i gave birth to an angel

[Mel0204]

haileybaby, i backread to your story, and, haaay. I understand what you mean, that your thoughts are, at this time, your baby would be this big, you would be doing this. I catch myself staring at other families with baby girls, I can't help myself. I think to myself, my baby would be 4 months old now, holding her head up like that, etc. I would like to start a support group soon, but right now, too painful parin I think. (Which is the reason I think nobody sets up one). How can I help if I can't even help myself yet right? Sana someday we can all meet each other in person nga.

mamapeew my thoughts exactly. It's easy to understand kase if a toddler/child dies, people can relate to that easier. But with the loss of a baby or a miscarriage, the common perception is, wala pa naman, you didn't bond yet. Well, we have bonded with them, with our dreams for them, with ideas of how we will raise them, what will they look like. I feel that losing a baby nga throws off your perception of life, because babies are not supposed to die. Older people are. So it's hard for people to understand that. Backreading this thread, I can relate to soooo many things. I think it's the ONE place online for Filipina moms who lost their babies. Also, I still cry also when I visit my baby at the cemetery every week. No fail.

femmy_steff I will pray for you, I can't imagine waiting so long then ectopic. =( Parang, you want no so badly, nandyan na, then she's taken away from you. Ang sakit. I hope you heal soon, and I hope you are blessed with a child soon.

If anyone wants to talk about their story in private, please email me or add me in FB. My email ad is melandthenewnormal@gmail.com (I hope posting this is allowed, baka di pala, please just let me know).

[haileybaby]

sis mamapeew, ok na din un na magkasama sila atleast may mag aalaga sa baby mo. ako hindi ko sya kayang kausapin pag dumadalaw ako sa kanya. kasi naiiyak ako, sa picture ko nalang sya kinakausap. . sobrang sakit kasi talaga, kahit maraming tao sa sementeryo wala akong pakialam, umiyak talaga ako, apartment type kasi yung kay baby kaya tabi tabi lang talaga.

sis femmy_steff, alam ko kung gano kasakit yung ganyan, 2 beses na akong nawalan, yung una blighted ovum sya, ayun niraspa din ako kasi walang baby eh, sobrang iniyakan ko talaga yun kasi sobrang nag eexpect kami na ok eh, tapos yung pangalawa pa nga, IUFD naman, yung naramdaman ko talaga parang gusto ko na ring mamatay kasi ang sakit sakit na talaga, nagtampo ako kay Lord kasi bakit naman ganun, bakit sakin pa. hindi naman ako nagkulang sa pag aalaga nung buntis ako at lalong hindi ako nagkulang sa dasal. pero wala naman akong choice kundi maging strong lang. ang advice ko lang sundin mo yung parents nyo na magheal muna, kasi ako after nung raspa after 3 mos tsaka ako nagbuntis at medyo maselan sya, nagspotting ako at nag placenta previa totalis pa ako, pero walang connect lahat ng yun sa ikinamatay ni baby.

sis Mel0204, yup ganun na nga, ang hirap lalo habang tumatagal, sana talaga someday magkakila kilala din tayo. anyway, please pm mo naman sakin yung url ng fb mo, kasi nakaprivate ata profile mo na hindi ka masesearch. tnx.

[bAbYrUsH]

Hi mga sis, di pa ako nagbabackread sa thread na ito but I want to share my story too.   I lost my baby also just recently. He's my 4th child and with a very big gap from my youngest daughter. All my kids were delivered normal without any complications. And now at my age 34 I got pregnant again. During my first trimester, the only problem I had with this pregancy was UTI and placenta previa. I took rest, took antibiotics, still did photoshoots but very light lang. No bleeding at all. Then came 2nd trimester, my placenta went up already. But the baby is still transverse. I'm hoping that when my due date will come he will be in cephalic position.  Then came end of Oct. Im quite emotionally stressed due to problems with my mom, sister, small fights with my husband, then we also got worried and sad owing that my MIL has a stage 1 breast cancer.   Oct 29 we attended mass for my MIL coz that's the date we knew it from a call from her overseas.  Then I  noticed at all that my baby isn't moving that much. I thought I would have a preterm labor.  Then came oct 31 halloween, I noticed that there's no movements but I didn't go to hospital coz Im thinking that I might be on labor but there's no bleeding and no so much pain.  Then Nov 1 and 2 we became busy, i forgot to observe the baby's movements. All I know that he might just positioning himself into a cephalic position. Then Nov 3 is the bday of my youngest, we became busy too. Then sunday we attended mass, I noticed that Im sad.. don't know why. Then Nov 5 I decided to have my check up na since it's already a month after my last check-up.   Then I told my OB na parang di sya magalaw. Basta medyo tumitigas puson ko na parang naglalalabor. My OB got worried kaya sabi nya higa na tignan natin. Then ayun na i got nervous, tagal nya hinahanap heartbeat pero wala talaga. Pina ultrasound nya ko agad, then un na-confirm no heartbeat na.

Then yun we went home muna with so much pain. First time ito sa amin and hindi ineexpect talaga. Then we waited for my cervix to open before ako na induce. Then nung nainduce na ako he came out so fast. I had 3hours labor only. from 1 cm to 10cm after 3 hours.   Gising ako when I delivered him out, I want to see him. Thats the time na nalaman ang reason. His umbilical cord got constricted sa  dulong part near tummy. Basta na alng sumara. Pero his body has no abnormalities, even his size. He's big.  Sayang talaga. Pero sabi nga ng doctor ko, kahit sya di nya mapaliwanag., Diyos lang daw ang nakakaalam.  Sobrang painful talaga. Naiinip na ako sa kanya na mayakap sya  kasi January pa sya dapat lalabas pero iniwan nya na ako agad ngayon.

Then after I gave birth, I was surprised that I'm lactating. Nung nandito pa siya wala  namang milk, pero after I gave birth bigalang nagka milk. My friend told me that I can donate my milk. She told me about a group page in FB wherein I can donate milk. Ayun someone lend me breast pump sana makarami ako. I really want to help in that way I can move on and ease the pain.   I know my son will be happy to know that.

[bAbYrUsH]

My deepest condolence to you Sis Shinta...i know there's no words that could help or heal your grief for the little one that you lost. And thank you for starting this thread, it now became a thread for Angel Mums like me.

Condolences to the other angel mums red_apple, paydayramos, margiee, hailey & all the other angel mums members of GT.

I also lost my baby girl Isabel. I gave birth to her naturally at 39weeks gestation on the 26th of May 2012. It was a silent birth. No sounds came from her when she was born. Sadly, I already knew it 2 days before her birth. I came to the hospital for a non stress test coz I haven't felt her moved the whole day on the 24th of May. That is when we found out that her heart stopped beating. The world crashed down on us and it's unfair & inhuman to learn that the daughter we are waiting for 8 years & ready to welcome in a week time became an angel inside Mommy's womb. It was a bittersweet birth. We were so happy to finally meet her & yet so heartbroken to say goodbye at the same. We took hundreds of pictures...lovely photos.
We are lucky though that we get to hold her, kiss her, hug her & even big sister Nina get to carry her proudly before she was taken for autopsy. We requested for a complete check including all test like amniocentesis, blood works & placenta biopsy on me and autopsy of Isabel. The result came back saying that Isabel has no gene defect or any defect, she was a healthy baby. My placenta though was sick. It has lesions & bloodclots & infection. It was diagnosed as placenta villit of unknown etiology or VUE. It resulted to IUFD or intra uterine fetal death.  It's a common placenta problem but mostly undiagnosed & it could even be possible that almost majority cases of miscarriage & unexplained IUFD is caused by VUE.

We buried Isabel complete with a ceremony and was attended by many close friends & family. We chose two beautiful songs for the ceremony & I get to read the letter of hello & goodbye that we wrote for her. we are looking at a beautiful heart shaped gravestone to put into her grave.

Life now is hard but we try to heal. It's allowed to cry. You are allowed to grieve. Don't let anyone tell you not to or tell when you should grieve. It's your way of healing. It cleanses your soul. Fortunately here where I live we have a support group for grieving Mums. Hindi ko alam Kung meron tayo diyan sa Pilipinas. If not why don't you other Angel Mums organize a meeting or a group date. It helps to talk about our angel babies..it's part of the healing process. Just a suggestion.

Although our babies are not here on earth in our arms, they will always be in our hearts. 
We take care of them everyday in our hearts until we meet them again.

Love & light to all of you my fellow angel mummies.
Grace

I'm so sad to hear your story because we are on the same page. My baby just died recently and suddenly his heart stopped beating inside my womb.  He's 32 weeks when it happened. Then after reading your autopsy report, I thought that might also be the reason for what happened to me. Because from the start, my placenta is low lying.   I'm really sad  but I'm trying to move on.

[Englemamma]

I'm really really sorry & heartbroken for your loss Sis babyrush. I'm crying with you as I read the story of  your little Angel boy. And it just happened recently, you must be in great pain right now. I'm grieving with you Sis.
Have you requested for an autopsy? Kasi sa autopsy Lang makikita kung ano yung talagang rason bakit nagsara yung umbilical cord niya. Nung pinanganak ko si Isabel walang signs of defect sa umbilical cord or kahit sa placenta. Pero sa autopsy lumabas na may unknown bacteria or VUE yung placenta ko kaya nag shut down siya at nag stop yung nourishment passing through the UC. Unfortunately, the cause of death of Isabel can happen again if I got pregnant once more. So I'm trying to get some test done on auto immune issues coz one possible cause of VUE is this.

I know how you feel right now Sis.  I do hope that you are surrounded by people who cares a lot for you & your feelings. Believe me, maraming magmamagaling diyan na sasabihin sa yo okay Lang yun that's life just move on. A lot of people just don't know what they're saying. It would have been wiser to just shut up & give you a hug & cry with you. Kahit gaano nila sabihin na hayaan na Lang natin ang nangyari at mag move on Tayo eh Hindi ganun kasimple. This is about Death..and not just death but the loss of a precious child...your child. Your most awaited little boy that you longed to hug & kiss once he is born. But that chance was robbed away from you, from us angel mothers, so it's not that easy to move on.

Did you get a chance to have a funeral ceremony? What is your little lovely angel boy name?

I'm heartbroken to welcome you here, but I hope you get all the support you need at this time of grieving through this online bereavement support for us Filipina Angel Mums.

Love & light & warm hug to you Sis.

[Englemamma]

Hello my fellow Angel Mommies! I'm soo sorry it took a long time for me to post again but I've been busy with my IVF in October and I wanted to just focus on it. Unfortunately the IVF failed and now I am mourning for my Angel Isabel & my two loss embryos in addition. It took me quite a while to recover from my failed IVF. But even though I'm not posting I'm always thinking of all of you my fellow Angel Moms.

Welcome to this thread Sis Mel0204 and Sis femmy_steff...i'm so sorry for your loss. it's both good and bad that you joined this thread. We didn't wish to join a thread like this but its here and we are lucky to have this thread where we could tell each other our stories and talk about our little angels without any inhibition or thoughts that others would fell uncomfy. Here you can talk freely about your emotions.....Your grief.

I feel your pain Sis femme...I know how it is when you've been waiting soo long for that little miracle to happen & lose it when you finally have it...it took us 8 years to get pregnant with Isabel only to lose her at 39weeks gestation in my womb. It doesn't really matter whether it's 39 weeks or 8 weeks...it is still a life that we loss. Keep strong...be kind to yourself & let yourself grieve. Everything you do is normal coz there's no rules on how to grieve the loss of your child. Take your time to heal both physically & emotionally and when you're ready then your body will also be ready to accept a new life in it.

Sis Haileybaby it's okay to cry & think or even fantasize about how things would have been if your
baby lived. I do that often. Sabi ko nga walang abnormal sa pagdadalamhati. Take your time to grieve.

Sis fab_mom thanks for the FB link to your page.

My fellow angel moms take good care of yourselves.

Love & light

[mamapeew]

^i'm sorry for your failed IVF sis Englemamma and I'm truly sorry for your loss Babyrush. 
Honestly, I always visit this thread, I read posts, but it always breaks my heart. I cry after visiting this thread. I went back to my regular activities before I got pregnant (exercise - zumba), I thought it would make me feel better, but I still feel empty. Sabi nga ng instructor ko the first time she saw me, I look sad daw. Hindi yung gaya ng dati na bubbly and glowing. I guess I still am sad, I just try not to be.

Your healing are always in my prayers, sisses.

[abbina]

Hello mga sis. I always visit this thread, ilang beses na rin ako nagcompose ng response but never had the courage to post it.

I also lost my baby last August 11. 33 weeks na sya nun sa tummy ko. I went to the hospital for check up lang and then dun nalaman na wala na siya, sabi ni Doc most probably mga 2 days na.

I had pre-eclampsia and sabi ng doctor, possible cause of death e hindi daw kinaya yung pagtaas ng BP ko. I had UTI, elevated blood sugar level nung pregnant pa ko. Then nung mga 6-7 months na, nagstart na tumaas ang bp ko and hindi na siya bumaba ng 160/100.

I read here yung about sa autopsy ng baby, I was asked sa hopsital dati pero I said no. I didn't realize na it would help to identify what caused her death. Sobrang gulo kasi ng isip ko nun and hindi pa nagsink in na wala na talaga si baby.

One thing I noticed talaga about my baby was hindi siya magalaw. Di na rin nagchange yung position nya, breech na talaga siya. I also failed to closely monitor her movements. But I always complained to my doctor about her lack of movement, wala namang sinabi ang doctor since everything seemed normal naman daw.

I was scheduled for a CS operation ng 1st week of September. Then July 31, the result of baby's nonstress test was normal. That same day, nagshopping na ako ng mga gamit niya. August 11, wala nang heartbeat na madetect yung doctor. Until the very last minute, kahit nung nasa loob na ko ng operating room, I was still hoping and praying for a miracle to happen.

Bago ako operahan, kinausap ako ng pinsan ko. She told me na ibigay ko nang maluwag si Baby Masie. Hayaan kong maganap ang kalooban ng Dios. Sabi ng pinsan ko, na baka kinuha ng Dios si Masie kasi she might have some internal complications/sakit. Mas masakit daw sa isang magulang yun. Yun na lang ang inisip ko.

After the operation, kapag wala na akong bisita and tulog na si hubby, iiyak ako and will talk to my baby. Lagi ko noong sinasabi na bakit di pa sya naghintay, 4 weeks na lang and dapat makakasama na namin siya. Ang dami kong gustong gawin for and with my baby. Sobrang devastated din noon si hubby and sometimes I can't help but think na baka sinisisi ako ng asawa ko and his family for losing the baby. Baka iniisip nila na ako ang may kasalanan kasi di ko inalagaan ang health ko. Pero sino bang magulang ang gustong mawalan ng anak.

Sa ngayon, I'm back to my old, jolly self. May mga times na matitigilan ako pag naaalala ko nangyari kay baby. Nadedepress din ako pag may mangungumusta about my baby, di kasi nila alam what happened and I find it very hard to casually tell them na wala na ang baby ko.

With everything that has happened, iniisip ko na lang na God has a reason for taking my baby. God is in control and He has better plans for us. Di din ako nawawalan ng pag-asa na someday we will be blessed again kahit isang baby.

This thread has greatly helped me to accept that my baby is gone and is now our angel. Thank you for the stories kasi kahit we do not know each other personally, para na tayong may support group. Pasensya na napahaba.

Malamang playmates na ang mga babies natin. God bless mga sisses.

"To every thing there is a season, and a time to every purpose under the heaven."

[haileybaby]

gusto kong sumagot sa mga posts nyo, pero sa ngayon.. wala pa akong masabi.. naiyak na lang ako.

[bAbYrUsH]

I'm really really sorry & heartbroken for your loss Sis babyrush. I'm crying with you as I read the story of  your little Angel boy. And it just happened recently, you must be in great pain right now. I'm grieving with you Sis.
Have you requested for an autopsy? Kasi sa autopsy Lang makikita kung ano yung talagang rason bakit nagsara yung umbilical cord niya. Nung pinanganak ko si Isabel walang signs of defect sa umbilical cord or kahit sa placenta. Pero sa autopsy lumabas na may unknown bacteria or VUE yung placenta ko kaya nag shut down siya at nag stop yung nourishment passing through the UC. Unfortunately, the cause of death of Isabel can happen again if I got pregnant once more. So I'm trying to get some test done on auto immune issues coz one possible cause of VUE is this.

I know how you feel right now Sis.  I do hope that you are surrounded by people who cares a lot for you & your feelings. Believe me, maraming magmamagaling diyan na sasabihin sa yo okay Lang yun that's life just move on. A lot of people just don't know what they're saying. It would have been wiser to just shut up & give you a hug & cry with you. Kahit gaano nila sabihin na hayaan na Lang natin ang nangyari at mag move on Tayo eh Hindi ganun kasimple. This is about Death..and not just death but the loss of a precious child...your child. Your most awaited little boy that you longed to hug & kiss once he is born. But that chance was robbed away from you, from us angel mothers, so it's not that easy to move on.

Did you get a chance to have a funeral ceremony? What is your little lovely angel boy name?

I'm heartbroken to welcome you here, but I hope you get all the support you need at this time of grieving through this online bereavement support for us Filipina Angel Mums.

Love & light & warm hug to you Sis.

HI sis, thanks for your sympathy. I'm crying also while reading your reply.  I wasn't able to request for an autopsy due to financial reasons.  But I know maybe he got infected because I had UTI twice and High fever last june and september.   His name is Nyle, named after my 2nd child Kyle. His due date is the same as the birthday of Kyle sana kasi by January 5.   I got the chance to took a video and photo of him right after I delivered him out.  I'm awake that time, no anesthesia  just pain reliever.   I also got the chance to send him to church the day after I delivered him, we ask the parish to bless  and baptize him before sending to his funeral the next day.  I promised to myself that I will have his baptism at Nuestra Senora de Guia Shrine in Ermita. 

Yes you are right sis, some will say " tama na yan hindi sya para sa inyo, 3 naman na anak nyo eh" . But for me its not how many kids you have.  He is  still a life given to me.  HIs body parts are normal, his weight is big than the usual.. basta na lang naging ganun.  I know God has a reason.  I am not questioning Him. I know in his time, I will accept it. As for now, I want to help other mommies with babies in NICU by donating my milk despite of my busy schedule.

Thanks sis for enlightening me=)

[bAbYrUsH]

Hello mga sis. I always visit this thread, ilang beses na rin ako nagcompose ng response but never had the courage to post it.

I also lost my baby last August 11. 33 weeks na sya nun sa tummy ko. I went to the hospital for check up lang and then dun nalaman na wala na siya, sabi ni Doc most probably mga 2 days na.

I had pre-eclampsia and sabi ng doctor, possible cause of death e hindi daw kinaya yung pagtaas ng BP ko. I had UTI, elevated blood sugar level nung pregnant pa ko. Then nung mga 6-7 months na, nagstart na tumaas ang bp ko and hindi na siya bumaba ng 160/100.

I read here yung about sa autopsy ng baby, I was asked sa hopsital dati pero I said no. I didn't realize na it would help to identify what caused her death. Sobrang gulo kasi ng isip ko nun and hindi pa nagsink in na wala na talaga si baby.

One thing I noticed talaga about my baby was hindi siya magalaw. Di na rin nagchange yung position nya, breech na talaga siya. I also failed to closely monitor her movements. But I always complained to my doctor about her lack of movement, wala namang sinabi ang doctor since everything seemed normal naman daw.

I was scheduled for a CS operation ng 1st week of September. Then July 31, the result of baby's nonstress test was normal. That same day, nagshopping na ako ng mga gamit niya. August 11, wala nang heartbeat na madetect yung doctor. Until the very last minute, kahit nung nasa loob na ko ng operating room, I was still hoping and praying for a miracle to happen.

Bago ako operahan, kinausap ako ng pinsan ko. She told me na ibigay ko nang maluwag si Baby Masie. Hayaan kong maganap ang kalooban ng Dios. Sabi ng pinsan ko, na baka kinuha ng Dios si Masie kasi she might have some internal complications/sakit. Mas masakit daw sa isang magulang yun. Yun na lang ang inisip ko.

After the operation, kapag wala na akong bisita and tulog na si hubby, iiyak ako and will talk to my baby. Lagi ko noong sinasabi na bakit di pa sya naghintay, 4 weeks na lang and dapat makakasama na namin siya. Ang dami kong gustong gawin for and with my baby. Sobrang devastated din noon si hubby and sometimes I can't help but think na baka sinisisi ako ng asawa ko and his family for losing the baby. Baka iniisip nila na ako ang may kasalanan kasi di ko inalagaan ang health ko. Pero sino bang magulang ang gustong mawalan ng anak.

Sa ngayon, I'm back to my old, jolly self. May mga times na matitigilan ako pag naaalala ko nangyari kay baby. Nadedepress din ako pag may mangungumusta about my baby, di kasi nila alam what happened and I find it very hard to casually tell them na wala na ang baby ko.

With everything that has happened, iniisip ko na lang na God has a reason for taking my baby. God is in control and He has better plans for us. Di din ako nawawalan ng pag-asa na someday we will be blessed again kahit isang baby.

This thread has greatly helped me to accept that my baby is gone and is now our angel. Thank you for the stories kasi kahit we do not know each other personally, para na tayong may support group. Pasensya na napahaba.

Malamang playmates na ang mga babies natin. God bless mga sisses.

"To every thing there is a season, and a time to every purpose under the heaven."

sis, naiiyak ako..pareho tayo.. namili pa kao ng gamit and clothes  then kinabukasan na confirm na wala na sya.. hayyyy.... =(  bka mga playmates na nga ang mga babies natin in heaven. Tama ka mas masakit kung mabubuhay sya pero maghihirap sya sa sakit na mararamdaman nya. May complications talaga siguro kaya di na sila nagsurvive.

[Englemamma]

^i'm sorry for your failed IVF sis Englemamma

Thank you sis mamapeew. I think I didn't grieve that much with my failed IVF coz the loss of Isabel is much more overwhelming. I will still go through another IVF in February and hopefully that time it will be successful.

Welcome to this thread of AngelMoms Sis abbina. I'm really really sorry for the loss of your beautiful daughter Masie. She must have been a gorgeous little girl. I too had been asking the same question, why did my daughter left so soon. she's gone even before she came into this world. We have so much love for them before we even met them. Just a little more time and they should have been in our arms, but instead they now live in our hearts.

I hope you find the much needed support and understanding here in this thread. All of us AngelMoms are here for you.

[miyay]

love and light to all angel mums.

[fab_mom03]

Hi fellow angel moms, ang tagal ko nawala, i've been really busy and I apologize. Hindi pa din ako nag-baback read, but I noticed we have a few new angel moms here and I just would like to express my condolences. I am deeply sorry for your losses.

How are you all? Just wanted to share this. I was at the church last sunday and saw two baby boys sleeping in their mothers' arms. One was a tiny baby and the other one was a toddler, would have been the same age as my baby boy. I burst out into tears and sobbed uncontrollably. I just couldnt control my emotions. It hurts so much, sisses. I miss my son so much, but I couldnt get angry with God anymore. There is a new life forming in my womb so instead of questioning Him, I asked for strength, and mercy. I prayed and begged to please not take this child, dahil hindi ko na kakayanin pa.

Ang hirap talaga maging angel mom.. lagi na lang worried. Kayo mga sis, kamusta na kayo?

[abbina]

Good morning fellow angel moms.

Naiyak na naman ako upon reading this thread. 

Most of the time, I'm okay. Pero may mga times na naiiyak ako bigla lalo na kapag may nakikita akong ibang babies. Lagi ko naiisip ganyan kalaki na sana yung baby ko. Dito sa office, ang dami ko kasabayan nagbuntis, lahat sila nanganak ang nakabalik na rin sa office like me. Sa FB ang dami ko ding friends and relatives who have given birth. Ang cucute ng babies nila, minsan bitter and naiinggit ako. 

Alam nyo mga sis, pagbalik ko dito sa office, ayoko magpalakad lakad, ayoko kasi na tanungin nila ako about my baby. I don't know how or ayoko na kasi paulit ulit ikwento na my baby died.

Sa CR madalas ako tanungin ng mga officemates ko na di alam nangyari sa amin ni baby kung kumusta na ang baby ko, kung girl or boy ba daw ang baby ko. Everytime tatanungin ako, bumibigat ang dibdib ko.

Madalas din bigla papasok sa isip ko yung kanta na lagi ko dating pinapakinig kay baby kahit nasa tummy pa siya. After nun, iiyak na ako. 

Mga sis, after giving birth to our angels, natrauma ba kayo? Or gusto nyo ba magbaby agad ulit? Sabi kasi nung officemate ko, yung friend daw niya ayaw magbaby ulit dahil nawala din baby niya. Ako kasi ang unang tanong ko sa OB ko, when po ako pwede magbaby ulit. Di ko alam kung weird ba ako.

God bless us mga sisses. Malamang pinapanood tayo ng mga baby angels natin sa itaas. 

[akiteklea]

Eto share ko lang yung nangyari sa secretary sa previous office ko.

Halos sabay kami kinasal nung 2010, september kami while they were november. Pag bumibisita ako sa office she would always ask me kung meron na. Nabalitaan ko na lang december 2011 she was preggy na, kami naman ni husband february 2012. We were both happy. She announced it on facebook, kami hindi. She was supposed to give birth on august, so by august nicheck ko fb nya. Dun ko lang nalaman they lost their baby... i was heavily pregnant then, ayaw ko naman din itanong kung bakit. Baka mastress lang ako.

Then when my husband visited the office last october, dun lang nag kwento yung secretary sa kanya. She was on her 37th week nung nagpa weekly checkup sya, wala na daw heartbeat yung baby. Nagulat daw sya, 4 days na daw na walang heartbeat si baby, naubusan pala ng amniotic fluid sa loob. Walang sign, wala daw water na nagflow sa kanya and no pain. Kaya they were devastated, 37 weeks na kaya at full term na! Kaya si husband ko at ako napraning, everytime i pee, talagang ni checheck ko ko kung wiwi ba yun o water na. I also asked my ob about it, sabi niya may mga cases talaga na ganun, kaya i have to be really aware daw at dapat laging ni- momonitor ang movements ni baby.

I havent talked to her yet, but when i checked her fb again, mukhang naka move-on na siya. I know deep inside masakit pa rin sa kanya, pero when i look at her pictures, bilib ako sa kanya, she can tell everyone that she gave birth to a baby girl kaya lang angel na.

Kaya dont lose hope mga mommies. May mga angel na nag-wawatch over na sa inyo...

[megansmomma]

I couldnt help but checked this thread, sobrang parang me attachment although it doesnt happen to me, well lagi kong dasal kay god that it would not happen.

I am praying for all of you sissies, although di pa tayo nagkikita kita,im with you on your battle. I know soon magkakababy na kayo ulit, ITS really really hard to lose a part of you, and thats your baby. Pero smile because he/she is your angel up there now guiding yu from any harm and protecting you always, I know no words can console what you truly feel pero kung di nio ma-open yun sa iba, Open naman ang thread naten 24/7 diba?

Yun kapitbahay namin, they lost their 1st child too and it was very devastating! pero may baby na sila ngayon, and their angel will always be part of their life kahit di na nila yun kasama physically

To lighten up, you do not owe anyone an explanation of what had happen blah blah, you dont need other's sympathy mga sis. Always remember, life is beautiful kahet anong mangyari. God wont give us something kung alam nia na di natin kakayanin yun!

Ingat kayo, i hope nakapagpagaan ako ng loob kahit konti

[mimigarcia]

Grabe nakakaiyak ang thread na toh   

[emmylou]

hugs sa inyo mga sis. my angelbaby is now 5 years na. nakamove na rin ako dahil nagkaroon na rin ako ng rainbow baby. she is now 1 year. alam ko na hindi ganun kadali na makalimutan ang sakit. lalo na lumabas ang baby ko ng buhay. pero dahil premature siya at 4 mos lang siya in gestation, nawala rin siya in an hour. , eventually, darating din ang panahon na darating rin ang rainbow babies ninyo. i hope it will be soon para mapunuan na rin kahit paano ang gap na iniwan ng angelbabies natin.