Bilangin nio kung ilang times ako nag-initiate ng reconciliation:
Hi..Im Miel & I just turned 30yo last July..This is my break-up story..
My ex & I met thru a TV chatroom Mar. 2010..He's 7yrs younger, pure chinese & frm a well-to-do fam..We got steady after dating for a month & Ive nvr bin happier my whole lyf (or so I thought)..On our 3rd month, I accidentally found out that he got his ex pregnant..It was the saddest day of my life bcoz all the wyl I thot I found my soulmate, he was all I evr wanted in a guy despite the age gap..So I broke up wit him & got drunk every night just to ease the pain..But a week later, we got back 2geder & he explained everythng: that his ex tricked him into getting her pregnant & was blackmailing him into the whole pregnancy thing, told me that his ex was threatening to tell his family abt her situation if he wont follow her demands: that he cant have a filipino gf, that he needs to send her money, etc..My ex was worried bcoz he cant let his family know abt it since he's actually having issues wit them for a long time, said he didnt feel like he's a part of his fam, that he's treated like a puppet..We were able to keep our relationship a secret , though, for a month but his ex found out abt us & threatened him again..She said she wud tell his fam if he wont break up wit me & so he did but bcoz we really love each oder it only lasted a day (because I texted him that I wont allow him to just give up on us because of his ex..So this was the 1st)..We agreed to be more careful & I made a huge adjustment..I became the martyr gf who wud remind him to deposit money for the gurl on mondays, i even offered to go wit him to buy baby stuff, I wud allow him to talk to her on his phone wyl we're together (evn on dates), I wont text him everytime the gurl visits him at the shop (family business), & on Saturdays they wud hav dinner & he wud buy her groceries..I love my ex that time & since I ddnt hav a choice, I endured the hurt I was experiencing..October, we found out that his ex had plans of telling everyone abt the baby once she gives birth..My ex decided to cut all ties wit her: communication & support..Aside from that he couldnt take his family any longer so he left & came to live wit me..For 3 months I tried to fix the problem my ex left behind: his family issues, his pregnant ex gf, all issues in his life..I became his lawyer, his bestfriend, I wud give him moral support, boost his morale & made him believe in himself again..But when all his problems were over & he returned to his family, that's when we started falling apart..He ddnt have time for me anymore, wud always hav an excuse not to see me, he became a stranger..It was 4 days before our 1st anniv when I got fed up & broke up wit him..20 days later we talked & got back together (beacause I begged him..2nd time) but it was totally different..Its like he was no longer the same person bcoz he wud hurt me so bad emotionally I can feel my heart getting ripped to shreds..I decided to break up wit him again after a month & did it thru text..I let all my emotions out, the hurt, my sentiments..I wanted him to know how deeply hurt I was wit what he did..5 days after, we got back together again & it only lasted for 2 months..5 days after my birthday we decided to break-up but this time for good..But the funny thing was we still love each other & we wud meet ocassionally & we still DO it though we're not in a relationship..I told him that I ddnt want to become his f*ck buddy & said that I wasnt..But that's exactly how I feel wit our situation..When I told him that I wanted to be his gf again (initiated another reconciliation..the 3rd) he said he's confused so I decided to let go..There were so many times that we would both say we wont bother each other anymore but we would take it all back..I decided to let go for good last Tues but he texted me that he wanted to see me this Friday..what should I do? I know how weak I am & I know that my defenses will come flying out the window once I see him again..Why do u think he wants to see me still? Do U thinks he still loves me but he's just confused? Pls help me..Im really lost