hi girls. I just want to vent out this issue with my husband I've had for quite some time now.
I spend for almost everything.
There I said it. And lately i feel very very down because most of the time I feel very lonely because when i was single, i used to have lots of money for myself. And now i cannot even shop or go out. kasi most of the time wala na akong pera.
i got pregnant before we got married and started living in one house. But things we're pretty okay back then. I was continuously being given my weekly allowance from my father so i had money for everything. Hubby also used to share the expenses but I remember me always sharing the bigger share.
When my baby was about a year old, i decided i wanted to work, so i could buy things for myself. I spent a year already with me supporting me son. I thought it's about time I buy things for myself as well. My husband...well.. he was jobless and was receiving i have no idea how much salary from his family's business.
So we got a yaya, and i worked. My husband studied again during that time. as usual. I was the one who took care of our food, yaya's salary, baby's needs and all.
My dad decided to ask me to resign from the company i was working with at that time, because, he felt i was working too much, while my husband..well he was studying. My dad asked me to work for him. and so i did. I came home to my family. leaving my husband on his own. we saw each other every weekends or when we had the time. And still, no support from him. There were times I was given financial support from my husbands family. Sometimes.
My son is turning 4 now and is about to study in June. wala naman akong issues kung paano ko papaaralin sa baby. I got it covered.
It just sucks.. everytime i ask for support.. parang wala lang sa kanya, wala daw pera, minsan sinesecret niya pa sa akin na may pera siya. Eh hindi naman talaga ako mahingi na tao, kaya most of the time pinapabayaan ko nalang.
ngayon, magkahiwalay pa din kami ng bahay. nagrereview na siya ngayon. hindi ko alam kung ano ang plano nya after. wala padin siyang ginagastos for his family.
Pero lately nahihirapan na talaga ako. and narealize ko halos mag 5 years na palang ganito.
haaay... nakakainis. akala nilang lahat masarap ang buhay ko kasi mayaman napangasawa ko.