my last so-called relationship 3 or 4 years ago is the exact definition of "it's complicated".akala ko may feelings din siya para sa akin.we do things that couples do,like watch a movie,go on dates,etc... pero hindi pala.the feeling isn't mutual.of course,I was crushed.I was crushed to the point I didn't go to work for 2 days (officemates kami). ayoko na ma-experience yun....
my first relationship: my ex was a nice,smart,funny guy,pero super nasakal ako sa kanya. "you cannot do this", "you cannot do that","you're not allowed to party","what are you wearing?",etc etc... he is 2 years older,at plano niya by 24 SIYA ay kasal na siya (22 ako nun) it got me tired,and I am not proud of what I did,I cheated on him,in turn he cheated on me too... well noong nagkabukingan we talked about it with matching iyakan,but he forgave me,I forgave him .. but then,we just grew apart because of our plans sa buhay.he wanted to settle down early;I wanted to enjoy my life without responsibilities.
second relationship: I was egged on by my boss to give a chance to this guy na nababalitang super like ako..pero di ko naman siya type.long story short,pinagbigyan kong maging "kami" pero super pilit para sa akin.di ko naman kaya i-drag ang sarili ko sa relationship namin,kaya I ended it na lang. plus,this time ay may communication pa kami ni first bf;we were still tiptoeing if we want to give it another shot.again,hindi talaga nag-work out.
third relationship: super,super seloso.kahit na nag-migrate na siya sa new zealand,grabe pa rin ang pagka-seloso.what's the point if he doesn't trust me? so ayan hiwalayan..
in between: I had a fair share of a married guy trying and a guy living in with his partner trying to make me their kabit (NO WAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)
so there: love is complicated,and I don't want to get another headache.
