my first pregnancy was traumatic, i was induced then by clomid and after few months, i thought it will be fine, but on my 25th week, which was on 6th month to, i think.... by that time you can all feel the movements of your baby, but unfortunately, i havent felt mine that time, i did observed it for another day and decided the following day to go on check up sa mga lying in clinic na may ultrasound na cheaper sa doctor ko... kasi i never thought of anything bad will happen, until on the ultrasound room, the doctor told me to after i received the report of my uv to go immediately to my ob, i was so worried then because they never told me anything about the uv, when i received the report, i read there "no fetal heartbeat, intrauterine fetal demise" pinanghinaan ako ng loob, immediately i ran to my ob's hospital and took another uv, pero dun inexplain nila sa akin na wala na nga talaga, wala na heartbeat, and they asked me what happen kun nagkasakit ba ako, kun may tinake ba akong gamot na di ko nasabi sa doctor ko or something, hindi lang ako ng hindi, paglabas ko di ko na napigilan tumulo luha ko at tumakbo sa husband ko at umiyak sa shoulder nya...
naalala ko pa nun binigyan ako pampahilab para ideliver ko yun baby ko, sobrang sakit sa akin kasi nasa ospital ako to have a normal delivery pero patay naman ang iuuwi kong baby, ang sakit nun.... sobra,,
that was July 17 nun nakunan ako of 2009, then i got pregnant again by clomid induced by december and my son was born July 24, healthy and is now 22 months old.. ngayon im pregnant without the use of clomid or any fertility pill, im on my 13th week, im praying so hard for the safety of my pregnancy...
kaya sa lahat, wag na wag kayo mawawalan ng pag asa, ako nun akala ko katapusan ko na, akala ko galit sa akin ang Diyos, pero hindi pala, kasi it made me stronger and it made me feel na God is always there na wala siyang ibibigay na pagsubok na di natin kakayanin, oo, mafefeel natin na parang pinabayaan nya tayo pero dont loose hope kasi there's always a reason kun bakit kun ano man yon, it is for our own good... like me, ive learned na baka kun sakaling mabuhay yun panganay ko baka may mas malala pa syang sakit na mas dudurog sa puso ko kaya God didnt let it happen... and the fact na maraming taong nagmamahal sa akin and na ang husband ko andyan sakin di ako sisihin o paparamdaman na may pagkukulang ako.... basta it gave us a great lesson.. gang ngayon kasama pa din namin sa prayers ang eldest ko, along the prayers of our safety....