Jessy Mendiola recalled her battle with bulimia and binge-eating disorder in her Instagram post dated March 5.
The 26-year-old actress and fitness enthusiast wrote, "Losing/maintaining weight has always been a struggle for me. It's so hard to be in tip-top shape especially when a lot of people try to put you down and tell you how you're supposed to look. Sometimes you're too thin, sometimes too fat."
She also uploaded photos of her finess journey in the last few years, admitting that she initially had "unrealistic body goals" as motivation to work out and maintain a healthy diet.
"I used to hate my thighs and arms. I would always kill myself at the gym just to achieve unrealistic body goals and starve myself just to reach my weight goal, 100lbs..."
She said there was a time she felt so down that she let herself go.
"I was depressed and heartbroken at that time (2013) and I gained 25lbs... I still kept pushing myself to work out every day.
"I suffered from Bulimia and B.E.D (Binge Eating Disorder), desperate to lose weight in a short period of time—from 135lbs I went down to 103lbs... I starved myself just to lose unwanted weight... to look 'perfect' but I was so unhappy. I couldn't live my life the way I wanted to. I was usually weak and 'lutang' because I didn’t have enough nutrients in my body."
According to bulimia.com, bulimia is a mental illness characterized by periods of binge-eating followed by some kind of purging behavior usually done via vomiting, fasting, laxative abuse, diet pills, exercise or diuretics.
On the other hand, Australia's National Eating Disorders Collaboration characterizes binge eating disorder as "regular episodes of binge eating accompanied by feelings of loss of control, and in many cases, guilt, embarrassment" without the purging behavior.
According to Jessy, her stuggle with eating disorders and depression lasted until 2017.
"This kept going until 2016 when I suddenly gained all the weight back and eventually hit my heaviest weight, 140lbs. Because of all the hate online, the struggle with myself kept going until 2017..."
The actress, who now maintains a 24-inch waistline, said it all changed in 2018 with the help of her nutritionist Nadine Tencgo, fitness coach Kat Geronimo-Garcia, and boyfriend Luis Manzano.
"It was only last year when I started changing my workouts and eating habits with the help of @bodybymamakat & @nadinetengcoand of course to @luckymanzano. He made me feel better every time I felt so insecure about myself and he helped me recover from my depression and made me feel loved every single day."
Jessy noted how overcoming depression helped her maintain a healthy lifestyle.
She wrote, "Sorry for this long caption. I guess all I’m trying to say is, it doesn’t matter how long it takes for you to find inner peace and whatever works for you, just stick to that.
"I am far from perfect but this is who I am and this is how I love myself. I love myself enough to eat what I want to make myself feel good. I love myself enough to move everyday because I want to live my life as best as possible. I know it’s hard sometimes but you just gotta stand back up and try again."
Toward the end of her post, Jessy left an encouraging message to her followers who are also experiencing the same.
"To whoever is reading this, accept yourself and work hard to be the best version of yourself.
"You do YOU."
This story originally appeared on Pep.ph.
* Minor edits have been made by the Femalenetwork.com editors.