I know how you're feeling sis... I'm also in the similar situation... Tama yung advice na allow yourself to grieve, iiyak mo lang yan. Iiyak mo pero give yourself a deadline, hindi pwede gabi gabi mag ggrieve ka. Not only will it make you feel the hurt longer; it will also take the time you should be having to recover.
Ako, I grieved and begged. Begging wasn't a wise decision kasi in the end parang bumaba lang yung tingin ko sa sarili ko, pero during those times na I was begging I felt like I couldn't stop it; para bang, "sige isa pang try, baka this time it'll work" pero it did not. But since I did it already, I don't want to hurt myself more by regretting it. Inisip ko na lang na I did give it my last try, wala ng what ifs and what could have beens, wala na talaga, so I have NO reason not to move on.
It's your choice to move on and let go sis. Mahirap and masakit pero moving on and letting go is the only way out of this pain. Mahirap pero possible, iniisip lang natin na imposible kasi gusto natin magwork ang relationship na tayo na lang ang naniniwalang mag wowork.
Pray sis. Pray pray pray. Sometimes I go to the church alone, any time of the week and nagdadasal lang ako. Kinakausap si God, umiiyak sakanya. Then I'll feel better. Write it out. Write it all out. Listen to feel-good songs. Wag na yung sad love songs. Dapat happy uplifting songs na. Make yourself busy--- find a job, do well in school, do well at work. Prettify yourself not because you want your ex to want you back but because you owe yourself that decision to feel good and look good. Do things for yourself from now on. Buy a self-help book about break-ups if you must. I'm lovin' the book "It's called a break-up because it's broken."
Accept the facts, choose to let go and take steps to move on.
Honestly ako nahihirapan pa din kasi naiisip ko pa din siya madalas pero knowing na may control ka over your feelings and decisions is good enough already to prove na you have a choice. And you'll choose to be happy syempre.
Kahit sandamakmak na advices pa ang ibigay saten, nasasatin pa din yung sagot--- whether to take all these advices or not.
Kaya if you want to stop hurting, deal with it now. Wag ng iprolong.
Kaya natin toh'. Kaya mo ito sis.