Sa akin choice siya. May mga guys na nagpa-cute. Yung PG flirting. Pero walang nanligaw. Dahil siguro alam nilang mabasted din sila. Sabi ng friends ko baka masyado daw mataas standards ko. Feeling ko naman hindi masyado mataas, may standards lang. I won't date a guy dahil available siya, or basta lalaki siya. I want an equal. Sometimes, before it even starts you know it won't work. You know it in your gut. Wala kayong chemistry. It feels like a fling, hindi totoo. So why waste each others time?
There are times na I feel na in terms of dating & courting I'm left out. It's sad sometimes. But then I realize that I don't really feel alone, it's more of I feel envious of my friends dating and getting married. At eto ako, nene pa din (which isn't a bad thing). And then I hear stories from my friends of love stories gone sour and marriages broken.
There are indeed people who chose NOT to get married, to be single forever. Marriage isn't for everyone. There are people who can't imagine themselves getting pregnant, having children, marrying someone (even if they are NOT priests & nuns). It's like this: Even if all women have a uterus, it doesn't mean that she is obligated to have children. It's a choice. It's her body. It's her life.
^^Going back, I just don't know when to risk, how to risk. Or maybe I just haven't met someone worth risking.