im supposed to post this experience to my birth club sisses for feb-mar 2010, but sabi ko baka mastress lang sila pag nabasa nila un nangyari sa kin..so dito ko na lang po ishare...
my ordeal started sept 11, i called my OB informing her im having an asthma attack, i took all first aid meds for it pero nandun pa rin un attack. she then advised me to go the hospital already for some steriods shot to stop my attack. i was admitted and they started iv meds for my asthma. by the time i was admitted and was given iv meds, i keep on praying na hinde magkaron ng effect kay baby un mga meds ko. after 2 days around 2am, my water bag broke. since this is my first pregnancy i thought i just peed because of too much coughing, pero naisip ko rin baka water bag ko rin un. come morning around 9am my OB came, and i told her "doc pls check my water bag..." and she confirmed indeed my water bag broke... i was in shocked really in shocked! tears followed after and my OB was trying to calm me down... i was immediately rushed to DR for further monitoring and un dextrose ko pinamadali un drip to help the baby magaccumalate ng amniotic fluid ulit...that night my OB did a thorough ultrasound with my mom and sister inside the room, she honestly told us, that my baby has only 20% chance of survival. and we hold on to that praying and hoping my case will be included in that 20%, that my water bag will re-seal and my baby can produce again amniotic fluid, we are asking for a miracle!
over a week has passed still in the hospital my asthma was cured, and my baby is still inside me fighting. her heartbeat didn't go below 150, sabi ni OB ang galing ng baby mo lumalaban, kaya laban din tayo! since OK na un asthma ko, i asked my OB if i can go home already, sa bahay na lang ako magpapagaling, my OB agreed but have to follow her special home instructions due to my situation and she insisted that i need to see her every after three days to check my baby's condition.
i was discharged from the hospital sept 22. wala pang 24hrs i was again rushed to the hospital, sept 23 around noon, i have an urge to go to the bathroom, when i sat down the toilet, i was screaming, meron lalabas, i immediately stand up at lumabas na si baby ng kusa, without pain... without blood at all... i lost my precious baby girl...
ang sakit tangapin, lalo na unexpected itong pregnancy na ito, pcos ako, i stopped taking fertility meds for over a year na rin, kaya when i found out im pregnant without doing anything special, it was really an answered prayer indeed. im blaming myself for what happened to her.. kung sana mas naging maingat ako hinde sya mawawala sa kin... she's my first baby.. and first apo din sana ng family ko...
now im praying again...hoping pagbalik ni husband He will give us again another blessing...
ang nakakagaan lang ng loob, we have now angel in heaven watching over us... haaay buhay!
