Hi sisses. I'm having a dilemma right now. Here's the situation:
I'm currently employed as contractual sa present work ko for one year now. Out of all the jobs I had before, dito talaga ko sobrang enjoy. I feel productive at gusto ko talaga yung ginagawa ko - something I did not feel before, ever. When it comes to the people sa company, okay naman generally kahit na yung iba may seniority complex talaga, pero maybe ganun talaga eh.
I was hesitant at first to accept this job kasi sa past work ko na hindi ko naman talaga gusto yung ginagawa, ippromote pa ako at tataas talaga sweldo ko. But I decided to give up higher salary for the chance to work on something I think I would like. And up to this day, I feel I made the right choice. Kasi very fulfilling talaga yung trabaho ko ngayon.
Now here's my issue. I know contractual lang ako dito. Nung tinanggap ko to, nandun yung hope na sana i-absorb ako. Marami-rami kasi sa department namin na ganun yung nangyari. They started as contractuals at first tapos, na-absorb na. Yung iba, sakto na may nag-resign tapos sila yung pumalit. Yung iba, ginawan talaga ng position at pinaglaban sa HR. So I'm hoping na sana ganun din ang mangyari sa kin.
Pero lately, I'm getting this hunch na wala akong chance na ma-regular at all. I feel wala yun sa radar ng boss ko. Sakin nandun din yung feeling na base sa ginagawa ko, I don't deserve na ma-regular kasi siguro parang support lang ako eh. I don't have the capacity to make bigger things happen.
So yun, sad talaga. I'm in my mid 20s now and had around 4 jobs already at never pa akong naging regular at di ako enjoy sa ginagawa. With my present work, I like the company and I like my job pero in terms of sweldo at benefits, wala eh. Malungkot ako kasi first time ko lang nagkaroon ng trabaho na masasabi ko talaga gusto ko, pero ganun pa din, mukhang contractual na lang ata ako forever.
Ngayon hindi ko alam if I should stick it out first and wait a bit longer, or maghanap na talaga ng iba. Ang hirap eh kasi kung may work man na gusto ko talagang ma-regular, eto yun eh. I'm afraid na wala na kong makikitang ganitong work na fulfilling at masaya at the same time.
Any words of advice, sisses?