I dated my ex for 1.5years... He is French. We met in HK when I was on vacation. Then we hang out for 4days while I'm on vacation with my friends. We clicked, and had an instant connection. When I came back to Philippines, we kept in touch everyday thru whatsapp, then after a month, he came to visit me in the Philippines to meet me & my family. We had our first dates and get-away together in Palawan for a week. That's where we started dating. We fell in love. Full of fireworks, like a fantasy.
After that, I came back to HK with him. And every month he would come to visit the Philippines atleast twice a month for 3-5days (every visit). He did that for about 6months. Then afterwards, it was my turn to visit him every month also in HK. I would spend two weeks here and two weeks in HK. That has been my life for a year. We travelled together in different countries and I've met all of his family & relatives in France, his parents also visited me in the Philippines and met my family. At that time, we were already talking about marriage.
My ex is a very spiritual guy, almost all the good qualities that I look for in a man, he has it. The only down side is, he is PISCES. He is very sensitive. He cannot deal with small arguments and fighting. Every time we would argue or I would seek attention (naghahanap ng lambing), he takes it heavily. He don't understand this attitude cos he has different culture. He don't understand the behaviour of Filipino. So yung mga small fights namin, little did I know na, kinikimkim pala nya lahat. The hardest part with him is, if we have arguments right now, he would brought up all the issues and problems I did from the past, kahit over a year na. And I guess it's in the PISCES nature that they pull or swim away from their partner when there are confrontations and try to put a protection in themselves not to get hurt. For me kasi, once nagkapatawaran na or nagkabati na, that's the end of it. Di nako nagtatanim ng galit. I forgive & forget. Unfortunately, it's different on his part... even if he is not provoking any fights and arguments, bawal kA magtampo or mag-selos... even i know that he is very LOYAL. Siyempre minsan di natin maiwasan magtampo at magselos, halo na tayong mga filipina selosa talaga. Then, every time we are having small fights... I felt like we are drifting away from each other. Our sex life somehow deteriorated and connection. Once lang kami nag-agway every month... but for him IT IS TOO MUCH. He is overly sensitive... and he cries all the time kahit simpleng away lang.
Then, after our trip to Europe last January 2015. Little do I know na, unti-unti na pala nawawala ang feelings nya sakin caused by our small fights. He swam away... without me knowing it. He dropped the bombshell of breaking up with me a week after I came back to Philippines. At siyempre, nataranta ako... I booked my flight going back to HK the next day to see if I can save the relationship. SOBRANG SAKIT THAT HE TOLD ME NA WALA NA SYANG NARARAMDAMAN FOR ME!!!!! I ALMOST WANTED TO DIE RIGHT THEN AND THERE... I FELT LIKE MY WHOLE WORLD STUMBLED UPON ME. I FELT LIKE ALL MY DREAMS WERE SHATTERED. ALL THE WHILE, I WAS ALREADY LOOKING FORWARD NA SYA NA ANG MAKAKATULUYAN KO COS WE HAVE BEEN TALKING ABOUT FAMILY & KIDS AND GETTING MARRIED. GRABE ANG SAKIT SAKIT!!!!
I DONT KNOW HOW TO MOVE ON FROM HERE!!! It's too painful to bare!!!!!! GOD I NEED YOU!!! Please help me mend my relationship!!!!!! I don't know what to do... I can't function properly anymore. I feel like a walking dead person. I am totally broken and unmotivated to live. GOD HELP ME!!!
