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jvyjvydapdap

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Random Questions
« on: March 18, 2021, 07:13:47 pm »
Hi guys. I do really want to ask help from you. I've been dealing with this for the last 10 years. Sobrang pinapatay nako ng curiosity ko. It started when I was in Grade 6. Elementary, I am now 22 years old. 12 pako nong nagumpisang mangyare to.
Lets start pram da top, by the way, I had this classmate in elementary which is our class valedictorian. And then nagumpisa yong pagiging magkaaway namin when this happend. I know its gross but I saw him na umiihi kasi HAHAHa sa likod ng room namin though I didnt see anything. Magmula noon, binablack mail niya ko sa mga kaklase ko na manyak ako blahblah. I know its so childish and all that. After that, lagi kaming nag-aaway. May mga times na kinukuha niya yong notes ko, yong bag, slippers ko tinatapon kung saan saan. Sa putikan tapos sinusunog niya yong mga notebook ko. Papampam ampota. Tapos pnagtatabi kami lagi sa upuan, inaasar kasi para kaming aso?t pusa. Nagsasakitan kami physically, lagi niyang dinadahilan na nagpapansin ako sakaniya which never happened. Feelingero. May mga times nga na kapag natutulog ako sa room kukuha siya ng tubig ibubuhos sakin or wiwisikan niya ko ng tubig. Kukunin niya yong song hits ko tapos ipapatubos, letche. Then yong phone ko kukunin niya dedelete niya lahat ng contacts and messages ko. Pero may times din nman na maayos yong utak niya, nong magkatabi kami noon. Nagbibigay siya ng sagot sa ilalim ng table. I admit I am not that physically attractive, not the kind of girl na lilingunin mo pabalik. But despite that he is my enemy, never niya naman akong sinabihan ng kung ano ano, nilait or what not. He never did that. Sometimes, pag npapaiyak niya ko yong nakikita mo sa mata niya na naaawa din siya. I don?t know with my instincts. I will also admit na masakit din ako magsalita kaya din siguro siya napipikon sakin kasi minsan sinasabihan ko siya ng ampon, kampon ni satanas or whatnot. And at that time, I am flirting with his brother, HAHA. Katext ko kuya niya, tas pag sinusulat ko yong birthdate ng kapatid niya sa mga notebook ko lagi niyang pinupunit. Always. Cellphone ko, halos sinira niya. Dumating din yong time na pinagalitan kami sa school, there was a time na sinabihan kami na kapag hindi pa titigil sa pagaaway. Maaalis siya sa pagiging valedictorian tas ako makikick out. Peste. Baka ako lagi kawawa. So freakn unfair! I saw him crying, I really wanted to comfort him pero wag nalang. Pero nagpatuloy pa rin nag anon, hanggang sa malapit na graduation namin may nakakita samin na nagsakitan kami tas sinumbong kami sa Tita ko. Eh maattitude yon, sinugod siya sa school and ever since that time hanggang nakagraduate kami eh hndi na kami nagpansinan. Nong naging kami ni kuya niya sa text lang yon. It was a revenge. I know that was bad. There was a time na siya yong nakasagot ng phone, and he noticed my voice. Akala ko non buking nako. But it never happened.. Nakachat ko siya last 2017, yung kaklase ko dati. I guess, okay naman na kami even if walang sorry na nsabi sa isat isat. What bothers me the most is for the past 10 years halos lagi ko siyang napapanaginipan even if I am not thinking about him because I had his brother and I am deeply inlove with someone for 6 years which is not him. I am just really curios, bakit kaya? Can you give me some of your advices, so that I can reflect into it. Hindi ko talaga siya iniisip I swear pero halos lagi nalang.
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