How to deal with this pain alone?

[misao]

agree ako dyan yellow_bell. yung mga ganyang guys na hindi alam kung anong gusto, they don't deserve anyone. kung ngayon bago pa kayo minsan maiintindihan mo pa eh. pero pag ilang years na... naman. how can they be in charge of anything. so again, be strong. i-resist mo lahat ng temptations o awa, kahit anong feeling pa yan para sa kanya. focus on yourself. my mom always tells me, i have to learn to love myself first... ganun din balak ko, parang sa yo. aayusin ko muna yung buhay ko. pag maayos na lahat, i hope everything else will follow... sayang nandito ko sa u.s. balitaan nyo na lang ako ha.

[yellow_bell]

that's true, love yourself more talaga. 
ay sayang.. ok lang yan sis..  next time. hehe

sis lizette, sa makati ako.. 

[xiansmom]

kaya mo yan,atleast nakagawa kana ng first step,
next step na....moving on,move forward mas ok
wag ka magmukmuk,lumabas ka..mamasyal with friends
o family.
sis kahit gaano kaapagod makinig yung friends mo sa drama mo,
pag nakikita nila kailangan mo sila,
pwede mo pa din sila lapitan,makikinig pa din sila sayo.
kung sino mas close mo sa family,mas maganda kung
sa kanya mo maopen mas kilala ka nila,
mas alam nila pano ka damayan.
tuloytuloy mo lang yan,alam ko mahirap at masakit
pero dahan dahan malalagpasan mo rin yan.
pray lang,gudluck....

[holli_may]

i didnt forsee this will also happen to me. we were together for 2 1/2 years. he was my everything. he was ideal. almost perfect. hindi ko alam ano nangyari, bigla na lang, he told me wala na siya nararamdaman for me. kasi na accumulate daw ang mga masakit na nangyari in the past na hindi niya ma overcome. hindi na daw niya ko naaappreciate at hindi na niya nakikita future niya with me. ang sakit kasi ako ipinaglaban ko siya pati pride binigay ko. akala ko siya na. hay... bigla na lang ako itinapon ng ganun. ang hirap kasi sa kanya umikot mundo ko. hindi kasi ako magala, hindi ako magimik. at wala akong friends masyado dito sa manila. sobrang nagunaw mundo ko. hindi ko alam pano ako sa mga susunod na araw. bakit ganun? pinanghahawakan ko na lang ang sinabi niya na walang 3rd party. mukha naman siyang sincere. ang hirap talaga kasi ako lang mag isa dito wala ako family kaya pagdating ng bahay wala ako makausap. wala makasama sa pagkain. iisang opisina pa kami. 2 floors lang pagitan. ang hirap mag let go.

i can so relate to this, sis. these were the exact words he said before he left. na there was no 3rp party involved and that he's not ready for the commitment pala. but i have the gut feeling na there was another girl involved. hindi man niya aminin pero minsan lang nagkakamali instinct nating mga girls. Nalaman ko lang din sa previous supervisor namin na he no longer love me na daw kaya hindi na niya ko binalikan. worse pa, we were living in the same place na, invested on things together, started a business, and scheduled a wedding na. then all of a sudden he abandoned me. i admire you pa nga eh kasi ilang days lang  and you're okay na, ako now lang ako start na naging okay  after several months and after pa lang i left our apartment. my story's on the other thread, actually. and buti ka nga kasi since you worked in the same company, you have this opportunity to satisfy yourself seeing him being miserable. at least konting consuelo sa sarili mo diba na he really made a wrong decision. let's admit it, it would help us move on talaga  kasi healing siya sa ego natin after we were left behind. sana i would have that opportunity din to know that he regreted abandoning me.  you inspire me sis without you knowing it and i thank you for that. so glad i came across this thread din   about the meet up...count me in naman

[koalaa]

^sis yellow_bell were on the same boat

were almost 3 years na sana, ok naman 2 years namin,nasanay na ko sakanya, kaso bigla syang nagbago, as in nawala na lahat nag iba na lahat sakanya, because of his Bad Influence friends, I tried give him time and space, hindi kami nagpakiramdaman or even nag kita, for 1 year. As in No Communication at all after 1 year Binalikan ko sya, I tried to convince him to make our relationship work, nakiusap ako sakanya kung pwede pa namin ibalik [textspeak!] dati pero ginawa nya lang joke, sabi pa nya "masyado ka kasing seryoso!" ang sakit sobra:'( alam ng lahat from the start kung gano ko sya ka mahal, and how i down and sacrifice my pride to make him back tapos ganun lang lahat tapos makikita ko nung tinanung ng friends nya kung what happen sabi nya "wala lang daw un" ang dami na nyang girls, before kc di ko naisip na magiging ganun sya, nawala na lahat ng promises nya na he will never live me ang sakit sobra. But despite of all the pain, I still love him

i dont know what to do, di ko alam gagawin ko if ever magkita ulit kami, masyado akong na down sa lahat ng sinabi nya.

[koalaa]

ang sakit mga sis, my friends are worried and i cant ex-plane to them whats going on to me right now, nahihiya na ako mag open sa kanila kasi awang awa na sila sa akin, i just don't know what to do, i still love him despite of all the pain that he caused, i still wanted to tell him how much i love him, i still want to text him, to remind him to eat on time to behave always,   I wish to wake up that I am no longer hang up on him, sana talaga mawala na feelings ko sakanya.

[jasive51]

sis koalaa, try to forgive him..all you have to do first ilabas lahat ng sama ng loob, galit or whatever it is iiyak mo lang lahat..then try to talk to someone na close sa yo..kasi need mo pa rin un may mapagsasabihan..pray and pray...try mo muna wag makibalita sa mga closest friend nyo at ierase mo muna nos. nia kahit memorize mo pa un pero you don't have to change a new one...later on makakasanayan mo din na wala na siya..be positive and love your self more.. 

[koalaa]

sis jasive, i already forgive him, despite sa lahat ng mga masasakit na ginawa at sinabi nya, still, nag f-flash back yung good memories namin, the moment he said I Love you, he promise IL be he's forever, the way he crack jokes, his effort, his time just to be with me, i miss him so much (it hurts)

[lizzete]

i can so relate to this, sis. these were the exact words he said before he left. na there was no 3rp party involved and that he's not ready for the commitment pala. but i have the gut feeling na there was another girl involved. hindi man niya aminin pero minsan lang nagkakamali instinct nating mga girls. Nalaman ko lang din sa previous supervisor namin na he no longer love me na daw kaya hindi na niya ko binalikan. worse pa, we were living in the same place na, invested on things together, started a business, and scheduled a wedding na. then all of a sudden he abandoned me. i admire you pa nga eh kasi ilang days lang  and you're okay na, ako now lang ako start na naging okay  after several months and after pa lang i left our apartment. my story's on the other thread, actually. and buti ka nga kasi since you worked in the same company, you have this opportunity to satisfy yourself seeing him being miserable. at least konting consuelo sa sarili mo diba na he really made a wrong decision. let's admit it, it would help us move on talaga  kasi healing siya sa ego natin after we were left behind. sana i would have that opportunity din to know that he regreted abandoning me.  you inspire me sis without you knowing it and i thank you for that. so glad i came across this thread din   about the meet up...count me in naman

ang hirap naman ng nangyari sayo sis..naku grabe kapal talaga ng muka ng mga lalake na yan

sana matuloy yan meet up..sama ko

[holli_may]

sige sis, organize natin yan... why not sa sweldo sa nov 15? sino ba dito free ng monday?

[ashleyhan]

sis jasive, i already forgive him, despite sa lahat ng mga masasakit na ginawa at sinabi nya, still, nag f-flash back yung good memories namin, the moment he said I Love you, he promise IL be he's forever, the way he crack jokes, his effort, his time just to be with me, i miss him so much (it hurts) 


oh my god, this is exactly how i feel...i can sooo relate to this one.. though wala namn cyang nasabing masakit but his actions kinda strike me hard

[jasive51]

kasi part na sila ng memories natin eh so talaga babalik at babalik un..acceptance na lang talaga need natin...

[lizzete]

sige sis, organize natin yan... why not sa sweldo sa nov 15? sino ba dito free ng monday?

ako lage ko available tara mga sis para mameet ko kayo hihi

[yellow_bell]

mga sis! thank you sa mga nag agree sa post ko. sorry kung di ako nagparamdam for a week. isang linggo ako nag leave sa office at umuwi ng probinsiya. gae na, kelan tayo meet? nov. 15 is ok with me. yey! new friends! 

[gurlzat03]

oops! sama ko jan! pero night lang ako available 'pag monday, may work kasi ako 'pag day time...

[yellow_bell]

ako din night lang. may work ako, normal office hrs 8am-5pm.. game? where mga sis and who's joining? san pla area niyo? ako kasi makati.. 

[yellow_bell]

mga sisses.. up for this thread.. how are you all been doing lately?

[holli_may]

go ako sa nov 15 makati din ako sis gusto nyo ba MOA tayong lahat para mas airy ang ambiance or mas convenient sa lahat ang makati? pls confirm nga pala kung sino-sino ang mga dadalo para ma-organize na natin 'tong mas maigi

[yellow_bell]

sis holli_may, if puro from makati pwede din greenbelt. mga sis na interested, suggest din kayo place or let us know your area para we can set it sa place na convenient sa lahat. game ako sa 15.

[yellow_bell]

the first time i posted here, i sounded so strong and so eager to move on. But in fact, I'm masking my loneliness with fake laughs. I am so sad. I feel so alone. I think I've been crying every night again.

You see, it's been 3 years since I transferred here in manila-- alone. But thru all those years, my ex was with me and everything wasn't so hard. He was with me thru godd and bad. But now, I have no one. Naiiyak ako kasi pagod na ko kumain mag isa. Pagdating ng bahay ni wala ako makausap. I dont have so much friends here kasi hindi ako magala, hindi rin magimik. Madalas nasa bahay lang ako.

I am really hurting. I miss him. Sometimes I feel like texting him and ask him to see me. I want him back. Pero kung utak ko lang masusunod, ayoko na sana.. Pero di ko talaga kaya..

I'm sorry mga sis I just have to vent out. I would have wanted to say encouraging posts here but I cant because I cant even convince myself to be strong. I feel so weak. Grabe, never in my life I felt this lonely.

Sana fast forward na.. Sana maka move on na ko ng tuluyan.. Kung di man siya ang para sa akin, sana maalis na yung nararamdaman ko for him. Sana makalimot na ko. Isang buwan na ang nakaraan, pero masakit pa rin.