Someone I have lukewarm feelings for, even if that someone loves me so much.
After leaving four relationships (I had been so restless, I couldn't commit or get intimate), I realized that I couldn't settle for anything less than a total connection on all possible levels: intellectual (highly important to me), spiritual, etc.
Nakakaawa kasi yung taong sobrang devoted sayo tapos hindi mo ma-mahal in return kahit anong pilit mo sa sarili mo. Kinda unfair. I feel sorry for my ex. He had been really good to me.