I was 12, he was 12, first yr. highschool, we're seatmates. He was so madaldal, while i'm the quite-shy type, sa sobrang kadaldalan nya and bein' so annoying, dahil mahilig syang sumagot sagot ng pilosopo sa teacher and madre binabato sya ng eraser, sad to say ako ang tinatamaan, todo pasalamat naman sya sakin for saving him, then one time he told me na he'll stop na, para di na daw ako mabato, which i answered him back,"buti naka realize ka, coz i hate you", bigla syang na shock, then he started papansin na, like may dalang food for me, since seatmate kami and napaka bata pa, we even exchanging drinks from our jug and when he know na fave ko ang apple nagdala sya, and when he showed it to me, sabay sabi ko naman na sorry, i want the red one not the green. And i saw sadness in his eyes, ewan ko ba bakit nagmamaldita ako sa kanya lagi.
He was a jock, while i'm the bench girl, just there watching in the corner, while lots of girls ay tumitili sa kanya, pero i just have this smile kase bago mag start ang game dumadaan muna sya sa classroom namin, and he let me cut his fingernails. He told some of my lunch buddies na, i was the girl that he wanted to marry someday, and he even announced in our classroom in front of our classmates and teacher na crush nya ako. So tinukso na kami, everytime na may execution ng dance moves sa PE class, kami pina-partner, kaya mas lalong lumalakas ang kantyawan, which i hated, he noticed it, kaya medyo nagka ilangan na kami.
Gap started na and yun yung time na i missed him, nawala na din ang tuksuhan and dun ko na realize na "eto na ba ang love?, ang bata ko pa", he belong to popular group in school kaya the more na nagkalayo na kami, kahit mag classmate pa kami. And i guess na yung group na yun somewhat influenced him to avoid me, kaya nung may nag transfer sa school na girl, group pa nya mismo nagreto kaya naging sila, ay, young love nga, it hurts talaga. kahit 15 nako and may nanligaw sa kin, i just wished na twas him, there's this incident since i was in a school band, and hapon na matapos ang practice, so yung mga naiwan sa school except my bandmates are yung mga mag bf/gf na nag de-date, i saw him with his gf, awkward kase kung san sila naka upo dun pa naman ako dadaan, he was looking at me deeply, and his gf noticed, na try pa ng gf nya na e move yung face nya paharap to her. Her gf even gaya-gaya kung ano hairstyle ko like if may ponytail ako, or mag headband or mag clip lang, minsan same design pa ibang color lang, which is weird lang.
There are times that i caught him staring at my pic, since yung mag nasa top 10 kase ng class, dini-display sa isang corner ng classroom namin, pag nagka banggaan sa hallway we couldn't even look at each other. Mag classmate din ang mga sibs namin, kaya nagulat ako nung nakita nya bro ko and he told him na ako daw gf nya sa school, kaya nagsumbong yung bro ko sa parents ko, kaya more na na confuse ako what he's up to.
On our last year sa highschool nag break sila ng gf nya, then i noticed na lagi akong pinaparinggan ng barkada nya na, pwedeng ibalik ang old flame, walang masama. Plus, binabati na nya ako minsan, in a pabiro way, pero feel ko na naiilang pa din sya. Yung isa kung classmate na naging gf din ng kabarkada nya, told me na pls do come on our graduation party, i ask why, then sagot nya basta come, someone wanted to say something to you. Too bad, di ako pinayagan ng papa ko pumunta, kaya iyak ako ng iyak, naisip ko, ano kaya kung pumunta ako?. Nung college nalaman ko na dun sya nag college sa mindanao area, kaya wala na kung news sa kanya that time, then i've just heard na nagkabalikan sila ng gf nya, naging pariwara din sya, never finished school, sayang he was too promising pa naman sa sports. Nalaman ko last year they got married, kase nga yung gf nya lang daw di nag give up sa kanya. He was in fb i just added him lang nung nagpakasal na din ako, para walang issue sa wife nya, that girl kase really hated me and her friends bullied me during my highschool years.
Sabi ng mga friends ko may unfinished business daw talaga kami, i cried for him talaga nun, kahit di naging kami, i told my parents about it, at tawa sila ng tawa sa kin, lalo pa when i told them na, the relationship ended bago pa man umusbong, well, tama sila that good thing di natuloy daw since God gave the best for me, well, i was happy na din coz since married na sya nag strive din, he went to Midlle East, where he worked in tough labor talaga, muntik ko na syang di makilala sa pics, he look old and a bit chubby na din, coincidence na dun din sa country na yun nag wo-work si hubby, but he's in med field, kaya tama nga sabi ng parents ko na balang araw maiintidihan ko ang lahat.
since friend kami sa fb, he greeted me during my wedding day, he chatted me, and make pahapyaw bakit recently lang ako nag asawa, i told him na maybe dahil dun palang binigay sakin yung true love ko, he told me na maybe i wasn't looking daw noon, at bakit ang layo pa ng province ng hubby ko. I feel na he wanted to tell me something. Well i just stop dreaming about him, nung time na naka pag usap kami kahit sa chat lang, kaya part na lang sya ng nakaraan ko.