I used to ask for signs, but now, I believe nalang in .........."THY WILL BE DONE". ^^
I JUST CAN NOT AGREE MORE!
i'm a self-proclaimed perfectionist--something i really dislike about myself
of course as a human, i have constant needs and wants, and I'm the type who gets irritated when I don't get what I really like. to be clear, i am ambitious. if i like something, i do everything to achieve it. and once i put my 100% efforts there, of course i tend to expect something in return. and if my works are not reciprocated, i get depressed, terribly.
i know i can overcome this. but not without God.
ang dami kong gustong mangyari. academic achievements tend to be addictive, really.
so i pray. but I don't bargain with God anymore. tama na, nakakapagod. if i am really to obey God, I have to surrender.
syempre di pa rin nawawala 'yung mga wishes ko in my prayers. and i make efforts for those wishes to come true. however if all efforts don't seem to yield anything but frustrations, then we must learn to let go. this is what i am working on. mahirap talaga to accept things as they are, and to trust the unseen. but this is what God is, after all. God is not a fairygod mother. He knows what's best for us. so I entrust everything to Him. =)
"Thy will be done.."