To those who have been trying to get pregnant, can you share your tips how you manage to cope with the pressure and the depression of being unsuccessful at it?
My hubby and I have been married and TTC for almost 3 years already and it's starting to get to me. It's all I ever think about! It gets really really frustrating when I here about somebody especially close to the family getting pregnant. I do manage to fake a smile, and make a half-hearted "congratulations, I'm happy for you" but can anybody blame me if deep inside I'm really not and I just feel all the more sorry for myself?
This year alone, 3 members of our family are already expecting, 2 of them even unplanned. First, my husband's cousin who have been also been trying for a couple of years already. Basically, they were our "kakampi". We used to be on the same boat, and wrong as it may be, it was comforting to actually feel that we are not alone in this.
Then, my brother's wife, who is only 22 but already have a 4&1/2 year old. She's expecting again this time. Good for her, unfortunately not for me.
The final straw for me came very recently when my hubby's (he's only 30 while I'm 29) brother , who's 6 years younger than him announced unexpectedly that he got his girlfriend pregnant. I couldn't help but break into a sob. It was just too damn frustrating and too damn ironic! No one was expecting him to give them their first apo. Not only was he the youngest but it's also way too early for them to be getting pregnant! They've only met 6 or 7 months ago for heaven's sake and their relationship is definitely shorter than that. Besides, everyone was counting on US to get pregnant first, being the married couple. Nobody ever imagined that they would get ahead of us, not this early at least.
I really really don't know what to do. I'm pretty sure I'll be getting a lot of "naunahan na kayo" remarks from his side of the family and I don't know if I can hold myself together this time, and keep myself from breaking down in front of everybody.
I need a friend badly, and a good friend for me right now is someone who, in one way or another, is in my same shoes, who knows how this feels like.
Mga sis, care to share your thoughts?