hi girls,
since the past 2 days lagi ako na ako tulala, wala ako sa sarili ko.I feel lousy parang all of a sudden gusto ko nang gumi-give up..i had a dream then hangan pag gising ko ganito na pakiramdam ko.
ive been married for almost 10 years already ive two wonderful girls.
My hubby(being the only son of his parents) is a great guy naman walang bisyo and all hes a good family man he has provided us with all the things we need.
Since hes the only son his parents wanted him to marry a rich girl like them or must i say yung ka status daw nila...
well i guys kung destined kayo one another kahit harangin ka pa kayo ng kahit ano...walang makakapigil.
Our wedding day was a disaster...my mother in law made a scene na kesyo wala man lang daw kino-tribute sa kasal (which was not true)
she has poisoned my hubby's mind para magalit rin yung hubby ko sa family ko...anyway muntik na di matuloy ang kasal but then nag sorry at inako nalang nila lahat ng kasalanan and natuloy rin.
nagbitaw ng salita ang mother in law ko na ayaw niya magkaroon ng kahit anong relasyon sa mga magulang ko at mga kamag anak ko...ako lang daw ang tinatangap niya..
the first year of my marriage was hell...my parents tried their level best to reach out to them but wala parin...saakin nila sinusumbat ang mga nanyari na kesyo wala daw kwenta magulang ko etc...ive tolerated it...nasasaktan ako but di nalang ako umiimik.
the worst part of it my dear husband was just listening to it...he has never ever (til date) have defended me...masakit because wala akong kakampi..i asked my hubby he said he cannot go agaisnt his parents.
Everytime my parents would send me things they would tell me kung may respeto ka sa asawa mo ibabalik mo yan! they dont want me to accept anything from my parents, even when i gave birth, my daughter is also the first grandchild sa family so naturally excited mama ko she sent me so many things...guess what? binabalik nanaman niya.
my side has done evrything pero sobrang bitter si mother in law.
fastforward....
all the while ginawa ko gusto nila...ive cut my relation with my relatives,
my parents has never seen/been to my house
naawa nga ako kasi namatay na dad ko ni di man lang nya nakita kung saan ako nakatira
I bring my kids to my moms palce maybe ones a month lang yung pa pahirapan.. I hate asking permission.
so many things has happen in this family for the past ten years but i stood by them,when my hubby got sick i took care of him, their business has gone down i stood by them ... ive followed their ways i ve given them the respect and love
(they dont even deserve)...lahat ginawa ko but i Know my mother in law still has that bitterness within her.
She saw my relative last week and she started bombarding her again...parang fresh na fresh pa sa kanya yung nangayari nung kasal namin..she blamed my relatives for all the bad things that happened to them..
after that parang kung nakikita ko siya para akong na so-suffocate...nasusuka ako sa ugali niya ... .Ive not been talking to her since two days...kasi punong puno na ako sa ugali niya
my parents always told me to fight back otherwise aabusuhin ka nila and sad to say this whats happening..
mga sis ano ba dapat kung gawin? I cant get any support fom my hubby...He told me kahit mali sila he has to stand by them
im so sad
