I'll share my story:
I've been straight all my life, no history whatsoever of liking any girl or lesbian. I had boyfriends. I was just straight, the ordinary, typical kikay girl!
She has been straight all her life, too. No history whatsoever of liking any girl or lesbian. She had boys (not boyfriend, though) but no functional relationship ever.
We were office friends. Then there came a time when I just felt that I like her. really like her. But I tried to dismiss the idea. I justified the feeling as being happy with a friend, that's all. Then the more I denied it, the more I got hooked. I wanted to see her everyday and talk to her. As time went by, seeing her and talking to her became difficult. You know the feeling of talking to your crush, di ba medyo awkward. Naging ganun yung pakiramdam ko. Everytime we agreed to meet at the parking area to smoke, kinakabahan ako sa elevator pa lang. Pag nakita ko na sya na nag aantay sakin dun, lalong lumalakas ang kaba ko.
The next thing I knew, I even thought about her kahit nasa bahay ako. Akala ko sa office lang. Pero over the weekend I would always think of her and wonder what she was doing. Nahihiya ako i-text sya just for the sake of texting. Then I would find myself checking her FB. Then for the longest time, I was posting "emo" quotes on FB. So I told myself, something's wrong with me. This is not me. I cried. Hindi ko kasi matanggap sa sarili ko yung nangyayari. This went on for more than a year.
To cut the long story short, I unintentionally let her know what I was going through. At first, she was just this friend who was giving me advice that I would get over it. She was shocked, yes, but she never became indifferent or cold. Sabi nya she's not against gays or lesbians. Open minded daw sya. She said, nothing would change as far as our friendship was concerned. Basta I would get over it daw. So I started the process of moving on by changing my work schedule and not talking to her unless it was work-related. Then as I was on the moving on process, sya naman yung naconfuse. Haha!
Now, we recently celebrated our 15th month together and for me, it is the best relationship that i got myself into. I have a bestfriend and lover in one. I think what made it easier for us is that we both do not have any plan of getting married, or shall we say being tied to a man forever. I never saw myself being married even when I was a kid. I just want to be alone. She felt the same. So we kinda clicked on that. Pahabol:
During my confused moment, I posted the same question here on GT sa Girl to Girl relationship thread but I used a different username because I was afraid that people who personally know me would find out about it on GT. But right now, I'm using my real username as I post this and I know some Gters here offline and I don't care if they find out. I'm happy. With all the trials and love the past year.