Hi sissies,
I live in the middle east for almost 10 years now, I never dated a foreigner here, I worked in a british company before, real estate, dami brit/aussie na guy agents, never liked one, or crush, guwapo yes, but yung spark? wala talaga, so I settled sa pag chase sa ex kong filipino na oh well, ayaw naman niya. For the longest time na hoping ako eh, wala na talaga siguro. So i always pray, and pray more, na sana mawala na yung pain and matanggap ko na completely.
After ko sa real estate job, 8 yrs na ko now sa nalipatan ko na company, multi-cultural ito and almost all nationalities eh present sa workplace namen, but again for the last 8yrs, walang spark ang mga guys na foreigner, all continents! haha weird noh? May mga nag try, asians, arabs, europeans, south american, pero hindi talaga sila for me.
Then eto na, sa dami dami ng lahi, isa pa sa pinaka hate ko and alam ko racist ako, and ok lang kung ma-judge ako as such, grabe din kasi ako sa kanila. EGYPTIAN pa nagugustuhan ko, 5 years na kami as workmates, not even friends, hi-hello-how are you lang kami always sa minsan na pagkikita. But just suddenly, one shift together, naka feel ako ng iba, eh super silent din ng guy, nagkaka-gf but masyado maselan eh, madami nagkaka gusto sa kanya, even from other department kasi may looks tlaga and tall, his face is not typical arab na matapang, soft ang features, hindi mo nga alam na yan ang lahi nya. Sa work, mostly european girls pa ang flirt sa kanya, parang deadm lang siya. I just don't know kung after work, ano sila. I thought he might be gay, but nakakasama ko siya, and he might have started with me before like striked a convo about my personal life but again lagi siguro nya feel na tablado, or friendzoned, so never had a chance to really talk and get to know each other.
Now, we started talking after that last shift we had together, he saw me reading articles about a certain topic online, after our shift, I called him and asked kung pwede secret lang yung topic na nakita nya i was reading. He started from that, and he said If he can be of help, and he would really wanted me to tell him everything, I can be his friend while dealing with what I am going through and he asked me to promise him that I consider him a person to talk to from now, He is very makulit na, and I felt na ayaw nya ibaba yung phone, yun din ang na fefeel ko, gusto ko pa siyang kausap pero, it is just not right, all aspects, society, religion, race, culture! Super hindi pwede!
Well, I know I jumped into conclusion right away! feeling ba ako? hahaha Now, 3 days ng hindi nag memessage, he was supposed to be off for 6days and travelling home, but he cancelled and told me, if ever my overtime sa work, he will come and we'll talk daw. Well, i dont know kung nalito lang siya but he came for overtime sa days na off ako, or may be yun lang ang overtime na offered? hahaha kaloka c kuya.
Nakaka praning! Help me analyze please.
TIA
