hmm, 1st love... i think eto sya (since til now naiisip ko pa din)
story goes like this..
we met summer of 2001.. me & my sister were at my mom's hometown in zambales for vacation. then there was a wake sa neighbor, since wala naman napaglilibangan masyado sa province (lalo na dati) tumatambay kami don more more chika lang with girl friends & cousins just so we can stay out late. then one night ng wake, one boy arrived carrying his bag who caught our attention (napatid kasi sya pagpasok sa gate kaya napatingin kami sa kanya, lol

) that was the 1st time i ever saw him. never saw him before kahit since bata pa ko every summer vacation don kami ngistay ng sis ko. i was 14, he was 15 or 16.
then the next evening, andon uli kami, sa may tabi kalsada more more chika na naman, (wala na dumadaan na sasakyan so ok lang sa kalsada, hehe

) then dumating yun isa girl na apo ni lolo na nakaburol kasama sya. magpinsan sila. sabi nong cuz na girl sa isa naming kasama, carme si **** oh. tapos nag-hi hello sila, usap sila. (apparently, parang childhood sweethearts sila nong 1 namin kasama) we weren't formally introduced then. tapos kami the rest sa group back to chikahan uli. pero during that time, i slightly "noticed" him, thought "hmm, he's kinda cute" (landi, hehe)
summer vacation ended, & while on the bus on our way back to manila, my brother handed me my cp (he borrowed it), may nagmimissed call daw (uso pa dati pamiscol miscol), unregistered # on my contacts list. then a bit later i received a text asking if we could be textmates. so i said "who u?" then he gave his name (nalaman ko naman na sya yun since i learned his name nong andon pa kami) & said that he asked for my # from my cousin. so we became textmates.. type pala ako ng loko, hahaha

but never had a hint while we were there kasi no pansin talaga kami sa kanya ang kinakausap lang nya lagi was the other girl (na binigyan pa nya non ng footlong sandwich, naalala ko pa hahaha

)
so ayon, more more text, he even called sa landline ng tita ko (neighbor lang) para paturo kuno about bookkeeping (basic acctg). gusto pa nya non pumunta daw ng school ko, sabi ko ayoko magagalit ako, but then i was looking forward for summer vacation kasi baka umuwi sya uli, which happened.
one time, nasa veranda,nagtatanggal ng nail polish nakataas ang paa sa chair, bigla dumaan sa tapat ng house! lurkey!

kumabog dibdib ko, naexcite kasi finally nakita ko uli sya! bigla baba ng paa, hehe.

then nagdebut din non yun girl (c childhood sweetheart nya) we were invited, 18 roses sya ako 18 wishes/candles. yun 1 cousin ko guy na kasama din sa 18 roses, dinaanan kami sa house (yun yung nagbigay daw sa kanya ng # ko) aba kasama sya & yun iba friends nya from manila na sinama nya sa vacation. so yun sabay sabay kami nagpunta sa debut. medyo selos ako non nong kasayaw nya si debutant, sya ata yun last dance non. pero pinakilala nya ko non sa mga kasama nyang friends, na nakukwento nya sa akin & ako din sa kanila. he even invited me to join them the ff day punta daw sila ng cave somewhere na may grotto, kasama naman daw yun pinsan ko, ang kaso di ako nagising ng maaga so di ako nakajoin!

maaga kasi sila non.
fast forward, constant textmates pa din kami, then later on nagka-landline na din kami we always talked on the phone, for hours... telebabad to the max, inaabot ng madaling araw, hahaha! we talked almost about anything na maisipan, at kainis minsan magkkwento sa kin yun about girls na crush nya! hmf, selos naman ako hahaha. pero syempre di ko pinapahalata, nakikiride lang ako. pero pansin ko non, madalas yun mga sinasabi nya crush nya, karamihan don kamukha ko daw.

so di ko alam kung pinapaselos lang ba nya ko kaya kinukwentuhan ako about crushes nya.
fast forward uli, ganon kami til mag-college ako. there were times na nagkikita kami, pero madalang kasi bawal ako makipag-date though we never called 'em "dates". minsan punta sya sa house kasi may pinuntahan daw sya malapit lang sa amin; minsan he invited me to mcdo para daw tikman yun bago ice cream; i asked him to meet me sa 1 mall just to hand him my gift on his bday, which ended up to a dinner somewhere. we also went out with my sis & cousins. nagpunta din sya nong 18th bday ko sa house, some new year, & nong wake & libing nong daddy ko he was there. he even gave me the "lucky coin" na bigay ng ex nya sa kanya. (ang kwento kasi nong coin daw, sabi nong lola ni ex nya, bigay daw sa taong mahal nya so she gave it to him, which he gave to me the time na mamatay yun daddy ko, sabi ko bakit? since i knew the story about the coin, sabi lang nya non, i need it daw..)
magkakilala ang mothers namin kasi magkapitbahay sila non sa province. iniisip nga daw nong mga relatives nya na nakakakilala sa akin kami daw. (i wished! lol

)
then 1 day eto na, nagtapat ang loko! medyo nakainom ata sya non, he called me up sa house, usap usap then ayon, he told me he loves me daw. eh alam nya non na bawal pa ko mgbf, usapan kasi namin ng mommy ko na after college pa ko pwede magbf. sabi nya alam naman daw nya di pa ko pwede magbf gusto lang daw nya malaman ko, super kilig ako non!

pero di ko syempre pinahalata, di ko na matandaan kung ano sinabi ko, speechless ata ako, haha
ganon pa din constant na phone calls & texts, not officially kami, pero siguro naman halata naman nya may gusto din ako sa kanya di ba. haha
then came april 2006, nagwork ako call center, we had financial difficulty kasi sa family since wala na yun daddy ko. before that medyo nabawasan ang phone calls & textx kasi final year na nya sa college & may duty duty na sya sa hospital (med tech course nya). then ako naging busy naman dahil working, then nong pasukan na uli sa school, lalo naging busy kasi working student ako which was really difficult dahil accountancy ang course ko. super bihira na ang communication between us. and hanggang sa parang nawala sya.. ang tagal hindi nagparamdam. i was hurt, kinda devastated, i thought baka may gf na sya kaya ganon & he'd forgotten about me.
then i kinda fell for another guy, my supervisor at work.. ayon.. hangang sa naging kami ni supervisor. (all along i was thinking na baka nakahanap na sya ng other girl, na may gf na sya kaya nakalimutan na ko

) then after a while, nagparamdam uli, nagtext uli... i felt very sad kasi i've committed myself to mr supervisor na. before i said yes to him, inisip ko muna na if kaya kong panindigan. na dapat kong panindigan kahit bigla bumalik si first love. so ayon, ending ay pinanindigan ko yun yes ko kay mr supervisor, and gathered all will power to try to ignore na lang mga texts ni first love. nakakpanghinayang lang..

until now, naiisip ko pa din sya minsan, lalo na pag nag-aaway kami ni bowa (kami pa din ni mr. supervisor) & umiiyak ako.. naiisip ko yun mga what ifs.. what if sya yun naging bf ko, mag-aaway din kaya kami ng ganon? paiiyakin din kaya nya ko? will he treat me better? yun mga ganon.. hay...
now i have trust issues with mr supervisor, naiisip ko minsan what if naging sya, kaya ba nya pangalagaan yun trust ko sa kanya? hay...
he now has a gf, kung same pa din yun gf nya, matagal na din sila, years na din, & from what i heard, iniyakan daw nya yun nong minsan nakikipagbreak sa kanya (if tama yung kwento sa akin) ouch! lol
sorry sisses! super haba!