan pag naiisip ko na bakit kung sino pa yung walang kasalanan, sya pa yung hirap na hirap. Nananahimik lang naman ako nun, wala naman ako inagrabyado. Tapos nagulo lahat sakin.

[catblox]

i know i love her, i'm just not sure if i'm still in love with her 😔 but thank you though! and another thing, she have a history of depression. before me, she wasn't working for like 7 years and just wallowing in loneliness that's why i'm so worried she might do that again.

ah, now it makes sense. i hope she's totally over it, but have you seen strong traces of it kaya you're so worried? 7 years of depression is hard to shrug off so in all honesty there might still be traces. you don't need to feel guilty about whatever your decision is though, kahit na it makes her feel lonely again because regardless of her history, everyone deserves to be with a partner who's in love with them. kaso ang pinaka-challenge kasi is how to stay inlove. or talaga bang nawawala yun? depende sa yo talaga sis, kung kaya mong ibalik pa yung pagiging in-love mo, push for it, but if not, let go. siguro kung bad news ang sasabihin mo, ibuild up mo na lang talaga na kaya niyang magmove-on.

[Gracianas]

Hi guys. I'm in a relationship with a girl din. One year na kami.
Hingi lang sana ako ng advice. Ayaw kasi sakin ng mga friends niya, ano bang dapat kong gawin?
Napakasakit kasi e. 

[pumpkin13]

^What's their reason for not liking you?

[Gracianas]

I don't know. I asked her last night pero hindi naman niya sinabi.
Ayaw na daw niya kasi akong masaktan.