this should have been my happiest month...my wedding :( {Journal to Recovery}

[petlovah]

@ sis superboink === in that situation, sis, di ako makarelate kasi nga so weird of me dahil hindi ako galit sa ex ko. kaya nga I felt it made my moving on harder kasi di man lang ako nagalit. If I could get my self to be angry with him sana, then I could somehow turn it to positive para magkaroon ako ng drive uli sa buhay ko. pero yun nga, ni hindi man lang ako nagalit eh, kaya I ended up hopeful pa. Pero POV ko, let God do the rightful thing nalang. Oo, nagkasala sila sa atin, sinaktan nila tayo pero kay God sila mananagot. more often than not talaga, parang sarap magrevenge or to take matters in our  own hands. pero the sweetest "revenge" is in God's way on making them learn their lesson.

i can fully relate dito. kahit ako walang anger na nageexist, maybe it existed peroo hindi ko talaga makuhang magalit. its been months since he cheated pero siguro by the grace of God, hindi ko din nararamdaman na magalit. Bahala na Siya

[iwannabeasupermodel]

nakakaiyak naman story mo sis.

[finally]

im glad Holli May and other sis dito na nakakamove on na.
good thing di pa kayo nakasal. let me share my youngest sister's message to my other sib who's marriage is really chaotic

" ikaw kasi te eh pinilit mo pa ang di para sayo, di ba dati pinagdasal mo na sana ibigay na sya sayo"
brief history nag cheat na yung hubs nya when they were still bf/gf,nagreconcile then they got married this year (Feb). last aug my sister flew to her hubs place in the hope to start a new family, a week after gusto ng umuwi, kasi may babae n [textspeak!] si hubs worst ayaw hiwalayan yung girl pero ayaw din mkipaghiwalay sa sis ko. may schedule si hubs kay other womn, si hubs still hugs , kiss and stil force my sis to do it with him. speaking of capital letter K, umalis sya dun sa place ng hubs nya pero ayun bumalik ulit.
we are willing to send her money  so she ca support her needs if she decided to stay in that country or send her ticket if she wants to go home. pero ayun sa aswa bumlik.
i dont know what to tell her anymore so i jut stop saying things to her. ill just pray na sana God will guide her way.
sorry for venting out , its frustrating.
so there you GIRLS ARE REALLY LUCKY!

[iwannabeasupermodel]

^hay sis. parang may friend ako na ganyan. pero bf/gf pa lang sila. i never understand why she stays. all i can do i guess is just to support her. lahat na ng explanation ginawa ko na, but still. i guess it's really different if you're the one who's in that situation. same reasoning (i guess) why some battered wives are still with their husbands despite the beating.

[petlovah]

^^thanks for posting the story. now, i realized how important what my friend said to me to just ask God to give me the right person.

"ikaw kasi te eh pinilit mo pa ang di para sayo, di ba dati pinagdasal mo na sana ibigay na sya sayo"

i must admit, i have always been praying that he will come back and then get married after even if he had cheated on me a lot of times already. a friend once said to say 'thank you' to God even if it's not what i wanted because soon you will realize that God is more right than we honestly think. months have already passed and i must say, i haven't moved on yet kahit na i go out on dates.

[finally]

^ those words came from my 14 year old sister , close kasi sila ng kpatid ko na yun.
Ive been through a chaotic relationship myself,  ive said goodbye to him countless of times but yet i always found myself always available for him, until such time i became the 3rd party. eto lang nag stuck sa utak ko when he said this " mabuti pa wala na tayong communication".
months after he kept calling me , but i had too much, if id take his call i might fall for him again , so i kept ignoring it , i don't care if he spend lots of money speaking with my voice mail.
pero kahit di ko nasagot calls nya still affected ako i got drunk cried and before i knew it i was having an affair which ended me being a single mom.
last july i saw him again , i was with my baby, he was with is gf and niece, i'm not sure if he saw us but one thing i'm sure of  i'm glad everything had happened.
i'm happy being a single mom to a very adorable kid, looking back i wouldn't change anything. everything i went thru helped me to overcome the stress of being pregnant in a close knit community ( cruise ship) with people buzzing, prying the identity of my child's  father.
bongga ko nakauwi ako ( 7month on the way)ng walang nakakaalam ng identity ng dad ni baby.
i'm not proud of the affair i had but i'm grateful i have my baby now.
btw i've kept the friendship with his parents, andun family nya during my baby's christening

[fReAk_Me_BaBy]

hay kakasad naman mga stories nyo.. pero atleast lahat kayo nag try magmove on & prayer talaga makakatulong to ease the pain.. lift up everything to God and just trust Him..

i know time will come magiging happy na kyo & you will learn to let go of your past & open your heart again.

God bless =)

[holli_may]

@ jorgedatcom === at least ikaw two weeks mo lang pinag "mourn" yung nangyari and the good thing is you were able to somehow go on with your life na. regardless of the gender talaga, to be left alone or to be abandoned is like feeling the rag being pulled right under your feet. You really have no choice but to fall flat on your butt, but pwede namang tumayo and mamagpag diba? Bro (awkward! nasanay kasi ako sa "sis" pero di naman applicable sayo ), i can relate sa sinabi mo na you found no other good looking girl aside from your ex. Well, ang sa akin naman is not about the "face" but instead I think I found no other guy who makes me feel comfortable and secured  just like how I felt with my ex. Right now, I began to entertain friends' advices to start dating. But pag makita ko lang ang guy or to talk over the phone or to simply exchange messages...if i hear that tiny voice na "wag nalang" then I really don't date. Siguro we're still not over what we were "familiar with". But I believe na kaya natin 'to bro!

[ysa.belle]

^musta ka na sis?

[jorgedatcom]

@holli_may === nag pm ako sayo. hehe. There a saying "Keep Moving Forward" from the movie Meet the Robinsons. Try to watch it and maybe it will motivate us to keep moving forward. I definitely agree with you that we're still ot over with our ex's because we were so emotionally attach to them and to the relationship or bond. There is also saying "Nasanay lang ako na anjan ka, Masasanay din ako na wala ka". Have a nice day to you. Hope we can find some time to chat with our life. ^^

[holli_may]

@ sisses finally / iwannabeasuppermoddel / petlovah === i guess the bottom line nyan mga sis is not just because baka "love" pa ni girl si guy but because that feeling of "familiarity". Kasi di ba nga minsan mga sis kahit aminado na natin sa sarili natin na di na mabuti ang mga pangyayari o ang nangyayari eh dedma pa rin tayo kasi we're scared of change. And anjan pa rin yung hope na things will be better din. Hard din kasi mag let go sa isang bagay na nakasanayan na natin eh and to start anew is scary and aminin na natin nakaka-insecure. Honestly, I felt insecurity din with what happened sa akin. lalo na pag naglalakad ako then ang kasabayan ko pati ang kasalubong ko are couples...I can't help but say to myself "me ka-holding hands din ako dati eh". pero nga just like the puzzle, kahit na we think it's the right picture or the right piece pero pag hindi nagfit eh me mali talaga. I learned this from my  niece who threw her puzzles in frustration kasi she believed yun daw ang tamang piece. kasi when she looked at it from afar parang yun yung tama na picture pero when she tried to fit the pieces together, di talaga swak. When I saw her threw her puzzles, I saw myself in her. Coz I was her sa mga nagdaang araw in regards to what happened between me and ex. I think and believe that "it" was right pero since it didn't fit so di talaga siya tama. Sana everyone (mapa boy or gurl man), whenever we see na things are getting out of proportion na, then we would have the courage to think things over and decide what's right and to accept the truth regardless how painful it is.

[holli_may]

@ sis ysa.belle === hello, sis. eto...andito na sa new place ko kaw musta ka din naman? ok ka lang ba? what happened sa avatar mo?

[ysa.belle]

wow! new place. good for you sis.

ako? hay naku. katatapos lang ng problem sa lovelife ko. disappointed lang kaya ganyan ang avatar ko. sa love thread, andun yung nangyari. pero as of now okay na naman...

[ysa.belle]

http://www.femalenetwork.com/girltalk/index.php?topic=230425.160

heto sis, yung thread na ito halos naubos ko...

[ruthieteezle]

Sis Holli! I'm happy okay2 ka na! Ikaw na rin nag-aadvice sayo. totoo talagang what doesn't kill you makes you stronger. 

Sis ysa_belle, nakita nga kita sa ibang thread, sorry di ko pa nabasa story mo. si kisslover nabasa ko dun.. haha. epal yun. anyways, sana okay ka na 

[ysa.belle]

^hi sis. thread 11 ng love thread ang anaubos ko. si kisslover naman ang pasaway sa thread 12 ngayon. as of now, okay naman... thank you!

[holli_may]

sis, so sad to hear what happened. actually i read na the earlier thread pero di ko muna matapos ngayon...need to finish something dito sa work, sis. will reply to you ha or might as well will PM you. Sorry sis, hectic kasi today

do take care, sis...we'll chat soon

[jorgedatcom]

@holli_may === nag pm ako sayo. hehe. There a saying "Keep Moving Forward" from the movie Meet the Robinsons. Try to watch it and maybe it will motivate us to keep moving forward. I definitely agree with you that we're still ot over with our ex's because we were so emotionally attach to them and to the relationship or bond. There is also saying "Nasanay lang ako na anjan ka, Masasanay din ako na wala ka". Have a nice day to you. Hope we can find some time to chat with our life. ^^

[KissLover]

@ruthieteezl - hi ruth!  muhkang balak mo rin ako isumpa ah?! huwag naman po parang awa mo na at gusto ko rin magmahal ng tapat. 

bat hanggang dito nakikita ko name ko? 

[holli_may]

@ sis ruthieteezle === agree sis God's ways of telling you His message can be seen anywhere and anytime talaga.