Ok, so the formula to self-improvement is not so hard to figure out. I've heard lots of advice like go to the gym, join a class, read a lot of books, etc. But how do you actually improve your character? How do you make yourself better on a much deeper level.. not just in terms of physical attributes, extent of experience, financial status and whatnot.
How do you shift from a negative to a positive mindset? Develop good attitude? How do you apply your ideals and values in world that only ends up frustrating you most of the time? The reason I'm asking is.. I cannot stand myself lately. I've become so high strung, easily aggravated, easily feels the need to complain, and bothered by the pettiest of things.
I'm so short of optimism right now. Most of the time, all I think about is how to survive.. but not how to live. I've lost my sense of wonder about the great things in the world. I feel stuck. I don't think I have anything good to contribute to society. As they say, to be happy, you have to be the kind of person you will love to be with. I don't feel that at all. If I were my partner, I'd fall out of love with myself.