Ako din, ganito ata set up. But the thing is, we're both very much single. Sooobrang bagal lang niya. At first naman kasi, I didn't have feelings for him. Pero eventually naging close kasi kami and we have the same circle of friends, so akala ng lahat kami na. I even asked him twice about us, but he said like "relax ka lang, darating din tayo diyan". Sobra akong na-frustrate. After that, I told myself, I would never ever open up and ask him about it ulit, kasi kung gusto niya siya naman na magsasabi. Walang ligawan naman na nangyayari, pero we like each other. I just learned to go with the flow. Kung gusto niya, eh di sige, kung ayaw eh di wag. Of course at the back of my mind, meron pa din akong tinge of hope na sana, matauhan na siya. Obviously he doesn't want me enough to commit to me. So I am just enjoying the friendship we have.
I think what makes this a little easier for me is that he is also not the bolera type din kasi, what you see is what you get. Although may mga gestures siya na would make me feel that he really cares. We're also not the parang super touchy feely type in public. We talk on the phone everyday, and I hardly ever initiate the phone calls or the text messages. Even pag magkikita kami, pag hindi siya nag-aya, eh di wala. Hindi ko naman siya boyfriend eh. Challenging din kasi I told myself to let go na pero ayoko kasi nanghihinayang ako sa friendship, ayokong magka-lamat.
I don't know where this will lead and how long it will take. This is going on na for almost 7 months. The only progress is that we became closer. Kung may magandang ending man ito, at least yung foundation ng friendship namen is already there so it would great pag naging kami officially. Kung hindi, I have faith that someone way better will come along who will commit to me. I just hope I won't have to wait too long lang. So I guess abangan ang susunod na kabanata.