Sorry if I have to write this, na inspire lang ako., after reading the article.. grabe siguro in an hour nasulat ko 'to.. as in nagflow lang lahat ng words.. Thank you so much for sharing this... Here's my write up..
I think life has a funny way of making us realize things. You know me, I’m so much attached into finding my one great love. I was always this dreamy, romantic and passionate when it comes to the things I want to achieve in life. People would always see me so happy (in love at all times) but deep inside I have a tendency to explode and fall apart but that didn’t stop me from living a better life.
Yes, in that search for great love I was in the worst relationships I could ever be. Luckily, I was able to move on and it brought me to where I am now. Stronger and more independent when it comes to men BUT I have a weakness, it’s when I fall in love ‘again’. It can wreck havoc in my senses, it can drive me away from my priorities and bring me down and destroy the wall I build for myself. The one that got away
- I actually let him go. Because of my immature way of life, I hurt the person who mean a lot to me. I would think about him even when I’m in relationships. He loved me so much that I got tired of it... he’s soo good to me that I can’t stand it. If it’s my fault, he tells me he’s sorry... He’ll do just everything for me. I got bored. Unfortunately, I needed someone more in control, bad ass and someone who can boss around and be dominant.
So in the midst of living my life in the single world, I thought of all these. I manage to build my career, be happy with myself not thinking of LOVE or being in a relationship. I know I am ready to commit someday and in the back of my mind, I thought of him. I have been very grateful for everything, especially having my son... Maybe now what’s missing is someone who I can spend the rest of my life with and someone who’ll love my son as his. To the one that almost got away and came back
– Many times I thought of you and in those times I tried to reach out but you shut me off. For years, I carried this guilt of hurting you and wished you are okay. And if there’s one guy I’ll fall in love with over and over again, it’s you. If only I can tell you how much I love you every day until you forget all the things that hurt, I would in a heartbeat.
Sometime last year, you had a girlfriend and it broke my heart. I wish I could steal you away.. but I was also scared that I might hurt you again.. and I wanted to be happy for you and so I let you go.
Sometime this year, we talked again.. I was worried that you got married already.. Somehow the couple of months of silence helped me to move on. I asked how you were and you told me the relationship didn’t work, I smiled, breathe. It made me think but after that I seized every moment I have - to be with you.
So here I am now, falling in love with you again.